I am running Emperor: Reforged since the beginning of this month.
Microloops of 15 seconds MWF. Those 15 seconds are plenty right now and there is a lot of processing going on. Which is quite noticeable – at least in comparison with most other titles I used – but not overwhelming. It feels just right.
You know how the right things arrive at the right time? That’s how Reforged feels to me at the moment.
I don’t often remember my dreams. It’s even more rare that they have a theme that is repeating itself. But it happened several times now that I dreamed of water leaking through the walls and the ceiling – first just a little dripping, which then transforms into a flooding.
Fascinating dream interpretations for that one.
Dreams seem to become a harbinger of change at the moment. Dreamt last night of a situation that mirrored several in my teenage years. Woke up with a pounding heart and slight anxiousness.
From there I lay in bed half-awake and traced this behavioral pattern back to kindergarten times. I mapped how it became ingrained and how it shaped my life and my response to peers. How my response evolved but essentially stayed the same. How I learned to fight back, hold my ground and disconnect emotionally. How every outcome still appears like a defeat, rejection and losing ground even in the face of victory. How this fed into self-imposed alienation and retreat.
There was this whole map in my mind, my reactions at different times in my life like a network of roots. Roots of steel that I mentally reheated to force out impurities. Then it transformed into a network of programmable sequences.
This behavioral pattern is key. It’s a big part of my life experience. Of what made me me. And it is not. While this insight and perception is nothing new, seeing the scope of this pattern and its influence on me sure is. Perception and grounded observation of this kind comes easy. But I always struggle to do something with those insights.
Being able to dissolve and evolve (read: reheat and reforge) this pattern is going to be the Litmus test.
I am highly irritable today. Small things set me off in a big way. That’s rare.
I am adding R.I.C.H. to complement E:R.
My voice is deeper and getting more resonant by the day. Physical shifting is kicking in noticeably. I walk around with a relaxed smile instead of being stone-faced. Less confrontational eye-contact, more relaxed curiosity. Generally less concerned with how I am being perceived (no more silent posturing in the vein of acknowledge my authority and treat me with the exalted respect I am due). No need to walk around like a proverbial icebreaker anymore – I am flowing like water.
How many weeks am I using Reforged by now? 5 days? I see.
Still at 15s?
Yep.
E:R feels super solid. I think Reforged is the foundation I have been instinctively searching for.
Finalized my stack today. E:R + L:Z + G:M.
In the end I am simply a lot more comfortable with Mogul than with RICH.
I don’t want three titles in my stack – I don’t really have a need for L:Z right now.
Two titles really do feel much better than three. With three there is always some kind of destabilization going on for me.
Reforged is an interesting title. At release I did not understand the aim at all. Or maybe misunderstood would be a more apt description. My understanding slowly improved to the point that I saw how it can be of great use to me and I started using it. My understanding is growing still and as a result my perspective is developing as well.
Here we go again. Guess what. Yep.
Wind whispers softly
Stirring dreams of transformation
Hope for new chapters
I microlooped Renaissance Man several hours ago and am now heavily tempted to make it part of my stack. It’s not at all like when I tried it last year for a short stint. It’s like somebody opened a door. Or a gate. I cannot not follow this trail. It’s a gust of wonder and promise. Jack Skellington is singing What’s this? in my head and I am simultanously hearing the Maxence Cyrin piano cover of Where is my mind from The Pixies reverberating somewhere in the distance.
Blue is black and red is yellow. Welcome to Three Colors Green.
A flood of emotions. I am sitting with them, feeling them, but am an observer of them at the same time. They are a thing I avoid, which leads to avoiding life in a sense. But the game goes on, whether you are actively participating or not.
I like the combination of E:R + RM + G:M. The grounding of E:R plus the active search for information I get from G:M plus the sheer zest and mental activity coming from RM are great.
The uplifting from RM is helping me to plan and take action in a way that I don’t get from other titles. Sure, it’s early days and I am prone to radically altering course on a whim, but this feels good and nice and most importantly sustainable.
It’s like with the addition of RM a switch was flipped in me. Self-expression, awareness, curiosity.
I am beginning to hear more details and getting way more immersed in music. It’s moments like these that I am glad to have invested in decent audio equipment and an extensive lossless library. Getting entranced, literally.
I have modified my approach and with it my stack. My initial goal was using E:R as a foundation plus a dedicated wealth sub (RICH or G:M – I settled for the latter) in the second slot. The third slot was to be emtpy, but developed into a cognitive one. A nice and easy set up.
Now, since I was running very short microloops it was comparatively easier to test and swap different titles for that third spot in the stack. In the end, every title I tested introduced some perceived individual dissonances into the overall harmony. But I didn’t want to just leave the third slot open and call it a day – the increased cognitive bandwith is well worth it for me to use the third slot.
So I changed the structure of my stack. Reforged is and will stay as the foundation (I’ve come to really like it). The second slot, however, is now covering vastly more ground than only wealth – ASBR. Overall outward push on top of the inner focus of E:R, which should create a beautiful mix. Hence, there is now cognitive enhancement included with this second title (in that unique ASBR flavor that I have come to really like as well). A nice combo that covers about everything. And evokes a sense of wonder that was not there before.
The third slot is now filled with Limitless: RAIKOV. I could leave that slot open, but L:R just adds so nicely to the sense of adventure and wonder that now is woven into my stack (I really dig the Deep Skill Consolidation During Rest & Sleep).
While I am not going to utilize a mental construct every day to guide L:R, I am definitely going to consciously make use of this feature every now and then. Being playful with this is one of the perks of not strictly needing this title to make my stack work. I am equally curious about passive effects it will bring over time.
Whqt have you noticed so gar from reforged