One day in One day of.
Today…
Wake up with boners ,with a slight headache.
This afternoon after traveling I have got a headache, slept up to 3hrs and got okay.
I would encourage you to try one or more of the following:
3 minute loops 3 times per week
lower the volume when you listen so you can barely hear it
5 minute loops 2 times per week
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Am on 2 days break I decided to run only 3 times a week one loop.
Yesterday’s night I was on 2 days break, I was feeling vexed because of the clothes I bought wasn’t my size, I entered the bed with my phone,on my way I dived into torrent sites to look for one online course like that for free, from there I mistakenly dived in **xx section from there I started looking out for le****an videos online before I can even reach half of the video I cummed on my pants before even watching the real porn my heart was beating so fast.
In the middle of the night I still woke up again with my dick kicking very hard dived into the porn site and cummed the second time before even clicking on any video.
I fell for the porn trap!!Gush Pathetic!! I felt like why? After escaping this trap…
Now my plans are sleep the exact time we finished night prayers,no blue screen when it’s 10:30pm.
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Today …
I feel shattered, I fell in this porn trap it’s a chain of addiction that hooks you unless you decide to stop.
I have to clean my ass and move on I have nothing to lose if I don’t watch it.
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Thank God I am free from porn. The core reason I started total breakdown is to remove my brain conditioning that gratification comes from PORN.
From tomorrow I will be doing only 5 mins of Khan 2 or 3times a week , I noticed I feel tired whenever I run 2loops of Khan.
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I noticed that the core reason I go back to Porn is because on loneliness, I noticed most of my classmates hate me or always want me to pick up fights with them.
I can say currently that I don’t have any male close friend I go and pour my heart to,and any time someone wants me to fight him verbally I always feel so compelled and emotionally to the extent my brain will be telling me go view that clip you will calm down.
I want to be able to build stronger relationship with my fellow men and connect with them.
Porn just makes more emotionally distant from my colleagues and also brainwashes me to have this mindset that Pmo is my only savior.
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Pain, betrayal of my own self, anger and self esteem issues, this feeling that everybody is against me, feeling to change stack.
I have ran Glm 2 times this week since I relapsed to porn.
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Well done, this is what real healing looks like. Having the courage/self-acceptance to look at the real issues and acknowledge what you’re suppressing or in denial of. Coping mechanisms are just that -coping mechanisms. They are used to distract us from facing our emotional traumas and deep seated issues.
Keep healing and you’ll enter a different reality, one that’s more positive and reflective of your emotional/mental and even spiritual well-being. Where you’re connected to everyone, and deep fulfilling relationships are in abundance.
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Today is my last loop in total breakdown. 2cycles of St1 √√Done and dusted, it wasn’t easy but I soared through.
Things I noticed.
More calm and stoic.
•Horny everyday to the extent I notice most girl passing by on the street.
•This deep urge to express my feelings to a woman.
•Kind of learned how to control my sexual energy.
I’m going on 5days washout and start St2–Total Reprogramming!!
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So since my washout period, I have been feeling sad, happy, confused about life , angry and the cycle repeats , I experienced a lot of mood swings here and there.
Today this night I will be starting Total reprogramming.
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Skipped running St2 yesterday.
I started to fuck up, the main reason I stopped watching Pmo.
I came to understand that my brain is so stupid and unreasonable after deciding consciously not to watch porn I in some unreasonable way go back to watch what I vowed not to watch again!!
I’m sick of this dopamine seeking brain that makes my sad after long moments of happiness and bliss.
I was reading this novel called 1984, the chapter that a girl stumped over Winston and they made love over and over again, I started feeling horny and this urge to do something from there I found my self looking and Porn .
Shit this is not funny.
I don’t know whether to continue this total reprogramming or start another looop of total breakdown.
Today I have practically exhausted myself do to excessive Pmo, this is not funny on this end. Backaches, pain in muscles and joints.
This flaw in humans in which scientists call Coolidge effect: is the core reason I get back to what I vowed not to. But this is not to justify my stupidity --I have to seek real partners not virtual ones on screen, this escalates whenever I go back to my parents home or whenever I don’t have any purpose for the day.
This always starts whenever I read anything related to intimacy or movie displaying any kind of nudity.
I ran another loop of GLm Zp because of this rubbish attitude.
I was called for an interview yesterday for in a bread industry, I have to get the requirements to secure the work, Thanks to God very soon I will stop staying alone at home without any plan for the day or purpose. Remember my school is on strike for up to 7months.
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This!!
I didn’t abide to my rules, not funny.
God help me I have to stick to this rule not because am afraid of staying awake at but because I don’t see the reason why a human should be awake at that time of the night with his or her phone.
If you are already done with Khan ST1, you don’t need to go back.
Go with QL ST1 + Khan ST2. Although do also understand that running 2 multistages together could feel a bit much so be aware of this and see if you can handle it for a couple of days.
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Actually am planning of running QL 1 for 5mins @ 7 pm and Khan St2 for 15mins at 9pm .
Reducing the stack of Ql 1 might help reduce it’s recon, because excessive dopamine from Pmo for the last 2 days has fried my brain.
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Yeah I think that would work. Personally, I haven’t tried running for shorter duration but loads of people are getting benefits from that plus less recon so again yes that would be a good idea.
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Alright thanks. You have used QL 1 in the past right what are your experiences?
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I haven’t used it enough to be able to tell. I think I did a few days of QL ST1.
Will tag @sid since he has run through the whole of QL.
Sid can you link your QL journal or testimonial posts here?
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