Ultima Experiment Journal by Matt

Subliminal Club LABS: Public Experimental Testing
#1

Yesterday at night I received the message that I have been chosen to be part of the experiment. I will be listening to the experimental file on a Macbook Pro with beyerdynamic DT770 headphones.

Day 1

Starting „Ultima Test (A)“ at 11:15 am Berlin time. (volume: 100% in vlc, about 40% in system)

I decided to run 1 loop. The instructions told me to post a journal after 4-5 hours.

This would be at about 5 pm Berlin time.

Before running the subliminal I made these notes about the three parts:

  • emotional - I feel a bit stressed out, but also excited about testing the subliminal

  • physical - I can feel tiredness and relaxation in my body

  • mental - Thinking seems to be good - clear and positive thoughts

The effects during listening:

  • emotional - I feel more relaxed and motivated to see what else will be noticeable in the next few hours

  • physical - I feel lighter and energized (tingling in the hands, hotness in the body), also a bit of pressure on the left ear

  • mental - more optimistic thoughts

So now to the results after listening:

  • emotional - I first felt good, motivated and focused working on a problem with my sisters computer, but after 4 hours I felt off, had problems making eye contact publicly (lower confidence)

  • physical - I light headache feeling

  • mental - frustrated thoughts, but still able to turn it around consciously

#2

Day 2

Starting „Ultima Test (B)“ at 10:30 am Berlin time.

I decided to run 3 loops as I have more time right now. Journal entry update will come 4-5 hours after playing the loops.

Before running the subliminal I made these notes about the three parts:

  • emotional - a little bit depressed

  • physical - tiredness in the body

  • mental - some negative thoughts

The effects during listening:

  • emotional - feeling good, motivated to do something (for ex. cleaning up my apartment)

  • physical - feeling a little hotness

  • mental - thinking about what I could do today

As my listening setup is stationary and I felt an urge to do something productive, I began working on a programming project during listening. I had great focus and motivation during working on that project. I cleaned my apartment after listening to the three loops, felt no resistance, just was focused on it. After a week of getting nearly nothing done these were great results. I already do not want to miss the motivation I get from listening to this.

The effects noticing 4-5 hours after listening:

  • emotional - feeling good

  • physical - still I feel a hotness in the body in fact I am sweating

  • mental - less thoughts, more in the moment

So far, I like the effects very much. Could become my daily motivator in the morning.

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#3

Short update from beginning of day 3: I already love this subliminal. Yesterday in bed I could not wait for the next day and the next loops. Currently, I am in the second loop for today and already made great progress on my work project. I do not exactly know what’s in the script, but I gain great focus, less distracting thoughts and motivation from it. Happy to be part of the testing group.

PS: I cannot differentiate the two versions at the moment. Probably have to become more aware of subtle differences.

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#4

Day 3

Starting „Ultima Test (A)“ at 8:05 am Berlin time. I will run it for 3 loops.

This time the volume is at 1/3 at the computer and at 100 % in VLC. I guess on the first day it was too loud and I felt the pressure on the left ear because of that.

This morning I got out of bed easily, which is new for me. In the past few weeks it has been difficult to get out of bed.

To stay in the format I write here the notes before listening:

  • emotional - neutral towards a little happy

  • physical - relaxed in the body

  • mental - few thoughts, positive

The effects during listening

  • emotional - feeling good, motivated to work

  • physical - already a little hotness in the body

  • mental - clear, effective thoughts

During listening I am working on my programming project. Focus and motivation is great. No distracting thoughts.

The effects 4-5 hours after the 3 loops:

  • emotional - feeling good, enjoying the moment

  • physical - relaxed and awake

  • mental - lack of problematic thoughts, optimism

Now I am going to write a bit, which I do again enjoy after a while of being uninterested in it. Later there will be an online meeting and a bit of work to do.

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#5

Day 4

Beginning to listen to „Ultima Test (B)“ at 8:45 am Berlin Time. I will listen to three loops.

Yesterday in the evening I was a bit depressed, but could turn it around by focusing on other things. I also did an automatic writing session in which I came to the idea to focus on my spiritual path more.

