42 days of Voodoo Child
18 days of Blood Sugar Sex Magick
I was listening 3 loops each a day with 2 days of rest and occasional Libertine Ultima.
I think it might be too much considering the level of reconciliation I had the last 2 days.
Starting now Im doing 3 loops of VC and 2 of BSSM and find out how that works.
Today I feel really good though, like a ton of weight was lifted out of me.
Checking my profile I discovered that Im about to complete 1 year in this forum.
Its been almost a year since I started using subs, I remember when it all started with Regeneration, I had no idea if it was going to work or where the trip would take me.
Its been a long time and a fun journey. Who knows where Im gonna be a year from now, now that Im using my customs and I have a couple more planned for the future.
Congratulations. So many changes. Regeneration is wonderful. Keep on going.
Last night I had the most weird dreams I can possibly imagine, cant remember them now, except for bits and pieces.
I do remember they where a mix of reallity and fiction, where the limits of reality got dissolved and all kinds of bizarre things happened.
I had lots of dreams, maybe 5 that I woke up from and the first one left me upset for some minutes before I fell asleep again.
Its funny all the stages one go through when using subs, specially with customs.
The excitement of biulding a new one, the anxiety of the 3 to 5 working days wait, then the over excitement of the firsts loops wondering about the effects that it will bring.
Later on being aware of the things that begin to change, some instantly, some take more time, some build up step by step, and then some you dont notice till a certain amount of time goes by and you look back on the process.
At some point reconciliation strikes and you begin to wonder why the fuck am I using subs, feeling like shit…
Then the magick happens, reconciliation is over and a huge breakthrough becomes obvious. Thats the best part, when you reach a new higher level of consciousness thats undeniable.
And theres where I am now, enjoying a new higher level of Consciousness, knowing that one part of the journey is over and the next one just began.
This process is almost as alchemical as doing one’s own sigil…
Its been more than a week without Minds Eye T² and I still see combinations of 1 and 4 everywhere.
I dont know if the effects are that long or maybe are induced by my customs.
My relationship with sports/excercise during my life has been one of love and hate, more often hate. Ive never consider myself as someone thats really into it or that has a healthy physical life. I always percieved myself as weak and lazy.
Theres been times in my life that I engaged in excercise for long times but drinked lots of alcohol and use other drugs, theres been times in wich Ive been clean and sober for long times but no excercise at all.
Ive been reluctant to post this, but its been 5 months now in wich Ive been excercising 4 times a week and havent drink a drop of alcohol. These changes started with Stark Q and now 19 days into my custom with Emp Fitness st4 for the first time in my life Im feeling like a healthy person.
This is pretty awesome and life changing for me, the reason I was reluctant of sharing this is because I dont wanna give the wrong impression about the process, subs are not the only tool Im using for this purpose, but one of the 3 most important ones.
Awesome!
Glad to hear this and your other cool developments.
By the way, its been a week since I started using supplements and they are already kicking in, I feel more energy and vitality.
Coconut Oil (3 weeks)
Natures Sunshine:
+Vitamin C 1000mg (1 a day)
+Super Supplemental (2 a day) 62 nutrients, vitamins and minerals.
Super Supplemental provides the following nutrients:vitamin A, C, D3, E, thiamin (B1), riboflavin (B2), niacin (B3), vitamin B6, folate (B9), vitamin B12, biotin, pantothenic acid, choline, calcium, iron, phosphorus, iodine, magnesium, zinc, selenium, copper, manganese, chromium, potassium. Also contains Inositol, p-aminobenzoic acid (PABA), fruit blend (white grape, apple, pear, orange, pineapple, cherry, strawberry, blueberry), dandelion root, alfalfa aerial parts, asparagus stem, broccoli flowers, cabbage leaf, hesperidin bioflavonoid extract, lemon bioflavonoid extract, rutin, rose hips, sodium copper chlorophyllin, kelp leaf and stem, lutein, cranberry fruit, mangosteen fruit, carrot root, spinach leaf and stem, tomato fruit, lycopene, açai berry, pomegranate fruit extract, L-leucine, L-lysine, L-valine, L-isoleucine, L-phenylalanine, L-threonine, L-arginine, L-methionine, L-tyrosine, L-cysteine.
44 days of Voodoo Child
20 days of Blood Sugar Sex Magick
Today I have a pretty busy day and a lot of stuff to do outside, the day is shinny so its inviting to go out.
I feel really good after the strong reconciliation of the other day.
Yesterday was for introspection of inner changes, today is time for reconnaissance and appreciation of the outside world.
This is what I have in mind now:
Power level: T or T², not yet sure.
Mogul
Productivity Unleashed
Positive Being Attractor
Sultan
Unrelenting Wealth Motivation and Energy.
Financial Succes Reality Shifter
Wealth Limit Destroyer
Secrets of Akasha
Power Unleashed
Jupiter
Yggdrasil
Direct Influencing
Carpe Diem
Divine Will
Dominion.
That is amazing to hear. You are a big inspiration for me to drop the alcohol on parties. As a medical student you somehow grow into that habit.
Im happy to hear that!! Alcohol wasnt fun for me anymore, besides the amnesia, the hungovers were getting longer and harder to deal with. A couple of hours of “fun” and a couple of days of feeling miserable.
Im behaving in ways that are surprising to me, I dont know if it is a good or a bad surprise.
It just happens, but then I engage in analisys and cant decide if Im standing my ground and setting limits or if Im being stubborn and selfish.
Maybe its just fear of whats happening because I cant see the big picture yet. Im unaware of where this is going.
Im going through some love issues, maybe Love Without Attachement and Blue Skies are working deeply.
I dont know at the moment what love is or how to express it.
I anger easily and quickly and have no patience with my girlfriend attitude when shes behaving in ways I dont like. In ways I percieve as weakness.
Relationships are hard and painful, is whats coming to the surface.
I feel like running away and be on my own, alone with no one to bother me.
Its not even that shes doing things to bother me, its that I cant handle shit right now.
Thats a long ingrained pattern in me… I gues its what I unconsiously chose to heal at this moment of my life.