https://www.amazon.com/Top-Five-Regrets…/dp/140194065X
I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
I wish I hadn’t worked so hard.
I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.
I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
I wish that I had let myself be happier.
heartsong really feels like so much more
ok currently quite upset about how many men are struggling with women. i saw a bunch of graphs today and guys my age, a lot of them, are all in the same boat i’m in. heartsong’s goals are great, but i’m still single despite going on several dates. I’m really thinking to switch to wanted black or a wanted custom just because i haven’t gotten laid in a while. its a real pity because i want someone like Heartsong but i’m just not gettin anywhere. on the other hand wanted black gets me a lot of attention. still no guarantees but it was working better in the past. i’m honestly not sure what to do. i made a heartsong and WB custom after realizing that the 2 don’t work together which is unfortunate. honestly i just want to fix this whole mess with humanity. ideally i would just fix my situation but there are so many guys i can think of just off the top of my head that are in my same situation. (this is something that has been a long term struggle i’ve had if you can’t already tell). like girls out there, have some much more power if there decently attractive, let alone beautiful, it kinda makes me angry. i know that’s a me problem, but a lot of guys i talked to feel the same way. its soo easy to seduce a guy. like its the most easiest thing in the world. but if you not the top 5% of guys, its a different story the other way around. i really don’t want to see humanity go into this whole ai girlfriend bs. that’s just sad and dysfunctional.
a wanted custom i’ve been thinking about:
something like this give or take a few modules
going to stick with heartsong because i don’t want recon, HS is what i really want, and I have some momentum because i’ve been on it for awhile
In the Upanishads the heart is described as a secret place (guha), the cave of the heart. It is a small space, dahara akasha, in which the entire universe is held in seed form. Once we draw our awareness there we become one with all. We move from the individual to the universal.
We have knotted our hearts with emotions based upon our bodily identity, notably the fear of death, but also desire, greed, anger, attachment, jealousy, envy and hatred. This is the nature of human life born of lack of Self-knowledge. These dualistic personal emotions are driven by biological, psychological and social imperatives from hunger and thirst, to the need for love and companionship, to social recognition, financial and social status. They are so deep-seated only a radical change of awareness can remove them, which requires tremendous determination and motivation and an intelligence as sharp as the edge of a razor. It requires a radical shift from ego to Self, from identification with body and mind to recognizing our true nature as thought free awareness, for which body and mind are mere transient outer instruments.
Hridaya is not the same as the Anahata or heart chakra among the chakras of the subtle body, though they are connected. Both are said to be the origin of the unstruck or non-elemental sound, the OM current itself. One could say that the Anahata chakra is the reflection of the Hridaya in the subtle body. Hridaya is connected to the causal body and Anandamaya kosha. It is the source of the entire universe.
Things will become more of what they are