At night, I had two dreams I remembered. In the first one I read the name „Saint Sovereign“ somewhere and thought: Ah, this is where the name comes from, until I woke up and realized it was just a dream. The second one was more complex. It was about going to a dance and living in a youth hostel. At the end one of my enemies went nuts and hindered me to go to the dance. Without resolving this conflict I woke up at about 8 am.

Before running the subliminal I made these notes about the three parts:

  • emotional - I feel good
  • physical - I can feel tiredness in my body
  • mental - thinking about what I have to do today and if I will do it

The effects during listening:

  • emotional - feeling good
  • physical - relaxed
  • mental - focused at the task at hand

I can pinpoint why, but I like „Ultima Test (B)“ better.

The results 4 hours after listening:

  • emotional - feeling fine
  • physical - energetic feeling (tingling in hands, warmth)
  • mental - clarity in thoughts, being present and focused on what I do
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#6

Day 5

Yesterday I worked until the middle of the night on a work project and after that on a hobby project.

This morning I had problems getting out of bed, so I begin to listen to „Ultima Test (A)“ at 10:30 am Berlin time. I will listen to three loops.

Dreams were entertaining, but not remembered.

Before running:

  • emotional - a bit depressed

  • physical - body feels awake, but their is also tension in the shoulders

  • mental - a bit pessimistic about having to work now, don’t want to work

During listening:

  • emotional - no worries

  • physical - still tension in shoulders, else being awake and feeling energized

  • mental - not caring if I have to do work as I am focused on the work and not ruminating about it

What I like about this subliminal is that I am in a „just do it“ mood and can dive deep into my work project without being distracted by rumination or excuses.

5 hours after listening:

  • emotional - to quote true social - happy to live another day

  • physical - tension in shoulders still there, energized, awake, hot - which this time definately comes from the heat outside

  • mental - thinking sharp, motivated, ah work is over… I want to work more :smiley:

When I was outside today I did not feel that confident. I felt a bit stressed. A female friend of mine who I haven’t seen for a while asked me if I had grown in height. Probably better posture, could be this subliminal or any other I have run in the past few months.

#7

Day 6

Yesterday I was very tired, so that I slept from 10 pm to 3 am, ate something and went back to bed till 8 am.

Dreams were exhausting, intensive and entertaining.

Today I start three loops „Ultima Test (B)“ at 8:40 am Berlin time.

Before running:

  • emotional -a bit drained

  • physical - sleepy

  • mental - positive thoughts

During listening:

  • emotional - feeling good

  • physical - relaxed with some tension in shoulders, energized (I want to move)

  • mental - focused on the repetitive and boring task I am doing, not thinking „ah, I want to stop this“, just doing it until I am finished

4 hours after listening:

  • emotional - feeling neutral to good

  • physical - a bit tired

  • mental - clear focused thoughts, no rumination

In the evening I was outside and felt not very confident. A lot of thoughts about what others people are thinking about me. Not in the moment, but in the head. Feeling uncomfortable to mild anxiety.

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#8

Day 7

Yesterday in the evening I felt a bit sad. I think it was because at the moment my needs are not met - I am just working like an intelligent animal.

Today I did not get out of bed until 10:30 am. I was awake for a few times, but got back to sleep to dream more.

I am thinking about starting a dream journal in the morning. For two reason: 1. The dreams are very intense and occupying, but I do not remember them after a while. 2. I hope that when I wake up and start writing I do not go back to sleep.

Now I am starting my 3 loops of „Ultima Test (A) - 10:40 am Berlin time.

Before running the subliminal I made these notes about the three parts:

  • emotional -I feel neutral

  • physical - tired, tension in shoulders got better, but there is tension in the neck now

  • mental - optimistic thoughts although I overslept, which is not normal for me

The effects during listening:

  • emotional - feeling good, enjoying the moment

  • physical - hotness in the body

  • mental - less thoughts, inspiration

After listening to the second loop I am done for the work today. Waiting for some feedback from my boss. So I decided to write a bit.

Writing a story went well. And when my boss returned he was pleased with my work this week.

The results 5 hours after listening:

  • emotional - feeling good

  • physical - a bit tired

  • mental - still working on hobby project with clear focus

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#9

Day 8

Yesterday I could not sleep until 3 am, because I felt emotionally energised. I did not come out of bed until 11:40 am. Dreams were repetitive and restarted every time I went back to sleep.

