Viktor’s Victory Venture (LE + DRR)

Journals - Major Programs
#1379

AHJ opened so much in me.
This shift in my perspective in life is… really broad.

Before this, I was completely focused on my goals.
Few, but focused.

Now I feel open to more.

This is not a bad effect at all, but I gotta focus.
Honestly, I’m at a loss about what to do with this.
On one hand, I know there’s something huge to gain from following AHJ.
On another, I gotta focus on my goals.

MDFY: Freedom might be a good module for my predicament.
But I’ll see first whether microloop will bring a better balance or not.
This could just be an early shock from AHJ after all. It’s too soon to take any drastic action based on it.

That short run of LBFH made me aware of one thing:

I’ve become more discontent, easily annoyed by others’ flaws & incompetence.
Which doesn’t really go against my goals, so I don’t mind having this trait.
But it’ll only take me a little effort to fix this, so there’s no reason not to address it.

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#1381

I’m taking an early break from LE.
I have nothing in my stack anymore.
That means the rest of this month will be a long washout.

Unless they update LE this month, lol.

I want to get a better view of how it feels without a productivity sub.
I’ve been using subs with that for more than 2 years anyway.

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#1384

I was doing a deep introspection while reading my journal to see what the fuck happened in the past 30 days.

I planned to switch subs (and went ahead with some) so many times.
What the fuck is wrong with me.

I concluded that it might be recon from AHJ + the instability trying to figure out wtf i want to proceed with the new goals shown by it + too much free time than usual + the push to use that time to get as much as i can from it since i’ve prepared it & before i can’t spare my time anymore + etc.

God that was a mess.

I’m glad i journaled at least some of it here. That helped a lot with finding clarity.

I need to think things through before i start listening to subs.

AHJ is still gonna stay.
DRR2 showed me the value of what AHJ can give me, and i’m willing to take the gamble for it.

But anything else that came after it was a recon minefield.

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#1385

Hyperman brought a valuable idea back into my consciousness.

The wish to switch subs might be a signal that the sub you’re using is working on said topic.

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#1386

That’s right, i feel like something is missing, but nothing is actually missing.

My goal is the raw fulfillment from AHJ that DRR2 led towards.
I started to think that i need this, i need that, wanna try this that.
When I actually just needed to relax and enjoy AHJ’s effects. Because that’s the whole goal of this whole ordeal.

Sigh… this goes to my list of reasons to never jump straight to 15m on a sub.
I really fucked around and found out with this one, rofl.

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#1387

I have been in the same situation.

With that experience under my belt and now reading it from an outside perspective, its clear to me that in order to be able to live that raw fulfillment from AHJ, its necessary to address the inner voids, which will feel like you need a lot of stuff, while it comes to the surface to be released.
The hardest part is to actually realize that it is as easy as in relax and enjoy the ride…

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#1388

I haven’t thought about it from this perspective.
I’m using AHJ to give me extra fulfilment on top of what HeO has given me.
So it’s building more on top of something instead of filling a void.

But what if it IS a void?
I stick with what I do now because it’s the most fulfilling out of everything else I do.
Some things make me happy, but not fulfilled. I cut most of these out of my life, keeping it minimal.
Some make me feel fulfilled, but the happiness I get from them is spotty. This is what I’m focusing on.

HeO pushed me more to the latter, while DRR2 & AHJ are seemingly pushing me to the former.
What if there’s a void that I wasn’t aware of that AHJ is trying to push me towards?
I feel bad doing them, the happiness feels hollow if it’s not fulfilling.

What I’m trying to get from AHJ is to get more from what I already do, not to explore outside.
But what if gaining understanding by experiencing more can lead me towards what I want from AHJ?
What if there are undiscovered voids that, when they get filled, will lead to improvements everywhere else?

I need to do more introspection on this.

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#1392

Still no urge to listen yet.

I guess the urge to take a long washout wasn’t one of the recon back then. It was actually my intuition telling me to chill out and process things thoroughly before going back to subs again.

I feel… light.

Lighter than when I microlooped the hell out of subs + using shorter cycles.
This feels good. I need to take long washouts seriously from now on.
2+ years of nonstop sub use without a long washout is bound to strain me at some point.

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#1393

When you return, are you going to try a solo title cycle?

#1394

I doubt I’ll be able to stick to just one, rofl.

1 will give me the fastest result, but i have no sub that requires such focus.

2 feels like the right balance.
One as the main archetypal sub (HeO), the other as a booster (DRR, LE etc).
I think there’s no reason not to use a booster when i have the slot for it.

