Long story short, emperor is not good for me right now.
Im kinda scared to run chosen (changed to chosen from within) , not only because the recon i excpect but because the results it might give, im the opposite of chosen:
- Negative (always visualize the worst)
- Judging and afraid of judgment
- Always think the worst about people
- My ability to connect deeply with people is 0 (i have never been intrested in other people, for some reason i see myself as better than them)
- I usually dont express my self
- I really dont care about people and im not empathetic at all
- I never open up and never show vulanrability (i dont trust anyone)
Emperor just made all of this worst, and i dont want to he like this.
Im very scared to run chosen but i will do it.