TOP 500 DPS In Overwatch 2 - GMX + ME + [⥀] TBD + Ascension Chamber

Journals - Major Programs
#137

Day 54 - Rest day
Am hit with something that must be recon. I listened to AscCh for like 2 minutes yesterday and it is so damn powerful man. I am like a lion cub keep trying to mess with the head lion (as you see in nature shows) and the head lion is not down for cuddling or mischief, just slaps the cub away. AscCh slapped me!

(Just some wild metaphors of my experience)

Anyway, the reason I want to be good at games is because I am competitive and love games, but also because my dream is to turn my hobby of videogame streaming and content creation into a job. RoM is helping me to understand myself and why I do things. I still want to maintain being good at games, but aiming to be top 500 in ONE single game is not me. I don’t like or play only ONE game. That goal put me in a box.

I want to keep RoM a while longer as it is truly a revealing sub which I appreciate. I am thinking of going back to StarkQ rotating that in someday. Perhaps switch it with ME to start. Also True Sell and perhaps Inner Circle. This is for my hobby of streaming on Twitch. But yeah, let things unfold. Patience is really not my strong suit. It’s something I struggle with daily and hopefully the awareness will help me figure out how to deal with it, live it or make me better at patience.

RoM might be a sub to rotate in for 2-4 cycles every year to remove layers or distractions and assess where you’re heading etc, to stay on track. It’s a beautiful sub man.

Anyway, rest day. :pray:

Post-Post Notes
Time flies so fast I forgot tomorrow is last sub day and after that the washout starts!

I want to keep RoM as it helps me in realizing and understanding myself and helps be aware my thoughts and behaviors, good and bad.

I also feel I want another run of ME, and I would like to add in some more visualization practices as I’ve been doing near zero visualization on it, just to squeeze the juices out of it. I have seen benefits from it in work and gaming, but there is definitely more to check out.

So I am thinking to do another run of GMX, ME and RoM, meditate more, visualize more and then switch out ME for StarkQ, and once GMX gets upgraded (to perhaps include some of RoM and ME) switch out RoM for Inner Circle or True Sell.

I am planning to come back to RoM a few times a year for clarity and to assess where I am and where I am going.

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#138

Day 55 - GMX and ME
Last day of this cycle and then washout starts :pray:

I think I need to recheck the day count and statistics, because just looking quick I see a day or two with the the wrong number. Opps.

Anyway I’m thinking that I continue with the current stack next and this time try to add more mindfulness, meditations and visualisation exercises. It doesn’t have to be fancy, it could just be taking a moment here or there to sit still and observe. Perhaps before I write a piece of code, close my eyes for a moment, visualise what will come in and come out, input, output and flow.

Then after next cycle, I’m switching ME for Stark and I am unsure for now what I wanna do with RoM. I am going let it unfold.

The reason I am attached to RoM is that it’s an ally that makes me aware more often, makes things a bit clearer and sometimes show me too much at same time and I become overwhelmed. It’s powerful, use with care.

I am even thinking of running EmpB when I plan to run RoM in the future to really sit down, focus and reflect, where am I now where will I go next. It’s seems to me to be perfect to run Nov-Dec, first of all my birthday is there and also you’re about to enter a new year. So it’s a good time to assess where you are etc.

Time to listen to GMX and ME 15 minutes each back to back.

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#139

Day 56 - Washout I
:soap:

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#140

Day 57 - Washout II
Another day another washout. 🥲

Anyway, had a very focused day at work yesterday even though I was sleep deprived. Later in the night I played and streamed Escape From Tarkov, the game that is harder than tax returns! (Joke attemp #1)

I am thinking of switching ME directly to Stark next cycle. I am indecisive and I’ve learned to let it goo and let it emerge because if not I will go into obsessiveness trying to figure it out right now, right away.

Peace

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#141

Day 58 - Washout III
Washout is going great. A bit underslept, so I slept super earlier last night (featuring baby). Can’t take all the credits myself.

