listened to a record of 3 minutes of transcendence v2 yesterday as well as 5 minutes of BDML and 4 minutes of WB. i’ve been kinda flip floping apex paragon with BDLM.
a decent amount of reflection
like don’t get me wrong i like my job. its great like some days i don’t do a single thing and work remote but other days its a little bit more than a slow day. which i really enjoy because it allows me to do things i want to do like read, learn, talk to people, etc. so all and all its not a bad gig considering its a corporate job + benefits.
but there is still something that my soul wants more of. freedom
not financial freedom but actually freedom. I guess the only way to do that is through meditation.
I don’t want to make a big deal about this but when i see saint and fire talking about how one must take action it kinda is a let down in a way. Yes i know that they are talking to a wide audience and they have to be careful what they say in a way. but I’m really interested in they side of passive manifestation. where people and things come to you. you don’t come to them.
i found out about this first time in the earth sky heart workshop that it was possible. someone i found out was doing this was Colette Aboulker-Muscat. she just lived in her house and for 12+ years a steady stream of people came to her (for healing) everyday.
I just wanted to mention this topic but don’t want to go through the whole spiel of how this actually works the earth sky heart workshop is for that.
other things to reflect…
mental imagery have been exponentially powerful when i do it. i’ll do 3 session in the morning (1 minute each) and then the night of, all have at least level 3 dreams if not higher. I have a inclination that it is the ardent light module as well as the wheel of creation and AsCh. formless clarity and Wheel of creation i think are a powerful duo.
also something interesting. these 'high level dream carry on to this world. like one night i had a dream where I was given this disk and was promised a safe travel through this treacherous garden. i easily walked to the end where other people needed to really focus and try just to take a few steps. i got to the end then i went back and found my sister and my dad. both completely unconscious. i brought them together and just waited until then would gain consciousness on their own. it was like this deep cosmic love. part of me things that if i was able to project that through my eyes It could make someone ball their eyes out in one second. but idk about that. haven’t tried it yet. then i woke up and i still had that ‘cosmic love’ in me. no ego at all. it was like 3 or 4 am so i went to see if there was anything i could snack on to help me fall asleep and the weirdest thing happened, when i took a bit of a mini pizza it was like “dopemine, ego, blah blah, look at me” but only like 20%. it was noticeable. kind of like a seperate thought from me while i was in that state. if you call it a state.
While one part of me wants the whole freedom thing, the other part is like …soooo when are you gonna get laidd my mannn. I live in a big city and i see at least 10 hot girls just walking around minding their own business everyday. and i really want to talk to them. and heck i know they would be into me just because WB has a way making my eyes shine like no other. Wanted OG is more like light coming from my eyes but wanted black is more like the light of 1000 stars in a night sky. so just different i think. also with WB eye contact is easier to do if i want to do it.
I’ve been watching a lot of Todd v videos. i’ve come to realize a few things:
pass shit test:
just pass it. don’t be emotional reactive.
agree and exaggerate
misinterpret (treat it as a compliment. reframe)
- Attentiion. gt her focuesed on you
- Interest: Make the conversation relevant for her
- Decision. engage her emtions and make it about you
- Action. Turn her interest tangible her her invested.
you look like you have a good sense of humor
i want to find out more about you.
i still want to find out more about you.
not that you should be an ass hole but girls are more attracted to ass holes than nice guys
have a good agenda
“but basically what you want to do is be
genuine and perceived as not having an
agenda but at the same time be perceived
as genuine not having an agenda
completely by choice rather than by
manipulation right that’s like the
perfect sweet spot right that make sense”
Implied Social Proof - Volume, Confidence, Unreactivity, Entitlement Etc.
Iconography - Style, Story, Resume
Inverse Of Behavior - Commitment/Consistency
Health - Physical and Manner
you have a penis and its natural to want to use it
your brain can learn incredibly fast with putting chaos in order
found out that the unity breath is the main trigger of these divine images I see in every other meditation.
alternate nostril breathing is a really poweful tool for me. like 17 ish minutes and i can get into complete peace or the Omkar realities. i’m not a pro yet tho. just happened 2 or 3 times. its always been after alternate nostril breathing . i need to do more micro cosmic orbit as well. that is like a deep cleanse of my astral body.
wanted black’s dreams consist of sex or group sex with hot young girls. which is cool. i think i just need to be consistant with WB and good things will happen naturally.