Sounds like HeO and LBFH are super long term and stable for you - maybe you just run them all the way up until you combine them into a custom
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Yea I’m going back into dzog chen a bit now with open sky it’s super cool and give extreme bliss.
What I kept from TWIM is the 6r those are the genius thing that you can use for all aspect of life.
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Is that what this meditation would be called, dzog chen?
I’ve heard of that a lot, when I was deep in Vipassana meditation, living in china for a little bit, that’s what all the monks there did. But I didn’t dive into it because i was on my own path
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Cycle 10 day 17
Rest
I thought there was nothing much happening and i was just productive.
little did i know that the small things that have been happening here and there outside of work are aligning themselves together to help with LBFH’s goal of increasing self-assuredness.
I know the concept, everyone knows it. but to understand and apply it in your life is another thing.
You can’t just think about it, you have to experience it first and gain understanding from it.
This is NSE in action.
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Think it’s spelled like that. But the meditation is open sky so you expand your awareness to your entire visual field and just let the visuals pass through you.
Then you add sound, and body awareness. With sound you listen to all sounds equally without focusing on any specific sound, And let it pass through the silence.
It make you extreme equanimous as you treat all visuals sound and body equally. It’s also more extroverted than most meditations so it’s good for social stuff as well.
Aka talking to girls. It gives so much bliss it’s very interesting. How can expanding your awareness give so much bliss I have no idea.
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i watched a video about dzogchen.
that’s an interesting concept.
Cycle 10 day 18
HeO 15m + Mogul 5m + AC 1m50s
I’m listening to the stack as I’m writing this.
I hope I won’t get overloaded.
Update 1:
I’m not overloaded. it doesn’t feel heavy. that’s unexpected.
Is it because the last time i used LBFH was 4 days ago? i need to experiment more with this.
WB
i did an introspection and realized that i have a better grasp of timing in conversations.
when to stop
when to stall
when to start
when to speak
when to stay silent
i don’t overthink it, i just know. it’s like an intuition.
This effect only shows up after i used WB, it’s working.
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they all begin with S thats pretty crazy : )
rofl 
LBFH
I did an introspection after reading about how LBFH makes you “love everyone”
I came to the conclusion that i don’t. I’m more inclined to have better impression of others, but i still have the control over who i love and care about deeply.
Not only that, you also have the option to choose who do you want to love, who is worthy of your love. because the manifestation is completely insane.
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Dreams
I think i finally understand why i keep getting dreams about death. I know my subconscious is trying to say something to me.
I got dreams about life threatening situations, people i know in the death bed etc.
Then the last dream hit me hard.
This one was different.
Unlike the dreams before, I wasn’t in a fantasy world trying to survive, i wasn’t watching people dying, i wasn’t in a battle desperately defending myself.
I was sitting in a room, with a tv in front.
It was completely a safe space.
There was only “me”
Contemplating about life and death.
…
That was the most terrifying dream i had.
Because I’m usually not afraid of death, i’m generally satisfied with what i have and i don’t mind if everything is gone in a snap. But in that place, i got reconnected with that fear as if i was embodying someone else entirely. All the defenses i built all my life was gone.
There was no crowd, dragons or gun fires to split my attention. There was only me and that raw intense fear staring at each other.
The tv started playing my life, or what i felt like my life. I was confronted with how much sacrifices i did to my body just for my goals.
Then i was shown how every living thing will die and there will be time where i will never feel anything ever again. Unlike how i am when i’m awake, the “me” in the dream could feel the full emotion of the fear of death and losing what i usually take for granted like being able to see, to feel, to do activities etc.
The next one was brutal. I was shown how the people i love will eventually die. Now, I have been through a lot of people dying in my life. I was sad but that was it. In this dream, i was hit with a lot of regret. Pure, raw regret. There was no defenses, just the raw feeling of regret.
Then, the last one. It was the worse.
I suddenly knew that the “me” in the dream was me in the future. Old with a stern face. There, i was asked, was it worth it?
This was where i understood what the dreams were trying to tell me.
I sat there, i did what i strived for, i lived up to my values, i went through life up until that point of time.
But i was all alone.
Old and alone watching a tv in a room.
Was it worth it going through life, without making meaningful connections along the way?
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The dreams from subs are something else.
My feelings are amplified
The visuals are amplified
The story, setting, meaning etc are amplified
I don’t think i will ever use RoD, the dreams with other subs are wild already even without it. I can’t imagine how insane the dreams will get with RoD.
Cycle 10 day 20
Mogul 15m + LBFH 15m
Splitting the cycle in half works better than i expected.
I don’t feel the overexposure build up around the last 3/4th of the normal 26 day cycle.
The effects of the subs are not affected either. It’s actually better now that it’s smoother without the overexposure build up and hidden recon near the end. I was able to focus on taking action.
This is the smoothest cycle i have ever gone through.
I will continue using this schedule.
9 on 4 off 9 on 4 off.
Saint is right. the smoother it is, the better the results are.
I may take an extended washout.
Smart. Fiancée and I were just discussing what her schedule should be. I’ll recommend this to her!
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good luck to your fiancee!
i’m still testing this schedule too so feel free to tell me how it goes!
5 cycles of HeO.
Around 3 - 4 months of sword training.
My stance, footwork, swing etc are better than when i started.
I’m glad i picked up HeO and the sword
I may stop using Mogul next cycle and only use HeO + LBFH. I will add RM:UWX when i feel ready for the load.
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Cycle 11 day 1
HeO 15m + LBFH 15m + AC 5m.
I accidentally played AC for 5m instead of 2m.
Using LBFH for 15m always makes me cry.
With LBFH, I’m gradually becoming more tolerant towards other cultures, customs, religions etc.
It’s not just a spoken tolerance, I’m able to empathize more with the people who follow them.
This benefits me a lot.
I think I understand why HeO and WB didn’t clash when i stacked them together.
there’s little to nothing in my moral values that goes against WB’s objectives in the first place.
It’s understandable if other people have a lot of recon stacking them.