I think it’s gonna be interesting because it seems to be stronger tech than the current ZP… some sort of “unfolding” of happiness - but unfolding hasn’t been worked on since Pre-NSE
I’m interested in it as well.
What saint said about the happiness & joy from within and how it will infuse whatever we do looks like the best sub for me to balance DRR2. It sounds like it directly tackles fulfilment in what I do in a more focused way than LBFH.
It also has NSE, unlike HeO. I would have used HeO if there’s another NSE sub in my stack, it’s more straightforward & tested. LE + HeO would be awesome but they have no NSE whatsoever.
I can’t wait to see what else AHJ will have.
I remembered I started LBFH just 1 month ago.
Damn I’m switching subs like hot potato. Well at least I resisted ME & AS back then.
It’s harder without RM:UWX.
But I can do this.
I don’t need to add another variable into the stack.
I’m enough.
I just need to stick earnestly with healing & productivity in 2025.
Then i’ll be able to enjoy the creativity stack in 2026.
Maybe i’m just being lazy and searching for a shortcut.
I know i’m not lacking in this, i just need to broaden my horizon.
It’s time to research & experiment.
Me when I pull out the “uh oh I accidentally listened to the new sub, how could this happen? such tragedy”
For real though, I’m so curious about the new sub that I might slip up this time, rofl.
Stack condition: hanging by a thin line.
The new AHJ is almost exactly what I expected it to be.
A more streamlined version of what I need from LBFH to combat the recon from DRR2.
Just look at these:
It handles both my need for purpose scripting to combat DRR2’s recon AND it addresses my complaint about the imbalance of productivity when I use LBFH.
It also has a “sharing” scripting. I’m sure it’s not like LBFH, but this is what I want. It’s my weakness and LBFH taught me how valuable it is to embrace it. This description sealed the deal for me.
There are a lot of scripting that’s useful for my meditation practise too
It also has a bit of creativity scripting in it to top it off. I know it won’t be as good as the RM products, but it’s good to know that there’s something in that direction.
My stack is so fucked.
I decided to cut my plan to use LBFH short.
From 6 months to only 3.5 months (4 normal 26 day cycles).
I’ve used it for 1 month, so I’ll use it for 2.5 more months.
I want to switch to AHJ immediately, but I need to stabilize the stack first.
That’s why LBFH needs to stay in the stack for a while.
Then I’ll use AHJ for 7 months (8 normal 26 day cycles)
It should be enough to slowly chip away at the recon from DRR2 while making the changes from it go deeper & stay longer.
I wanted to use it for only 3 months, but it won’t be enough to make the changes stick long term.
If I’m going to use a sub, I might as well get the long term benefits out of it.
I’m going to spend 1 year total trying to slowly chip away at DRR2’s recon.
4 months of running it normally, 8 months of only using it for 2-3 times.
I’ve done 2 normal runs & 1 of the 2-3 times a month. So 2 + 7 months left.
This should be enough.
I just hope DRR3 won’t be hard since I only allotted 4 months for it.
If it turns out to be unbearable, I’ll have to just go through the recon normally.
DRR2 9m LBFH 3m30s
PLEASE NO RECON
PLEASE NO RECON
PLEASE NO RECON
I CAN’T AFFORD A RECON NOW
The vulnerability recon is here, but it’s not as strong as the last time, which was not that strong.
Maybe I was overcautious when I planned for 1 year to deal with the recon from DRR2.
I’ll try 15 minutes 10 days from now.
I won’t be too hasty.
Even if I can handle 15 minutes once every 10 days, it’s still not guaranteed that I can handle once every other day. I’ll stick with the plan. Hopefully this is enough to soften the recon once I use DRR2 normally 7 months from now.
The vulnerability recon is still not over yet.
DRR2 is gonna be tough.
Update 1:
I took a walk and now I understand more about why i get the recon.
It was from traumas back then.
My way of dealing with it is by accepting that it’s a part of life and find ways to grow using/alongside/despite the traumas.
So far it has been good enough.
I’m decently successful & have a fulfilling life.
That’s why i’ve not really looked more into it.
My approach so far has been good enough to earn me the life that i want.
But I’ve never really seen how i could “solve” it.
DRR2 is showing me the broader perspective that I can take to do just so.
I already have the acceptance, but i lacked the way too see it from a power perspective. I always feel powerless against the injustice, against the abuse, against the manipulation.
