Played 2 loops before I went to sleep. Didn’t want to but I ended up having an energy drink with my dinner so I could push through and finish a couple tasks before I laid down to sleep, and powered through them both much quicker than expected actually. I was wired so I figured playing my ultimate sovereign custom would help eat up some energy.
Within 5 minutes of turning it on I started yawning excessively. I was asleep before the first 45 minutes passed. Didn’t wake up until 5 hours later to go to the bathroom.
Had a lucid dream YET AGAIN. This time, I was a school student again. The school in my dream was a mix between my elementary and high school. Me and a bunch of students went around angry and frustrated at how poor the condition of the school was in general. We even encountered a bathroom where the paper towels to dry one’s hands was soaked in piss and put back into the dispensers as a prank.
What made us so angry about that is we knew the janitors could’ve caught that but they simply did nothing to change it, (btw this is where I knew I had to go to the bathroom in real life, as I always do once I enter a bathroom for any reason in my dreams). I also take this as potential symbolism as times in my past where I got frustrated at myself for now standing my ground when I should have.
Usually I’d wake up from a dream upon realizing that I’m inside a bathroom but got distracted in my dream. I joined up with a large Mob of other students who had also had enough of the piss poor conditions (no pun intended). We ran into some asshole teacher who violently pushed a student next to me. The student didn’t wanna fight a teacher but felt he had no choice to defend himself, and didn’t want to let himself get punked by an authority figure.
Before anyone could process what was going on, the student and teacher started throwing punches. I stood there ready to jump in; and sure enough, this teacher threw a punch at me while he was fighting just to be an asshole. The fight transitioned to it being between just me and him.
Surprisingly I found him not to be that much of a challenge, and so I did what I used to when I really was a school student and got into fights. I normally didn’t start fights but always enjoyed it. What I used to do even when pissed off was test how good my opponent was by trading a few blows. I got to the point where within the first 7 seconds, I could tell whether or not they were gonna be a challenge.
Teacher in the dream showed fear and hesitation after a few seconds, which is when I knew he had no chance of beating me because he wasn’t ruthless enough. So just like what I used to do in real life, I started playing around with him while still holding a serious expression and pulling punches just to see if he’d get a good hit in. After he didn’t, I resumed the fight as normal; it was then, that the entire mob of students proceeded to attack him all at once. This imagery actually reminds me of when I was using the Commandant supercharger.
Needless to say, he went down swiftly after that. There was easily more than 20 of us. Finally woke up to use the bathroom but was dead tired. Upon being in my feet for about 3 minutes, the energy came back.
Feels as if this whole dream was symbolic of me being displeased with my internal makeup, and rebelling against what made me anything less than my ideal self. It’s as if I’m experiencing a level of “inner anarchy” that I never have before. Terminus is shifting my internal “blueprint” from a core level. Makes me wonder if T-squared works from a superconscious level to drive deep alchemical change within the user. I’m at least a year off from being prepared for T2 though, but hope I get to find the answer to that question one day.