The year of the restart: New Ascension name embedded

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#1

TITLE: The old Newbie
START DATE: 5/1/26
PROJECTED RUN TIME: stage 1 5/1/26-4/30/27
MODULES:

  1. Genesis Ascension as a voice embedded major and that is it.
    RUN PATTERN: The new ZPU lite recommended pattern. I will be increasing loops slowly. 1 60 day cycle of stage 1 followed by a cycle of stage two. Possibly add in a second title after six months.
    GOALS, OBJECTIVE:
    STAGE 1
  2. Maintain and increase the improvements in financial management and responsibility that I have made over the past six months or so.
  3. Clean up the house and keep it that way.
  4. Increase my general level of confidence.
  5. Get back to writing and finish the rough draft of a novel.
  6. Get my life set up so that I can “have a life” when the staffing crisis at work ends and I actually have some time off.
  7. Have everything related to my father’s estate dealt with.
  8. Be on a regular workout program.

STAGE 2

  1. Have some semblance of a regular social life. Be regularly doing things that involve other people.
  2. Not much else on the objective front.

GOALS, SUBJECTIVE:

  1. Get rid of the sense of impending disaster that long term financial stress has ingrained in me.
  2. Get more enjoyment out of life.
  3. Further increase my confidence.
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#2

5/1/26 Loop 1 STAGE 1 1 minute

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#3

What kind of novel

I need to do the same thing
I was working on a fantasy novel

Awesome step 1 and 2 can’t wait to see how your journey progresses

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#4

It’s modern fantasy. Think Dresden Files, but a bit grittier and more grounded.

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#5

Have you ever read Quincy Harker demon hunter
Those urban fantasies are really good

Can’t wait to see your novel
Mine is going to be a litrpg

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#6

I’ll give it a try. I find that most urban fantasy crosses into really cheesy territory.
So far I only know of three authors who do a good job of putting high fantasy elements in the modern world and making it sound true to life.
What im trying to do is write good action adventure series where the protagonist happens to be a magic user. We’ll see how it goes.

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#7

5/3/26 STAGE 1 LOOP 2 3 minutes

  • I didn’t notice much on Saturday, but it was pretty chaotic. I took the kid to do some fun stuff so it was a good day, but still I didn’t have time to get anything done around the house.
    This morning though, I did take a few minutes to get a persistent rats nest of clutter by my bed taken care of so there is improvement.

  • I noticed something odd. For a long time I had been running subs to get control over my financial situation.
    After I quit running them, I started seeing results. I had gained a lot of control over them and things were looking a lot better. I was getting there bit by bit.

  • About a month ago that situation changed. My father passed away. That was devastating, but he had enough just in his bank account to pay off all of my non real estate debts.
    For years I had been hoping for some big stroke of luck to get me out of financial trouble, and running subs thinking they would help manifest that.
    I gave up on it, decided that help wasn’t coming and I would do it myself. I improved my habits and started getting there, and only then, painful as it is, that huge stroke came.
    We are now in a MUCH better position going forward.

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#8

5/5/26. STAGE 1 CYCLE 1 LOOP 3. 3minutes

  • I haven’t noticed too much the last few days, but I’ve been working sixty to eighty hours a week.
    I’m a machine with that, but it’s been six months or so and I’m actually noticing that I’m tired.
    I arranged with the boss to actually get two days off this week. I think my results will show more once I actually get some rest.
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#9

5/7/26.STAGE 1 CYCLE 1 LOOP 4 7:30

  • I’ve been too busy to notice much of a difference, but I did arrange to actually have two days off this weekend.
    We’ll
    See what a little rest does for me.

  • I went in and got a memorial tattoo for my father before work today. That’s about all of the exciting stuff in my life right now.

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#10

5/12/26 STAGE 1 CYCLE 1 LOOP 5. 10 minutes

  • I forgot to run my loop on Sunday. That’s frustrating and the reason I’ve just kind of fizzled out on the last couple of programs I’ve tried. I even put alerts on my phone for each run this cycle.
    I was off that night and dealing with my chaotic family, but still. I will do better.

  • Not much in the way of noticeable results, but I’ve been working 60-80 hours a week, so I don’t have that much time to do stuff. That should be easing off in the near future, and I’ve got a lot of money saved up.

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#11

5/15/26. STAGE 1 CYCLE 1 LOOP 612 minutes

  • I’m finally back on schedule with this.

  • I haven’t noticed a whole lot, but I have cancelled a few things that were costing money that didn’t need to be spent. It’s a start.

