Thoughts and Rambles

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#41

I’m tired so this might be incoherent. But it’s genuinely felt like “dreams” themselves aren’t limited to being asleep. Daydreams are one thing, but even then, dreams themselves are kind of like symbolic processing of events/memories. So if we’re processing everything around us all the time, wouldn’t that mean we’re dreaming all the time? I can go inward almost like a meditative state at times and see how I processed some memory or event, and it feels like it as perspective jumps, non-linearity, details that are omitted/changed, etc. I’m feeling it now because I kept thinking I had a memory of someone always hugging one of my pillows whenever they were over, except this is the exact thing I do when I’m at one specific friend’s place. So, either the memory itself was encoded in reverse (which I doubt since I clearly can recall and correct it), or the replay/processing itself took place with different “rules.” I feel like this bit explains a lot of deja vu’s I’ve had if it’s like taking a 360 snapshot of a memory and twisting/playing with the perspective like a rubix cube.

I feel like the encoding itself was normal, but the processing/replay is always what’s changing. That could’ve been the behavior of a dream character that just got pulled from the real life memory, but then that signifies that the memory is getting processed again in a different way. Regardless, I know these real time processing dreams happen and I sometimes even engage with them. It’s almost like I get a bit of amnesia after though, similar to a real dream. And it feels a bit counterproductive to write down or note when it happens, since that itself would affect how that processing happens.

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#42

How are you?

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#43

In the moment? I actually found out on the first day of my finals week, at the same time that I had a paper due in an hour. I had to physically block anything else out of my mind and just keep going. Once it was submitted though, it was a little rough. I don’t like crying and I have a roommate, so it was mostly me trying to visit my emotions without triggering anything strong enough to make me break down. I’d already listened to my loop for that listening day, but it was almost like an inner part of me was just a child again, crying and completely breaking down. It was like he was just asking my subconscious for the strength to make it through the week, since it wasn’t like I could go easy on myself after that either. I’ve worked through overload before, so it was more just me wanting any way to feel strong or in power again. With how much I’ve gone through with the sub, it’s most definitely been a source of strength for me. Like going through the motions that have been ingrained in me to remember how much I’ve gotten through before, something like this is nothing. I notice that when it’s raw emotion that drives me to listen, the change is almost always immediate and profound.

A little after I came to the realization that the likely reason me and him crossed paths and he got to leave a strong impact on me, WAS because of me starting A Stark Black Reality. It hadn’t even been a full week by that point, but that was one of the many manifestations that week that convinced me that this was the path I wanted to be on. So a lot of that sadness got met with gratitude at the same time. Like “I only met him because I started to grow, the other versions of me didn’t have that privilege.” That gratitude helped me through the week (which I desperately needed considering how much more news I’d be getting). I woke up with the distinct feeling I got through the initial loop, with about half of that second one. I don’t know if that’s part of a quirk with how my processing limit works (that I’ve tried to make sense of with support) or if after a while, people just naturally are able to take on more.

Now, I feel more “normal,” whatever that means. I feel like this year has been the year of rapid growth for me, so I can never really say I’m the same person as I was two weeks ago. Despite this probably having been the worst month of the year in terms of events out of my control, I’m fine. I really do attribute it to my month+ run of Regeneration. There’s an inherent “This too shall pass” feeling with whatever I go through. As long as I’m alive, I refuse to stagnate or move backwards, so it’s impossible for me to NOT achieve my goals. I’m getting really close to a lot of them all at once, so I’m really excited to see what the new year brings.

Sorry this turned out long, I think writing everything out just turned things therapeutic a bit. It’s nice knowing people are reading every once in a while and it’s not just me talking into the void.

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#44

I’m not a void, but I do get mistaken for an ai sometimes.

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#45

Finally can see what Stark Black has been working to internalize.

It’s interesting, since I can really see how things are different because I started running the title when I was 18. It feels like a lot of the recon I went through was addressing genetic or family limitations and prepping me for the future, rather than undoing things that were programmed into me. I’m gonna change a lot in the next three months, even moreso than the past three, which felt like fucking whiplash compared to the past. Even my dreams have been different than usual. It feels like I’m hitting the last major block, if that makes sense. Everything’s almost coherent, everything almost makes sense.

