Vibes sounds tempting. For this reason.
I love singing and would love to play piano again. So it would be a good fit.
But for that purpose I included Synergys: Tale of the Dragon and Voice is the law and Subconscious Flow.
It’s a custom for wealth, but the focus shouldn’t diminish the results regarding voice training.
are you going to use RM:V too? 
Not in the next time.
I’ve got an offer to conduct a choir again. But I don’t have the time or the focus to do so.
But once the dust has settled, I might take a similar offer. Then Vibes would be on the table again.
I feel a bunch of different negative emotions. I don’t even feel comfortable talking about it to anyone else other than here.
Anxiety, unsafe, destabilized, anger, frustration, impending doom?
Life is going well, better than ever. But it’s just an internal feeling. Very strange.
I can’t even point the cause down to a recon from sub. I just write this here because i want to let this out somewhere that i feel safe currently. The scramble made me anxious talking about it with other people.
Is it recon? Usually only recon can overpower the result of my vipassana practice.
I need to look back and see if i missed an important self care routine again like sleeping or eating just to make sure that it’s not because of something stupid like that.
I drank water, i ate good food, i ate sweets, good nutrition, slept well, what did i miss? I don’t think i missed anything.
Im starting to think that maybe it’s because i stopped getting burdened by the lethargy from WB, so i just sprang up and worked too much, too quickly. Maybe that’s a problem?
Can the big drop in my sexual desire after i stopped WB contribute to this too? Going from having sex and fapping a few times a day, to none at all for a few days with minimal desire to do so might also contribute to this.
Idk how i feel
Final verdict on the schedule experiment
I’ll go back from this schedule
HeO LBFH
rest
RM:V LBFH
rest
To this
HeO LBFH
rest
RM:V
rest
I feel like it doesn’t work for me?
Mogul felt heavier when i followed the first one even though it’s always an invisible sub for me. I wrote more about it in my offline journal, so the ones here are tamer.
i could never break the 3m mark with RM:UWX, it always felt too much with subtle recon and stuff. but when i switched it to normal, i can run it for 15m just fine out of nowhere.
WB was running normally, but when i switched to the first schedule, suddenly it was too much even with less than 30s
Now i have a suspicion that the recon currently is from LBFH. The more i dig deeper, the more it looks like the recon is from LBFH. Which prompted me to write this.
For most of those, i didn’t even use half of the sub’s length that i’m comfortable with like instructed. I used a third at most.
Most of the time i slowly build it up from 0 with +10s every listening day.
Not to mention i have 2 washout periods in a cycle. And it’s still heavy.
After looking at this journal & my offline journal,
I concluded that half of your comfortable length is impractical. A third is still pushing it. A fourth at most is reasonable. Even then, go lower.
I increased the length super slowly over time.
I have 2 washouts in a cycle.
I took extra rest days whenever i needed to.
I ran most of them with subs that i’m comfortable with.
Even then, they are still too heavy or recon inducing.
Conclusion:
If you can handle the load & recon, use a third of the length that you’re comfortable with at most. I personally say you should stick with a fourth at most
When I get like this I just remind myself it’s ok to feel it. It might not feel good and it’s upsetting, but it’s ok to be going through it. That impending doom is usually the edge of change. Where I haven’t budged yet for a major change but my subconscious has been cooking in the background and it knows something is coming that my conscious doesn’t. It’s a good sign imo, it means a stronger deeper part of yourself is pushing for growth.
You got this! And you got the support of everyone here going through the same growth cycles.
I did another introspection. talked with people.
I realized that all of this is happening in a safe space. with people who love and care about me. somehow I missed all of these. I took it too harshly on myself on top of it.
I still feel shit, but I’m not on edge about the future anymore.
on another note, I made a different schedule again since I don’t follow the advanced one anymore:
1 HeO LBFH
2 Rest
3 RM:V AC
4 Rest
5 RM:V LBFH
6 Rest
7 HeO
8 Rest
9 RM:V LBFH
10 Rest
11 Rest
12 Rest
13 Rest
Repeat
I use 1 less listening day for HeO in 26 days and give it to RM:V
So 4 listening days for HeO and 6 for RM:V & LBFH. I have been using HeO for over half a year, and I plan to use it more. Having 1 less listening day won’t mean much in the long run.
