Viktor’s Victory Venture (LE + DRR)

Journals - Major Programs
#824

I feel like there’s still water inside of me.

calm and composed.

no matter what my body is going through, this part inside of me feels calm.

let’s see how this develops as the day goes on.

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almost feels like when I’m meditating, but a bit deeper.
Instead of getting swept like usual, i feel deeper awareness of my body instead. like I’m observing when doing vipassana

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feels like I’m automatically applying what i do when I’m meditating. I’m not as reactionary to my body as usual.

I’ll probably write a lot of nonsense, but it’s better to write as many details as i can while i still remember them.

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I still feel a bit of the brain fog when I’m writing this now. it feels similar to when i was listening to LBFH for the first time.

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#825

No recon yet.
It just felt heavy for a moment like when i first used LBFH a year ago.

If there’s anything delayed, it usually comes after 6-12 hours. let’s see if there will be anything.
otherwise, maybe 7m is fine. the weight might have been just from the first time shock.

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#826

I expected to be lethargic from recon.
But what’s happening is the opposite. The sense of calm, collected, grounded, non-hyperreactive, among other things make it easier to do stuff & focus.

If the effects are constantly like that, it may be a detriment to use lower loops.

The whole purpose of me taking it super slow is to have the best environment where i can be the most productive. If using more will result in increased productivity, then using too little is illogical for my goals.

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#828

The weight from 7m of DRR is less heavy than my first cycle of LBFH.

Dang, i might have been too cautious for nothing.
I’m sure increasing it by +3s/listening day contributed to how light it is, but i was expecting it to be more dramatic.

10 cycles of LBFH & 5 cycles of DRLD, alongside my experience with the other subs must be a huge factor too.

I might try to be a bit more daring with DRR.

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#829

Is there romance scripting in DRR?
Or maybe scripting that indirectly touches that

Because i feel like i’ve been pushed towards it ever since i listened to 15s

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#830

I would imagine that healing certain aspects could activate scripting from WB in you.

Just as LB activated dormant scripting in a lot of us through healing.

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#831

Not much recon so far.
Though i get the sense that if i use too much 7m, i’ll get overloaded.

I’ll stick with 2-3 minutes of DRR then

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#832

Yeah, i bet there’s something inside that WB & DRR are slowly uncovering. My desire for romance is being gently pushed forward.

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#833

Damn i’m productive as fuck.
DRR is really good for my goals.

I think i’ll use the first stage for 2-3 cycles instead of just 1. I want to drill this effect into me.

If stage 1 is enough to fulfill everything i want, i might not even move to the next stage for a while. What’s the point? I get what i want from the subs i’m currently using and that’s it.

Other than productivity, meditation-like effects in daily life, and the unfolding about romance, I don’t feel any other thing. I thought DRR was going to be rough.

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#834

I feel a bit more timid than usual.
It doesn’t affect my productivity though so it doesn’t matter

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#835

My productivity is high now, but i’m in the 5 day rest period, so the boost in productivity is expected

My creativity is not as fluid as when i’m actively using RM:V though. That part of the script hasn’t sunk into me yet. I might use RM:V longer just to have it seep deeper.

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#836

I did another introspection

This one was different, i was somehow led to how i was approaching life from when i was a kid. my patterns, my responses, etc.

I was faced with roadblocks. ones that i always believe to be the truth.
But now it was different, i was led to see beyond the blocks and realize the other perspectives on how i could approach life.

I’ve done a lot of introspections in the past, but these perspectives are new. it goes beyond just knowing what i should do, but actually understanding the interworking behind them.

I thought my foundation is solid, but i realized that i was blind to these spots, these learned helplessness, these excuses. i didn’t even know they were there.

DRR stage 1 is working.

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#837

I’m getting new perspectives on how to approach & respond to things

Now I kinda understand what the concept of rebellion in DRR is. It blends to my personality smoother than i expected

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#838

I don’t feel lonely anymore.

I wonder if the loneliness was because i stopped using LBFH, or was it the recon from DR? maybe both?

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#839

“i want to make music”

this kind of thought & desire keeps popping out constantly.
RM:V is also a ZP sub, so they are not superficial, they come from deep inside.
natural, genuine, intimate.

it peeked into my past, dreams, aspirations. pulled out whatever was necessary to get me started. cleared the limitations that i had. made me get really into music.
Running DRLD & DRR must have affected this too.

but it’s time to readjust the sail. i need to focus on my goals.

I deal with sound more than writing, so RM:V is closer to what i do than RM:UWX. but I’m my main occupation is not a musician. i can’t afford to have it take over my focus yet either.

I’ll keep using RM:V though. It doesn’t manifest insane opportunities yet like RM:UWX did, nor does it detract me too far from my goals. i don’t feel like neglecting too much on the table like when i used RM:UWX.

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#840

No recon for the whole day after listening to DRR stage 1 for 2m.

It turned out i can take a lot more than i anticipated.

I don’t feel it being as dense as when i used it for 7m either.
2m is a good duration to use for now.

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#841

RM:V

I haven’t used RM:V for a week and i can easily notice that my creativity is not as fluid as before the washout.

The creativity scripting works

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#842

Productivity isn’t as strong as when i’m in a washout.

I’m gonna do 9 on 5 off this cycle. The more washouts i use, the more i get in life.

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#843

I’m gonna stop using HeO for half a month.

I need to see the contrast of what i’ll miss when i stop using it. The changes from HeO feels too normal at this point that i can’t really pick out which is which without a deep introspection.

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#845

Wow, the creativity scripting in RM:V is insane.

I was stuck for a few days, then now everything is so fluid after i listened to RM:V a few hours ago.

3m of DRR also fells easy.

No recon but i can start to feel the weight a little bit compared to 2m. I believe my assessment a week ago that my sweet spot for DRR1 is around 2-3m is right.

I’ll try 5m later since I don’t use HeO anymore in this cycle.

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