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#46

I also think it’s interesting how just one loop of RoD every 2-3 days is able to keep up and even have a stronger feeling than almost anything else I run. Like it feels on par with ASBR and AsC, which is fucking wild considering their builds. Especially considering that with a lot of the subs before NSE, I felt absolutely nothing. No recon, no visible results, nothing. Yet this sub about lucid dreaming that isn’t much newer than those others can somehow draw my attention and have me questioning my own existence.

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#47

Multiple 7-8 figure opportunities going into the new year. I’ve already done the work for a 6 figure payout as well. I feel stupid for ever doubting myself or thinking it’s over if one specific thing doesn’t work out. This kind of thing’s literally just attracted to me :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:

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#48

I wonder have you been using lucid dreaming specifically to manifest things like this?

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#49

I have a little bit :laughing:. Surprisingly though the biggest one (and one I’m most excited about) came from just ASBR alone. Two days after starting it something I’d already agreed to doing got kind of flipped on its head. A bunch of these came after adding RoD back into my stack, so I know the lucid dreaming is part of it. I don’t have a set technique or anything though, it’s more like this kind of thing just happens just by me being more willing to go along with and create in my dreams.

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#50

In the spirit of being more open this year, I’ll elaborate more on this

This time two years ago I was confused at everyone on the forum talking about recon and their results. I’d been running Stark for a little while and literally felt nothing. I thought it just wasn’t for me, and stopped listening at around the two week mark. Then a little later someone showed me ASBR and all the hype and I thought it couldn’t help to try one more. Bam, insane 6 figure opportunity out of nowhere. Bam, getting requests for an interview. Bam, higher ups at my school reaching out to meet me.

I thought something was wrong with me at first since first off, I was handling the title everyone was like “don’t run this first” completely fine. Fast forward a few months, and I was just experimenting. I could handle a lot higher than the recommended loop count, all while still processing and getting results. It’s partially why I never made an account here, I thought I’d just get backlash for following my own listening schedule. I felt nothing from a lot of the subs, including WB, so it felt weird for ASBR and GLM The Commander to give me results. My favorite moment from back then was having a dream about being in a gray space and reaching out towards something. I’d had a good feeling before going to sleep, so I told someone offhandedly. The next morning another huge opportunity came.

Fast forward to RoD, I’d been doing another experimental listening day where I’d listened to 3 or 4 loops of a few titles throughout the day, and decided I’d put on Inner Circle as I went to sleep. At some point during a dream, I’d been told that it was nearly finished processing. I woke up shortly after, but it had only been two hours since I first fell asleep. The only point of comparison I have is Invictus from what I’ve seen in a couple threads, I just process subs really quickly. I even messaged support about it because I was confused as fuck to have such a blatant confirmation.

Anyway yeah, that’s part of my subliminal journey up until now. Here’s to reaching Arch Alchemist before they block off Q Pro with all the stronger build strengths.

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#51

Gonna have to start posting more.

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#52

Anything to keep my experimental builds

#53

I am running RoM this month and planned for a RoM, RoS custom next month. This journal made me add RoD to that custom. Full revelations.

Also enjoying this format of just sharing you’re thoughts. May do the same.

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#54

Love to see it. Tag me when you start the journal.

RoD supremacy

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#55

One of the things I noted when I first started getting boosted manifestations from RoD was that I became a lot more childlike and playful in a way. Like the inner child in me had a lot of shameless wants and feelings, and I just accepted them. Within reason of course, but I feel like a lot of times we question these kinds of desires and reject them because they don’t seem logical or immediately useful to our goals. But it’s not really about that, it’s just about existing. In my perspective, rejecting these perfectly normal wants kind of restricts our existence. By becoming more open and making the fulfillment what you want a normal everyday practice, you become more acclimated to doing it unconsciously too, at least that’s how I like to think about it right now.

It’s kind of nice thinking back to a few years ago when I was hearing the same thing from David Snyder regarding something in hypnosis. It feels almost universal, like being playful and letting yourself exist unrestricted benefits almost every area of life. Let yourself get that sweet treat every now and then, put on your favorite show, take a night off and just enjoy yourself.

Kind of sad I didn’t vividly remember my dream from last night. I recalled some elements of having fun doing something while also enjoying the attention and spotlight on me, which makes sense with me putting ASBR on as I went to sleep. For anyone that knows Chainsaw Man, one more aspect of a dream I remember was that I could do the “bang” thing that Makima did in the manga. I don’t think it was a direct reference to that, just more that I’m getting more used to making up superpowers on the spot and using my imagination.

