Thoughts of a Neurodivergent

The Emperor's Lounge
#1

Something I have been pondering about recently.

I know I am dyspraxic and it has affected my life a lot. Being unable to dance to music, play musical instruments, drive a car, engage in sports, learn martial arts, etc has impacted my life a lot, and made me focus on just a one or two areas of life where I could excel.

Having said that, if I were not dyspraxic, I guess there would be many things in my life that I would not be able to appreciate, and to be fair, my life has been interesting so far, with myself taking up jobs and living in places that many of my peers do not have the opportunity to do so.

I have recently relocated to the Middle East for a new job, though I am just don’t feel that the work is something I enjoy, but the money is good, so I will bear with it for a while. Especially since I had been earning less than ten times that amount every month just a few years ago, I learn to appreciate that I can’t have everything in my life.

Perhaps it is ZP or something - as it said you can’t lie to ZP.

I’ve had dyspraxia all my life, and there is no cure for it.Perhaps running Quantum Limitless or New Limitless or Spartan may help a bit but I am now in my 40s, but it doesn’t benefit me to have a goal of becoming a CEO, an Olympic athlete, an F1 driver, or an award winning a Math professor given the reduced runway.

In fact, dyspraxia is part of me, and personally I don’t know what it feels like if I never had it.

It’s not a matter of willpower or limiting beliefs - you can’t ask a one-armed man to become a world-class tennis player.

At this point of time, I guess all I want is to feel fulfilled through whatever I can do to the best of my effort.

I don’t take too much expectations from whatever subliminals I run now.

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#2

I feel for you, but where is the question? I’m not sure what you’re asking.

#3

It isn’t a question. Just my thoughts. Edited for clarity.

#4

Makes sense, thanks for sharing your thoughts.

So I’m curious with a condition like dyspraxia… what are your goals in life?

#6

It seems to me that you have found ways to excel in certain areas despite the limitations. The fact that you push yourself towards excellence, despite the challenges and obstacles you have faced in life, tells me that you are incredibly resilient and determined. It might not be an easy path, but it is the challenges that are shaping you into being the strongest version of yourself.

#7

I’ve stayed away from subliminals for a while - the last round was new Limitless which I ran for one cycle.

Anyway, my outlook in life has been much better in the past few months.

With a much higher salary and the ability to save lots of money living as an expat in quite a boring place in the Middle East, I am worrying less about money than ever before. I can focus more on planning about how I could grow the money that is coming in.

While I am not really fond of my current job scope, I have great colleagues and a great supervisor who has a high opinion of me and sees me as competent even though I guess just know how to learn on the job quickly.

Nevertheless, I still have anxiety about going to work every morning and get always get Saturday night blues (Friday and Saturday are weekends here).

In any case, this is a contract job and my contract ends in November. I need to think about my options after that - I have a friend who might have a job for me in this country that should pay me an even higher salary and which will start when this current project ends…

So, will keep fingers crossed.

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#8

I’ve run 3 cycles of Paragon ZP and QL ST1 ZP, but this post is not about the results from these two subs, but about what I think something like Genesis Mogul ZP would have achieved for me, even though I can’t remember when was the last time I had run Genesis Mogul ZP.

In any case, I have made a lot of money this year, with most of the income coming from my consultancy project in the Middle East, as well as from a big that I had done last year (the client is finally willing to pay).

I estimate that my company bank balance by the end of this year more than 10 times what it was in the beginning of this year, and now a big problem is how to reduce my taxable profit. It’s been a long journey, and I still remembe just a little less than 3 years ago, I almost had nothing in company bank account and couldn’t even afford to pay my own salary.

If I can generate an even higher turnover for the 2025, I believe I can fully pay off my home mortgage and take a short break.

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#9

Congrats bro