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“i deserve love even when i …”
this thought has been starting to appear again after i ran LBFH yesterday.
it has always existed, but the effect is deeper after discovering more about myself with WB.
I can simply observe it better and allow me to accept & be kind to myself. It’s like I gained a new perspective to handle my thoughts & feelings.
Lately i also realized that i have fixed around 80% of one of my phobias. it doesn’t bother me as much anymore. i didn’t take any action to fix it and i don’t know what sub helped me. I’m just healed.
I feel like I’m rewiring my brain. my thought pattern, reaction etc.
Update 1:
I’m beginning to accept that I’m more moody than how i believe & portray myself to be.
This is good. I stop denying that part of myself. now i can adapt & work with it.
Stop the lies, stop the denial, stop the avoidance.
It’s a part of me. Observe, accept and work with it.
This took me 1 year of SC to realize. but I’m slowly becoming more aware of the fundamental flaws of my thinking & start chipping away at it.
Update 2:
I’m slowly regaining my productivity.
The lethargy recon from WB was mild, but I don’t want to deal with it now.