Anyway, I have a crazy idea for my next stack.
Day A:

  1. GMX 15 min
  2. RoM 1 min (microloop)
  3. ME 1 min (microloop)

Day B

  1. Stark 15 min
  2. IC 15 min

I am thinking the microloop is just there to “refresh” my memory on things that benefited GMX, until the new version comes out which might have some parts of ME/RoM.

Stark and IC for streaming and networking.

Crazy, scientific or crazy scientist?

Anyway, we’ll see what other crazy stuff emerges before the Washout ends.

:bath:

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#142

Day 59 Washout IV
My last idea was probably a bit too crazy. I need to perform and minimizing recon is my goal.

So I will either do this:
GMX (15min) + ME (microloop) [A]
RoM (Microloop) [B]

or

GMX (15min) + RoM (Microloop) [A]
Stark (15min) [B]

or pehaps keep this current stack but put ME and RoM on microloops.
So GMX + ME, and RoM.

Anyway, washing on til the break of dawn. :slight_smile:
Socially I feel like a demi-human right now for some reason.
Also my mind is on point.

#143

Day 60 - Washout V
Pleasant day, moments of intense presence and realizations. Ready for my next cycle.

I forget to journal and the day ran out. Family activities, “fika”, cleaning, grocery shopping, self care and visualising the weeks to come.

Day 61 - GMX (full)+ ME (micro)
January 16 Monday :pray:

I’ve decided to carry on with the same stack, trying my best to engage in activities that touch all subliminals, to open up pathways potentially. I feel like I haven’t done that intentionally for ME and this tool and skill in ME is amazing with even more amazing potential.

I’m also experimenting this cycle with the concept is a microloop to decrease being overwhelmed and recon. Both RoM and ME will be played for 3 minutes max, most likely for 2 minutes on average.

Next cycle I will try to get Stark in for Twitch status, fame and innovation.

:pray:

#144

Day 61 - Rest day
Rest day today, had glimpses of intense presence and body awareness. Felt super good. I wonder where this is coming from? Is this from revelation of mind?

Finished a important project at work. Had more energy today as well.

Tomorrow is RoM microloop day. :ok_hand:

Also I’ve been practicing visualisation. For example all the sensations I felt I also visualised that being my soul ingesting all the positive traits. My body melting fat. Like slow evolution of every cell, incorporating and living all the objectives and my goals.

Stay warm!

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#145

Day 62 - RoM
Played RoM today, was aiming for 1.5min, but accidently listened to like 8 while coding on a project. I guess I was too focused on the project. Bad thing? Maybe.

Had a few realizations listening to the late Yukihiro Takahashi. Rest in peace man :slight_smile:
I also had these insane shower thoughts I guess.
Need to reflect on them and see if they last.

Peace

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#146

Day 63 - Rest day
Been a stressful and hectic day. Can’t focus and mind doing x but thinking of y. Mind all over the place.

Day 64 - GMX and ME
I am having so much fun gaming and streaming. Not even thinking about success, just enjoying the ride. Perhaps that’s not a good thing if it’s unbalanced? Perhaps you need some intent and freedom from outcome, in balance? Perhaps I’m just filled in the head with rules for how success looks like, or how progress should look like, but reality is different?

I need sleep :sleeping: this weekend.

Peace

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#147

Day 65 - Rest
I didn’t listen to the subliminal yesterday as I was too stressed and tired at work and didn’t want to push my brain. Back at it tomorrow.

#148

Day 66 - RoM
Listened to this baby for 2 minutes approximately. Really nice.

Yesterdays stream I had two friends show up for most of the stream hanging out and chilling. Enjoyed it alot. Truly felt like my vision where I envision everybody in Twitch chat as people sitting around me on a couch and me playing, but we’re actually playing together. It creates a nice vibe. And it felt even more real when the people who showed up were people I’ve actually sat with on a sofa or the floor playing Metal Gear Solid with as a little kid. :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

Still tired, obsessiveness is out of control. I need to take a chill pill!

