Wanted dream lover social boy QTKS

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#41

Today at work I had two women who were acting like damsels in distress( I don’t know if that is the right term) but they basically were acting helpless telling me to fix something inside their car. I laughed because it was bullshit, they ended up doing it themselves when I couldn’t figure out what was wrong. Not a mechanic, I’m actually the worst person to ask about anything in regard to cars btw lol. They were asking me my name, making small talk. I wasn’t attracted because they weren’t my type but it made me realize sometimes just how bold women can be when they want something. They even said that they needed a man to do it because they couldn’t…its like they automatically turned submissive.

I felt more confident than usual but also had some negative thoughts of when I used to be disloyal and lying, thinking of my past mistakes etc., feeling like I’m stuck where I’m at and there’s no way out. Thinking that I’m not worth it. It was a very humbling experience.

Also haven’t watched porn or masturbated for a couple of days, I just don’t feel the urge to and even when the urge comes, it goes away quick

I still have sexual thoughts but they seem more controlled

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#42

Didn’t realize it but I think I just manifested a potential FWB, I was suppose to meet her tonight but no gas Money, like zero Money in the bank account atm so I can’t even take the bus or invite her over because I don’t have my own place…living with family so can’t bring her here smh

So at lease this is working, haven’t hit 30 processing days yet, I think I’m half way there

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#43

I pushed LE to 7mins and hit the hardest recon ever…never again. This was a couple of days ago, never again. I thought I could handle it but it blew up in my face. I have to take a week to washout from all subs. I think I may have symptoms of overexposure from an already heavy stack of QTKS. So I’ll take a break and reevaluate.

#44

How many modules are you running?

#45

my Qtks has a only 10 modules in them but they are all heavy modules

Inner spa
experience love and joy
synergy: I am atman
Synergy: Venus Unveiled
Experimental Adaptive Scripting
Experimental ZPU Anti-Recon
Inner circle core
WDB core
Love bomb core
New Learning Experience Core

For QTKS

#46

For whatever reason, with the new anti recon tech, instead of dropping the sub, I end up adding more subs to my stack that are not necessary. In the past, before ZPU or the new anti recon tech, I would drop all the subs in my stack, now I just end up adding more subs which can be tricky because I always self observe and wait and see whether I have an urge to drop the sub, and when I get an urge I know I have to reduce the listening time or go back a min or a few mins back. Now, I have to watch out for when I get an urge to add a sub

Still tho I think its more recon than over exposure.
I’ve experienced

  • been feeling anxious, heavily doubting myself and whether some of the steps I’ve taken in the past were correct or whether I was self sabotaging this whole time and didn’t even know it

  • seeing myself as the lowest of the lowest

  • criticizing my self

  • losing motivation to work out

  • Sleeping long hours

  • brain fog

  • a little fatigue

  • boredom with everyday things like why do I keep going to work and doing the same mundane things over and over

  • feeling like a social outcast