Now at 12:15 pm I start listening to three loops of „Ultima Test (B)“.

What I noticed yesterday is that I forgot to eat. I ate for the first time at 4pm after being a bit shaky outside and buying food. In the evening I was a bit hungrier. So my eating pattern changed for that day.

Before running the subliminal I made these notes about the three parts:

  • emotional - feeling emotionally drained
  • physical - feeling tired
  • mental - not really here, ruminating

The effects during listening:

  • emotional - feeling bored, wanting to do something
  • physical - still tired, but also energised
  • mental - stillness of mind

The results 4 hours after listening (7:15pm):

  • emotional - feeling fine, motivated to learn
  • physical - tired
  • mental - few thoughts, a bit unfocused

I started listening to an inner game seminar in the evening because I still notice that my sexual and social needs are not met currently.

#10

Yesterday I was awake again until about 3 am. Today I do not start the day with Ultima because I am waiting for the next step.

#11

Bro! what has been your most profound feeling on this test.

Something that you might have not captured in this journal because if it’s overarching nature.

#12

Hooray! We are in the same boat, I am on a 3 day break before stage 2 starts…

#13

I do not really know my feelings. Mostly I only see if I feel good or bad. Catching up with my feelings is hard for me, I notice them mostly later. Yesterday I was angry without noticing it, I just showed it in a debate on an intellectual level. Later I realized what I did.

Therefore, I cannot say what the most profound feeling was.

What was profound for me was that I was focused in the moment, instead of thinking about past and future.

#14

Great work! That itself is worth it’s weight in gold.

"All of humanity’s problems stem from man’s inability to sit quietly in a room alone.”
― Blaise Pascal

#15

I have a feeling this sub has scripting specific to this, because I’ve felt the same

#16

yes this is the best state someone can actually be in. I hope this will be in every forthcoming sub

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#17

FYI, Ego Adsum is the module in the Q store that addresses this.

source: someone that has looked at every module in the Q store :rofl:

#18

yes, but Ultima seems to have a much bigger impact on being in the now so there must be something else going on :slight_smile:

#19

What if… Ego Adsum is part of Ultima?! :open_mouth:

#20

Day 9

I did not listen to any subliminal, because I was waiting vor Stage 2 to arrive.

Most of the time I felt good.

Day 10

Begin the day by listening to „Ultima Stage 2 (A)“ for 3 loops.

Before running the subliminal I made these notes about the three parts:

  • emotional - a bit sad
  • physical - relaxed and sleepy
  • mental - few thoughts

As it is Monday I will work during listening. We will see how this will turn out.

The effects during listening:

  • emotional - still a bit sad, also bored
  • physical - feeling awake and relaxed
  • mental - focus when needed, drifting off in idling activities when I have nothing to do

Finished listening at 1:13 pm. Will check in at 6:13pm.

When I went outside shortly after listening I felt well. Not overconfident as in better than others, just confident in my skin. Not being self-conscious.

One hour after listening I notice that I have funny thoughts, like thinking about jokes. Could be a sign of a good mood or not enough sleep and good mood. Having lyrics in my head.

Three hours after listening, feeling very social and talkative. Thankfully, I have a social event later. Already talked in flow to a friend on the phone.

The results 5 hours after listening:

  • emotional - sometimes a bit angry or irritable, else feeling great
  • physical - tired and relaxed body
  • mental - mostly focused, sometimes daydreaming

I feel disturbed by my neighbor making noise. Light angry/irritated feelings. Simultaneously I am smiling and feeling great.

The body is tired and relaxed, the mind is awake and focused. Sometimes when reading I get disturbed by memories or fantasies.

Like fantasies about going to my neighbor and telling him to be silent. Instead, I decided to put on my noise-cancelling headphones because the noise is not really loud and still I feel distracted by it.

At work there is little to do at the moment, so I cannot compare Stage 2 with Stage 1 in focus and flow during work. The things I needed to do I did easily. Cannot wait to get out of the house and visit the friend.

I noticed I forgot to eat and drank too much coffee. Now I ate something and hope that I will be better in a moment. I am trembling a bit.