First run of mogul for 15m, stacked with 30s of HeO.
It feels different from the previous version of mogul. I can’t really put it into words, more broad? it has a distinct feeling.
There was little to no recon with the old version, I want to test if that’s still the case with gen:mogul.
Well, that was the plan. I realized halfway through that I won’t be able to tell which recon is from mogul and which is from WB anyway.
I will stack HeO + Mogul + WB.
HeO & Mogul(the previous version, at least) give me almost no recon, so they are the best choice to stack with WB.
What i’m afraid of is how much HeO & Mogul make me productive separately on their own. I hope it’s not too much like when i stacked HeO with DRLD.
Taking DRLD off the stack was the right choice. even though i’m not as productive, i feel more balanced. I don’t feel super tired and people don’t say that i look & sound tired anymore. Well, now that mogul is in the stack, let’s see how it goes.
I will still use 17 days instead of 21. Shaving off the last 2 listening days works well for me.
Update 1:
scrap that. i can feel the recon now, it’s definitely not from WB or HeO. i feel unsettled, almost like when i first started DRLD. it’s not that bad though, i don’t feel like I’m being hindered at all.
Update 2:
This feels like an overload on top of recon. I haven’t felt like this ever since i started aggressively doing microloop when i first used HeO.
the recon itself feels tame. if i compare it with the peak of recon from WB, it’s around 10% of it.
I will keep updating this journal a lot to keep a log of the recon and stuff.
Update 3:
I feel happy? it doesn’t feel like something superficial, it feels like it’s coming from inside of me.
It has a hint of abundance, a tiny feeling of freedom, and a funny feeling of fullness in my belly (the feeling is different from being full of food, all i can think about to describe it is “abundance”).
That’s the best i can put the feeling into words.
I originally thought that the feeling was from LBFH, but now that i think about it, maybe it was from the old Mogul instead all along.
I ran the old Mogul for 3-4 cycles, the feeling I’m experiencing now is really similar to it plus a feeling of relief and joy. it feels broader too, i really can’t put this into words. some times i feel like it’s expanding? I’m not sure. really unique.
It’s a bit more intense than the old Mogul.
Update 4:
The recon from Mogul is not here anymore. well, it went away pretty quickly. i will update this journal again if it comes back.
on another note, recon from WB sometimes flares up. it manifests itself as tenseness in my muscles, sudden twitches, and general awkwardness, on top of weird feelings. the most dominant feeling is a deep feeling of loss, followed by fear & anxiety. EDIT: the feelings are both inward and outward. i feel both losing a part of myself and losing others.
it’s not as bad as when i first used WB a few cycles ago. if i compare it to the peak of recon from WB, it’s around 20% now. when i listened to WB 2 days ago, it was around 30%.
why am i getting so much recon with WB even on microloop? i don’t have problems being with women. a lot of my close friends are women. is it the archetype? It’s the only probable cause i can think of. I resonate a ton with HeO, so maybe WB is too far away from it. that’s my theory, but is it really that far apart to the point where the recon is that strong?
I’m not just following my intuition to play WB anymore, i want to find out why it gives me recon. maybe I’ll uncover something valuable that I’m not aware of.