#1395

No urge to listen yet.

While it feels lighter, I also feel things are starting to slip up.
It’s a good time to take action.

Oh I think I was stupid.
I was reading my journal again and then I realized, I wasn’t done with slowly increasing RM:UWX’s exposure. That was why I felt uncomfortable with the “manifesting the past” effect a few months ago. It was too much too quickly. I should have continued increasing it instead of jumping straight to 15m.

Damn that’s a blunder.

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Some subs reminded me of my past, but RM:UWX was unique. It didn’t just remind, it actively brought things back. It was manifesting on top of reminding.

I’m sure it was not just confirmation bias either.

If I start with shorter loops again, I might be able to take it slower in a pace that I’m comfortable with.
I won’t, I’d rather wait for RM:UA as it has a wider scope than UWX. But this is a good reference point when I start UA later.

It’s getting increasingly hard to stuff subs into my stack.
I have 4 subs in rotation
HeO, DRR, HLB, & LE (+ Paragon later in a custom)

I think I will get another custom once both HeO & UA are updated.
Or I could streamline the stack even further by dropping HeO & relying solely on DRG & HLB.

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#1396

It’s time to listen again.
I suddenly felt that “yep, now”.
It must be my intuition giving me the signal.

2+ weeks of washout. Not bad.

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#1397

Oh shit.

I’m scared.

I didn’t notice the gravity of this feeling until now.
So this is the block that I’ve been having.

Well, now that I’m aware of the problem, I can start taking better actions.

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#1398

3 weeks left until spring is over.
I’ll wait for LE’s update while catching up with HeO in the meantime.

I expected it to come sooner, but i suppose we’ll have to wait longer.

HeO was supposed to be in a break for longer, but i’ll use it sooner just because nothing is filling its spot right now. The plan was to take a break from HeO, use the updated LE/EE without it to gain more clarity, then add HeO back into the stack.

Now I can’t use both. LE is not updated yet and EE is a new sub. I can’t go on another sub hopping spree with a new sub right after i did one a while ago, even after a long washout.

1.5 months of break from HeO is not bad either.
I’d rather use HeO than any other sub at this moment.

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#1399

No recon from DRR2. 30s.
Microlooping is the key.
I wonder whether I’ll be able to surpass 50s now.
I’ll take it slow, 35s next, then 40s.

My problem with DRR2 was jumping ahead too quickly.
I should have started with a microloop half a year ago.
Well, I did expect it to be just as smooth as DRR1 back then, so I did jump the gun.

Funny how I started DRR1, a sub that’s almost invisible to me, from +3s every listening day, while jumping straight to 15m of DRR2, a sub that I should start microlooping with instead.

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#1400

Huh, seems like one of the blockages relating to this has finally melted.
Horaay HeO + DRR2.

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#1404

Wow… That was some intense healing manifestations from DRR2.

How the fuck?

I can’t even brush this off to confirmation bias or something.
It’s as blatantly a manifestation as it gets.

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#1405

This was my plan.
I chose Paragon to help with health & longevity.
But now that AEON is out, it has anti-aging scripting among other things.

Should I change the plan and use KB > Alchemist > AEON?
Using 3 multistagers + one of the most dense artisanal titles sounds like a bad idea though.
I’ll consider this one after I’m done with DRR. It will probably be a few years down the line.
AEON is supposed to mix well with HLB though, so i’ll not worry about combining both later.

Well, for now, that’s the plan for the far future.

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#1408

It’s not about mastering everything.
It’s about mastering the essence of everything.

Presumptuous much, but i think there’s something to this.

Actually, I’ve been pretty scared to branch out.
I lack time to go deep even into those i’m currently focusing on.

But what if i cut out the extraneous stuff, focus on the important parts, and find ways to grow them in a way that will allow me to pursue other things.

In other words, it’s a gamble on ROI.
More than what i was willing to do/was aware of its possibility.

This seems pretty basic, but the simple & basic stuff are always the hardest to get right.

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#1409

I don’t have the appetite to listen to subs.

Not that I don’t want to, but I feel like more is not necessary.
Everything works just as usual anyway, I got great outcomes in fact.

Strange, this is the only time I’ve ever gotten the intuition to add a rest days in between listening days.
Well, it’s working out well so far. It’s just as strong as usual, so there’s no need to revert to once every other day yet.

Listening to this little to the sub while still reaping the full benefits, it just shows how strong SC’s subs are. Well, I did listen to HeO for more than a year, so that’s to be expected, i guess.

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