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#56

Another potentially useful manifestation/recon processing thing from back when I was first listening. If you interpret recon as the backlash you get from your current reality not matching the one described in the subliminal, and your daily experiences being the way you adapt to the subliminal’s reality, then recon becomes an issue of adaptation. If you’re really sure of what you want and can go all in, you can essentially approach listening like abandoning all your old ways of being and trying your damndest to adapt and keep up with the subliminal. In practice back then, this turned into a semi-meditative state where it felt like I was at war with reality itself and how it perceived me. It was kind of intense but invigorating, and I was able to keep up the state even while studying, but eventually since I had to sleep eventually, I couldn’t consciously be in that state 24/7. I woke up feeling a lot stronger though.

A more recent attempt from two months ago had me trying to do it more subtly, rather than trying to destroy everything in me that wasn’t coherent. It was just like a quiet knowing and moving to match the reality being projected, definitely a result of the long-term resilience scripting exposure. I was super calm and was moving from a state of assumption and was able to keep it into my sleeping state. I then had a crazy nightmare about reality killing me while saying something like “those who adapt too perfectly get killed.” Almost like reality having to correct itself around my existence. So yeah, two unsuccessful attempts, I got closer this time at least :upside_down_face:

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#57

A more personal result, but my dreams have been more connected to each other. I typically keep the events of the first dream in my memory during the second, which affects my behavior and how I react. I don’t have many influential dream original characters, most of them are people based on real life. But these real life characters now appear in multiple dreams across multiple nights. So much so that I might need to keep a streak count in my dream journal. I keep my memory of these people too which I think is really cool. Last night I had so many dreams and details in the span of the first 3 hours, which I think might be due to processing? I’m unsure, but I’m looking forward to continuing. They were kind of fractal in the sense that they had overarching plots, yet individual days or events happened that could be considered full dreams on their own.

ASBR feels a lot smoother and more personal to me, to the point that I almost crave running it every now and then. Winter break is ending (so I’m back to needing to lock in and be myself again) and the transition right now feels really smooth. I just got sent an accelerated masters opportunity with one of my PI’s as the advisor, so if I wanted to pursue that I’d have a bit of leverage (on top of everything else I’ve accomplished with these subs which makes things almost unfair). Especially after the month of Regeneration, it’s really smooth going in, to the point it feels natural and not overwhelming. Overall just super calm and feeling okay going into the semester. I frontloaded a lot in my first two years, so now I have a lot more time to focus on my research output and music. Also RAIKOV to help with any classes I need to put a bit more effort into, REALLY looking forward to see what that’s like with coding and studying.

One thing is that I was tired, put on ASBR in ultrasonic and suddenly was super awake. What helped was then putting on a nice game review video to put me back to sleep. 15 minutes of that and I was knocked out again. My friend also just started play flirting with me again out of nowhere. It’s something we used to do but we haven’t done in a while so I’m wondering if it’s WDB related. Not just WDB since it’s something I’ve noticed on every sub, but one of the advantages I feel is that the moment something leaves my conscious awareness, it suddenly has the room to grow and bloom. That’s why I like stacks so much and attacking so many things at once, I can’t possibly notice every little thing. So while it may be a little uncomfortable in the short term, future me can look back and see how I was pushing myself in every way, to the point that huge growth seemed to come out of nowhere.

I always have really high expectations for myself so just normal goals and things don’t fully do it for me, but it feels like I myself have changed so much that the goals themselves have changed in relation to me. I’ve been trying to have more fun being fluid and shapeshifting in dreams, and I notice that kind of thing correlates a lot with this, so I want to make that my focus going forward. From the start, I set goals that would take anyone years to achieve, but now it feels like success genuinely is only one thought away, one unexpected manifestation away from everything falling into place perfectly. I’m almost the person I need to be, my external resources are almost all they need to be. I could very well blow away every goal I’ve had for myself this year if I transform myself right. I think that plays into the recon I’ve had recently, which has mostly been deciding an “endgame” state as well as goals past what I’m working on now. Something unexpected is gonna happen and I’m gonna be propelled into some kind of huge fame/wealth overnight, and then it’ll be up to me to adapt. But even this act of adapting is fun, so I know whatever version of me this happens to will instantly grow past even my own expectations.