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#149

Day 67 - Rest
Rest day, work up tired and grumpy but it was released after an hour or two. I really need to engage in practices to clear out tension and/or calm down the mind. I have a tendency to let build up and only deal with them once the pressure gets too much or bursts out. Problem with that is the tension but also the potential to hurt closed ones. I engaged in mindfulness and meditated as well as wrote in my private m journal. That helped alot today.

Mindful acceptance
Journal minds dump, no filters, just let it out like you would cleaning.

Clarity is so nice. Smoke is so uncomfortable. Open the window.

I think I also know what increases the obsessiveness. I am a bit obsessive as a person, or passionate, to the extreme. But sometimes it’s too much. We’ll see if this was the cause, I will share the self knowledge.

:pray:

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#150

Day 68 - GMX and ME
Listened to The subs for sub 3 minutes. Felt good and carried the day with focus.

I noticed I come up with ideas and solutions to a game with ease and then I see a guide that goes through some of “my” optimal solutions. And in that moment I scared my girlfriend, while she was watching TV, by screaming “I AM A GENIUS!” :joy:

Also RoM is beautiful the way I feel my mind is noticing small things I do that are good and some that are bad, but have huge effects on outcomes. Nothing fancy, just some limiting beliefs or things that cause stress and are totally useless. The payoff is not worth it kinda.

Anyway, excited for the upcoming or planned programs. Content creator, gamer and programmer. Although I can reach next level in programming and software engineering, I might alternate this one with Stark and not just play it alone, as I feel like the other two have things I want to really level up.

:peace_symbol:

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#151

Day 69 - Rest day
Rest day tomorrow, woke up anxious and tired but after a couple mindfulness exercises and meditation I felt better again. A lot of lessons had by being present with emotions. I’m not there yet, but moving closer to being ok with emotions and truly seeing them as indicators, not enemies. Sometimes they’re right and wise other times it’s just neurotic reactions. But if you deny all of them and label them as evil then you will never learn the difference!

Looking forward to the potentially upcoming GMX sub and content creator sub.

Enjoy your Wednesdays!

PS: RoM is amazing! Thinking of running only RoM for a cycle 2x micro loops every other day! Very tempting to squeeze more! More is more! :joy:

#152

Wow don’t know what day it is now, most likely 72 so let’s just go with that 🥲

Day 71 - GMX and ME
Had a late night event and dinner at work t Thursday and woke up really tired yesterday. Expected.

I just love RoM that’s all I got to say.

#153

Day 72 - Rest
Rest today, tomorrow we go RoM yo!!

Haven’t been streaming, things have been less than optimal and I’ve been focused on relaxing.

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#154

Times a changed :slight_smile:

I love what RoM has added to my life. I want to continue it. Things are a bit clearer. Life is life, but things are a bit clearer. Clear days are more often.

I’ve been only listening to RoM lately.
I don’t know but my journey don’t reflect this i m journals title anymore.

#155

I haven’t been as consistenct lately as i would like. But basically I’ve been listening to RoM exclusively. I love it. And I want to wait for the new GMX to play. I might start playing Stark for a cycle while I wait. We’ll see, RoM us a given. Since RoM has given me so much, I feel I also want to listen to RoS and RoB. So many bright and interesting subliminals.

I haven’t been streaming, being too busy or prioritising my family and baby.m
Also I don’t feel the drive for it, similar to @Invictus experience with gym. For me I am testing to understand if this is just a dip or perhaps I just wanted streaming for validation, and RoM has me realise I was chasing phantoms to make up for some lack. Don’t know. But I feel whole lot better and feel like it’s fun but not something I must do and be obsessed about. So perhaps it will turn into true love, where I do it for love, not to fill some void.

I am patient.

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4 Months Of Genesis and DR:LD
#156