Now, when i see back to the past, I can view it with a sense of power instead of powerlessness. And also have confidence in the power.
I can view it past the manipulation and the gaslight. And have the emotional integrity to see that what i did was right, that i was manipulated into thinking that i was wrong for defending my -human rights-. Not only a pretend belief, but a synchronized one.
I can not only accept the abuse in the past, but also view it from a position of power. Certainty in what i hold true, because they are.
Now i see what the “rebellion” part in DRR is about.
Now i gained more clarity into why I’m the way I am today.
I always push for open mindedness because my beliefs were trampled back then.
The gaslight, the manipulation, the abuse, all contributed to this.
This is why I like having rules and structures, adhering to virtues.
Because I want a stable foundation to build from. I want to figure out & cling to what’s right, because I was persistently berated that my view of what’s right is wrong.
This is why I’m comfortable with sitting on things that are not certain yet.
Because I’ve been thrown into uncertainty for so long.
This gives birth to my tendency to experiment to find the right thing.
One of the best way to know the truth is to find out by researching & experimenting yourself.
I’m happy that I got the right trauma.
If I didn’t have these, I wouldn’t be as successful as I am today.
The open mindedness has contributed a lot to it.
The persistence to stick to what’s the right thing to do has guided me to success inside & outside.
But unlike others who become stuck up to it, the open mindedness that I have cultivated allows me to be flexible and compromise.
And both of them together, open mindedness & the pursue of figuring out the right thing to do, has led to my obsession with experimentation & just fucking doing it. Which has been the foundation of my success in life. I couldn’t have the life, wealth, relations etc that I have now if I didn’t have these mindsets.
The negatives & positives of my past have led me to how I am today.
I have the benefits of these traumas, and now I have the luxury of cleansing the bad using DRR.
This is truly having the cake and eating it too.
It checks out with the recon that I felt a month ago.
I viewed it as a recon since it was interfering with my work.
But now I realized that I needed it internally.
I just need to find the balance inside.
Fuck it, i’m gonna make an LE + RM/UA custom right after both are upgraded next year. I’ll also wait until I’m done with DRR2’s recon so i can stop using LBFH & AHJ.
I need to focus.
AS is interesting, but I realized after the introspection above that more open mindedness is not what I need now.
I’m already there. I would love to have more, but i need to focus on building the foundation.
Healing, creativity & productivity.
Don’t deviate.
I’ll run AS with KB/QL after i’m done with DRR4.
The energy focus & duality are better with an energy sub like KB or a thinking heavy sub like QL.
The plan now:
LE + RM/UA & DRR 1-3.
Then ME + UA & DRR4 + LE in 2026.
The longer i build the foundation for productivity & creativity, the better.
That means starting as early & staying as long as possible with both of them, as opposed to my plan before to separate them.
The split was 2025 productivity, 2026 creativity.
Now it’s just getting UA into my stack as quickly as possible & keeping LE for 2 years instead of only 1.
Foundation.
A strong one will help me later.
To get a good foundation, I gotta focus.
Yep, the recon is now “did i do it right?”
It lines up with what I discovered above.
I must be on point with what the problem is. I’m getting closer to solving the recon from DRR2.
After following many 5 minute qigong videos, I’m starting to stick with a routine that I like with qigong.
Honestly, I like qigong more than sword training.
Something about it makes me feel better throughout the day.
I just realized everything I wrote about DRR2 above is exactly the same as its description page.
Down to the words I used.
Once every 10 days is still too much for my liking though.
I’ll use it once every 15 days instead.
I had a petty conflict earlier and it made me realize what DRR2 is doing.
I viewed it more from the position of power.
Even more than usual.
I like it.
The recon is mostly gone, but the subtle recon still remains.
It feels like when I stopped using DRR2 as frequently as half a month ago.
This is gonna be rough.
I can deal with it easily, but I really prefer a smooth experience so I can focus on what I do.
I’ll go ahead with the plan to use DRR2 once every 15 days instead of 10 like now.
This will give me more time to recuperate using LBFH/AHJ.
The recon is done.
So it takes 3-4 days.
It’s better than before, maybe I can pull off DRR2 once every week.
But I’m not gonna risk it. Twice a month only.
LBFH 15m LE 15m AC 7s
I haven’t used full loops for a while.
Why don’t I test it again.