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#12

5/17/25 STAGE 1 CYCLE 1 LOOP 7Full loop

  • I continue not to have any major tangible results. Not because it isn’t working, but because I spend so much time working.
    The house is a disaster area and it becomes clearer and clearer that neither the wife or our roommate (both of whom have well documented medical issues) are going to do any of the heavy work to clean it up.
    It’s incredibly frustrating, but because she has MS, I feel like a complete asshole if I even gently push her to do more.
    She says that doing things like standing to cook, or shopping, or pretty much anything leave her too exhausted to really get out of bed for days afterwards.
    That leaves all of the money making work, house work, and yard work on me.
    I have felt for quite some time that there just isn’t enough me to go around.
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#13

5/19/26 STAGE 1 CYCLE 1 LOOP 8. Full loop

  • Nothing much changing outwardly. I have been thinking about something though.
    I don’t know how not to be stressed out.
    I’ve been under extreme financial stress for years, but a lot of that has come off of me now.
    Before that I was trying and failing to get into a certain career field for many years. Not to mention having a closely related job that was extremely stressful.
    The stress about the job search was self inflicted. I see that now.
    Before that, I caused myself untold angst and agony about my love life. That was also unnecessary.
    And before that (there was quite a bit of overlap here) I stressed myself out by taking on my father’s problems. Not to mention everything else about my childhood. (Read The Year of the Dragon Emperor if you want to know more about that, I don’t feel like rehashing too much of that tonight).
    I’ve felt extreme pressure all my life, and I don’t know how to function when I’m not. My entire system is wired for it and always has been.
    That’s why I find the place I’m in weird.
    I’ve been in similar situations a couple of times, and I realize what I’m doing now.
    My mind is scanning the future (in a normal imaginative kind of way) for the next thing I need to worry about. It has a lot of trouble dealing with things being good right now and is trying to put itself back into the state it is used to being in.
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#14

Thanks for sharing. Dragon reborn regeneration and summertime Will help with this, but it will also be quite the challenge if you’re wired as you mentioned like that. It will take time to untie the knots and you will be screaming all the way throughout lol like getting a good massage

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#15

I’m not stacking anything for the foreseeable future. This should do it on its own with all of the emphasis on resetting the nervous system.
I think that I’m becoming more aware of it because my subconscious is working at it.
It’s actually not that bad right now. Not nearly as bad as it was at previous times in my life.

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#16
  • I just noticed something.
    Throughout my life I’ve had a compulsive twitch (best way I can describe it). It wasn’t a completely involuntary movement, I was telling my body to do it, but it was as I said, compulsive. It happens more when I’m feeling stressed, but it has been pretty much constant as long as I remember though it has migrated to different places in my body throughout the years.
    Today it occurred to me that I wasn’t doing that anymore, and it’s been at least a couple of days since I have at all. Maybe more like weeks. It has just stopped and I wasn’t even thinking about it.
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#17

5/21/26 STAGE 1CYCLE 1 LOOP 9 Full Loop

  • I seem to be be tolerating full loops well. No sign of any recon.
    The sense of impending disaster has abated a bit. Maybe me thinking about it was a sign that it’s starting to clear up. I think I’ve had that on previous programs.
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#18

5/24/26 STAGE 1 CYCLE 1 LOOP 10 Full Loop

  • I missed running my loop on my day off again yesterday. I have one day a week, and they’ve been so hectic that I just forget.
    What I’m going to do this time is run two days back to back to get back on schedule.
    I set a reminder for every loop until October and I’m sticking to it.
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#19

5/25/26 STAGE 1 CYCLE 1 LOOP 11 Full loop

  • Something started kicking in this morning. I didn’t have to work a twelve. Instead of doing nothing I got to cleaning up the disaster area I live in. I got quite a bit done before dinner and off to work.
    Since I’ve been working so much and my wife and roommate both have serious medical issues, the place has really gone to shit. I’d been hesitant to get started before because it was, well, overwhelming.
    Today I just picked a spot and got on it.
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#20

5/26/26 STAGE 1 CYCLE 1 LOOP 12 Full Loop

  • Yes, I’m running three days in a row. That is to get myself back on the schedule I set after missing a run day.
    I seem to be tolerating it pretty well. No sign of recon so I should be ok to do it this way.

  • I got a little more cleaning done after I got up today so it’s still having an effect.
    The state of the house is driving me nuts, but that is what it takes to get me to do something about it. I’ll take it.

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