Venus's subliminal adventure

Journals - Major Programs
#1

I wasn’t planning on writing a journal here because I have the habit of sharing good experiences with friends, acquaintances and relatives. So, if I direct anyone I know to this site, I wouldn’t want them to identify my journal.

Anyway, I have been reading some journals here and I have been moved by some candid stories I saw. I have learnt a lot from them too. I thought you all are very kind and generous to share your experiences and advice. It would be selfish not to return the favour so, here we are. English is not my first language so please forgive any grammatical errors you may see.

I will not post regularly and won’t be giving many details, just a general account about how my journey is going.

My experience with these subs so far: WOW! I can’t believe how fast they work. I started being a bit skeptical, but I can’t deny the obvious. They are mind blowing!

I started with LBfH. Just a couple loops in 3 days to see how it went. It felt nice with no recon, so on day 5 I added Ascension for women. I felt a little recon, but nothing too bad. Then I learnt about Heartsong. A few days later I was going to meet a group of people, including someone I really like and I thought. Let’s have a few loops of heartsong before we meet to see how things go. I swapped AfW for HS. I could only do 2 loops of HS. The recon was strong. I felt very, very tired, dizzy at times and had headaches. So, I went into an early wash out.

All the while I was keeping a private journal and taking actions every day.

The results so far:

  • I have felt much happier, smiling a lot for no apparent reason.

  • Reacting positively or neutrally to things that before would have triggered me.

  • I am slightly more organised.

  • I have ideas and take actions naturally without any effort.

  • The crush I had didn’t work out but I didn’t mind at all. I still had a great time that day and I felt a few people (including the crush) couldn’t get their eyes off me and listened and laughed at everything I said.

  • I realised that I need to do some healing before a relationship.

  • I rediscovered the happy, funny and caring person I used to be.

After my wash out I will keep listening to LBfH and I will add Genesis.

Thank you for reading

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#2

Second Cycle – LBfH, Genesis and a little Paragon

I have completed a full cycle with LBfH and Genesis. Towards the middle I also added Paragon as I was having some minor health issues.

I started listening to whole loops but I reduced to 7-minute loops for the last few listening days as I was feeling recon. This coincided with the introduction of the new version of LBfH but It might have been by chance. With 7-minute loops the recon was more manageable and this time I could complete the whole cycle.

I am not sure I can feel the effects of Genesis other than I keep on making lots of plans for the future but they are too diverse and I think that at the moment I should concentrate on the present, so I am dropping Genesis for now.

Paragon worked as expected: back pain and other minor issues gone.

I truly love LBfH. It makes me feel very calm. In situations where I would have panicked before I remain serene. For example: I forgot my handbag at work. I phoned them and asked a manager to retrieve it and put it in a safe place until I could go to pick it up. They didn’t phone me straight back, so I knew that they hadn’t found it. However, I had absolutely certainty that I would find it and remained cool. I was right, they hadn’t found it but I did. Previously I would have panicked very badly and expected to lose it.

I am receiving lots of hugs, attention and kindness. People stop to talk to me and they seem genuinely happy to see me. I am smiling much more than ever even though already had a reputation for smiling a lot. I feel genuine pure love for my friends and I think they can sense it and react back with more love. Everything seems really easy and things I want to do work out well without too much effort. Also, I was offered a free couple of tickets for an international football match and many more manifestations.

I am on my fourth day of wash out but I may extend it a little longer as I feel some recon every now and then. During the worst of my recon phase I planned to build a custom that included the kitchen sink but I am scaling it down now. I will not order it until all the recon is gone.

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#3

Curious to know what you mean by too diverse? Maybe that’s the exploration scripting of Genesis showing up.

#4

Yes, I think it may be Genesis. I mean that I want to learn all the ins and outs of photography, plus languages, plus proper typing, plus dance, story telling, etc.

They are all skills that I already have but want to improve all of them and that is OK but not at once.

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#5

It is up to you if you want a more focused title to replace it. But it’s equally possible it’s the recon getting you to drop it. Is there any particular reason you feel that the diversity is bad?

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#6

Diversity is not bad. I alrerady do all those things at some level but I can’t tackle everything at the same time. I think i need more clarity and think about priorities.

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#7

I relate. It’s hard to fit all your passions into one lifetime sometimes.

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#8

Third Cycle – Paragon the whole cycle + some LBfH and some Phoenix

This cycle has been a bit chaotic. The last day of my wash out I tested positive for Covid, so the following day I started listening to Paragon complete solo. After a week I tested negative, also felt a bit better and I reintroduced LBfH.

I had seen that an updated version of DR Phoenix had been released, but after reading the sales page I had decided it wasn’t for me. However, after the first loop of LBfH for some reason I landed in the Phoenix forum thread and I liked what I read. I felt that LBfH made me reconsider and gave me confidence that I would be able to run it so I added it to my stack.

I have always had bullies near me. I was bullied as a child and as a defence mechanism I learnt to conform. If they were picking on others and I wouldn’t comment they would leave me alone. I would only defend members of my family or very close friends, otherwise I would let the bullies get on with the abuse. Thanks to these subs I have been able to change that. This is a massive step for me. I have been able to voice my opposing opinion in a non-confrontational way. Of course, they didn’t like it and ganged up against me on social media but I didn’t care at all, I responded twice and then laughed it off. I couldn’t care less what those people think of me. I don’t need that kind of negative influence so if they don’t call me for the next gathering, I will not miss them.

I have more patience with people and interact better. I don’t seem to have negative thoughts about myself. Also, I don’t need other people’s approval. When I achieve something, I don’t need to tell others. I know about my achievement and that is enough. Don’t need to show off.

I think That LBfH and Phoenix are a good combination because after LBfH helps me to forgive someone, Phoenix kind of reminds me not to let them totally off the hook because after all they had wronged me in the first place, so watch out for them lol.

I wasn’t sure if Paragon had worked because the Covid cough never stopped and recently developed into a chest infection. Yesterday was my last day of wash out after that cycle and last night the coughing was crazy, I couldn’t sleep. I listened to a loop of Paragon and the coughing stopped and slept like a log for the rest of the night. Today I feel slightly better and the coughing is not as bad and less often. Perhaps I trusted Paragon too much and I stopped some of the recovering self-care action? Or perhaps it doesn’t work so well in combination with other subs? Anyway, for now I will continue the self-care and listen to it solo until the coughing stops.

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#9

If you have a course of medicine prescribed to you, it is better to complete it along with Paragon Complete. That will be considered taking action (aka self-care).

Self-care can also mean other things like steam-inhalation and saline-gargling. Steam-inhalation once a day is very good if you are spitting out mucus from the lungs.

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#10

Yes, I did some of that but I wasn’t consistent. I also need a lot of rest as I am exhausted.