I switched back from 7 on 4 off to 9 on 4 off to see if the load would be lower without the advanced schedule.
Cycle 15 day 21
Rest
I listened to the arrangement that i have been working on and i was like “what the fuck? i made this?”
yep, RM:V works.
Update 1:
I’m proud of myself for trying new things and becoming more daring with my creative process.
First from RM:UWX, now from RM:V. Honestly, i feel like RM:V’s effects are stronger when it comes to freeing myself from my own limits of creativity that i unknowingly subjected myself to.
I feel like adding DRLD to the stack will be great for RM:V. My stack is full though.
Update 2:
No recon at all. so what happened a few days ago was definitely from LBFH. weird.
To be honest, I never want to go back to that recon space again. I’m still trying to find a stable ground even now. after the recon subsided, i gained more clarity. this recon felt uniquely LBFH, similar to the subtle recon from it near the end of cycle 4.
I’ve read the copy yesterday. A few passages came to mind
We’ve also included transformative scripting designed to empower you in turning your flaws into strengths. It guides you on a journey of self-acceptance and growth, allowing you to embrace and own your imperfections with confidence.
With the scripting in Wanted Black, you’ll develop the ability to navigate your emotions with poise and grace, exuding an aura of calm confidence.
Wanted Black includes powerful scripting to help you master emotional regulation.
Master emotional regulation, exuding calm confidence and stability
And finally this one
Embrace your true self and amplify your innate qualities, without the need for pretense or performance
On point. I need to go back reading the sales page.
i come back quicker than expected, but i need to type this here.
the project blew up way more than i expected
music, sound, everything is better
RM:V works
ok, I’ll go out from the forum again until my focus is fixed
Would you send me a pn?
Your public profile is hidden. Is there another way to send a PM?
they didn’t feel that different when i listened to them.
when i accidentally listen to subs, i usually notice how different the feeling is within less than 2 minutes. the fastest was with mogul, i noticed that i accidentally listened to it only 10-20s after i played it. It came as “wait a minute, am i listening to mogul? this feels like mogul”. WB was second, i noticed that i accidentally listened to it only after 30s.
RM:UWX doesn’t feel that different compared to RM:V. It didn’t ring the bell in my head that tells me to check the title.
i think the only difference is RM:V feels a bit wider and fresher? a bit more freedom? that’s the best i can describe it, it’s hard to put into words. but the feeling is not that different overall.
RM:UWX feels a bit more like i’m in a home office. it’s not the best description, but it faintly feels like that.
Honestly, a bit, because of the 3.5 cores.
This should make up for it easily.
My custom is close to yours in total module count. There’s even one new core.
It’s also very streamlined towards my goal of a salesjob.
And so far, I ran my custom last for 6 minutes until my subconscious said stop.
I don’t notice recon as of yet. I don’t believe that my sleep issue is custom related.
So Godspeed for your custom.
My view on romance has changed ever since i had that dream while using WB.
How long was it? A month ago?
It was such a different feeling of romance. It showed me what’s possible. The dream wasn’t grand, it was pretty mundane. But the feeling hit differently. Just chilling doing daily stuff and laying around with someone i truly love from the bottom of my heart.
It was so far from WB’s harem objectives, but that kind of love is exactly what i want. I was surprised i got that while using WB. It opened me to the idea of serious romance.
That’s something I’ve noticed in a few WB journals. People start WB, partly because they desire a harem, receive the healing that is necessary to be able to build a harem (namely the neediness) only to notice that they don’t even want a Harem anymore but a deep, meaningful relationship instead.
I think @Skadoosh explained it somewhere.
In Chinese, the number 10000 is used to mean ‘a whole hell of a lot’. I guess that’s how he was using it.
For example ‘The Ten-Thousand Things’ is a term that means ‘Everything in the world’. People just thought it was a big number.
But forget that. Congrats on your consistency and achievement!
(Also, my own version of this was less credible than yours. I wanted to achieve a 285 pound bench press after Robin Williams’ character in Good Will Hunting told young Will that that was his bench press amount.)
thank you!
285 is an impressive number, I’m rooting for you!