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#58

Since the start, my manifestations have all been pretty high profile so they’ve been a bit hard to talk about. But compared to two years ago, where it’d involve getting the contact of a major company president or them hearing about/wanting to work with me, now it’s major company president is well-acquainted with me or is the one reaching out to make even bigger deals. Back in 2024, that was more in the area of really cool opportunities happening 2-3 times a year. Now, in the past 3 months, I’ve gotten into a position with 2 high profile company presidents, big time investors, and connections that I had previously that have bloomed into even bigger partnerships. It’s funny too, because I just had a distinct desire at the beginning of December to work with someone, and now 3 huge manifestations in a row happened to make it not just possible, but EASY and almost effortless to work with them. Like instead of having a good contact to go through, I now have a direct line to them via maybe two phone calls. Two phone calls and I can get exactly what I said I wanted a month ago. Holy fucking shit. Everything compounds and results are 100% exponential. These subs are a cheat code.

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#59

I feel like such a big disservice gets done to results here due to how subtle they are. Yet somehow the more subtle the result is, the more powerful and more impact it has in every area of life. Something small like me feeling a bit more comfortable and confident translates to huge social and personality transformations (dominoing into manifestations just as a result of me being more confident to reach for opportunities). Something like feeling a bit more free and open in my own mind translates to vast inner world freedom both while awake and asleep, and manifestations happening without even actively thinking of them. The past few months have felt extremely subtle in nature, and yet they’ve held arguably the biggest changes that I’ve ever had, rivaled only by me first starting here. I think a lot of these changes are still in progress, I’ve just gotten to the point where I’m able to see them and where there is a more tangible trace.

My current plan now is to create a ZPT build name embed of RoD and to keep it in my stack permanently, playing it maybe only once or twice a week. I’d like to get more comfortable with and enjoy more of WDB before eventually creating a custom with that and ASBR. That would keep the ZPQ build, so I really want to get to know WDB first. How I interact with it, how it impacts every aspect of my life, in what ways will it change me if it became a core aspect of my being. I’m considering this because of the positive results I’ve received being so smooth, and it arguably being as compatible with me as the other two. Not to mention I’ve noticed its benefits in every aspect of my life already. I enjoy my alone time, I’m more social with friends, it makes my dreams more positive, both men and women reach out to me, the comfort I feel in networking, all while I could even forget I’m running the title. No recon or incongruence unless I intentionally decide to dig deep. I think this would be the perfect complement to ASBR for me, especially as things begin to pick up. The immense personal and professional development, innovation, and personal power on top of the soft confidence, fun, and light way of existing and interacting just feel so right together. I do want to wait a little while for this, at least a few more months to gain a bit more wisdom about myself as well. This would likely be an endgame custom for me, one that I’d be using instead of ASBR itself, so I want to make sure I consider it carefully. Or I could cheap out and just make another name embed LOL.

Dreams are increasing in complexity a bit, but I’m catching up just as quickly in order to be able to understand and parse them. In terms of visualization, I find I’m able to sense and identify feelings a lot more clearly. If there’s a feeling, sufficient imagery comes up for me to be able to tap into and understand it.

Still a lot more growth happening on all levels, it’s weird in a way, but I can recognize it as the start of getting what I’ve wanted for years.

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#60

I don’t really like the question “can this sub help me with this specific goal?” If you feel the need to ask, then you inherently know it can on some level. To even formulate the question, your imagination must be working to have drawn some parallel between the sub and what you want to achieve. That means that the way to connect the two inherently exist. That’s how you bring something into existence in the first place. You sense it, you see it, and you make it.

Things always work on a deeper level than the surface level one they’ve been presented on. Fire talks about working out to develop one’s masculine energy, yet still mentions that it’s only one way, and that the underlying goals are pushing one’s limits and discipline. Working out is just one expression of something deeper.

I’ve used GLM: The Commander to help me study. For something that could be seen as purely intellectual, I was able to tap into a deeper source of power for. Discipline and pushing my limits, even in my own mind, is still a form of power and leadership. It’s another expression of that power. Sexual energy can be used to make art, because on a deeper level, it’s an act of creation, not just horniness.

Subs to me are like a coding language. Are you going to use the same function that’s been written and adapted a hundred times? You can if it’s and what you use to get to your goals. But don’t feel limited by that. What about creating some new, innovative, and elegant solution that’s never been thought of before?

You create that expression, you direct the ways in which it can exist. Go use Regeneration to become the biggest alpha or Emperor to get your PhD, the only limiter that exists is you.

(heavily shortened and more on topic than the original rant)

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