Well Ive listened to my stack today and last tuesday… so Im keeping my every other day schedule.
Also Im out of the hole, picked my ass up and had a very productive day today. It was another of those days in which I realized that if I dont actually do things… well things dont do themselves 
Im keeping my stack unchanged.
Feel good to hear that same on this side today was productive got some reading done. Don’t break your chain
I need some experts opinions here… @Simon @RVconsultant @Lion @Malkuth @Azriel I Invoke Thee…
Ive realized that my sense of smell is getting pretty sharp, I´ll give some examples:
Its been like 3 times in which I feel a very distinct smell coming from my girlfriend and thought “She´s getting aroused” and bang! five minutes later she makes a comment or do something that proves it.
Its been like 3 times in which I come see her and percieved a pretty distinct not so pleasant smell and get the intuition that the smell means she is angry/sad, couple of minutes go by and she tells me some problem thats been bothering her.
I wonder which cores/modules could be giving me this effect, its not just intuition because the first thing I notice is the smell, then experience leds me to calibrate the response and fine tune what the smell is signaling.
Could it be Wanted? Eagle Eye maybe? Im happy to get some opinions and input about this.
All-seeing:
Developing your perception and your senses will help you see things others miss. Not only will you be able to easily read others intentions, thoughts and behaviors, you will also develop more and more all your senses, helping you enjoy your life even more and thrive in it. If you have spiritual goals, All-Seeing will also help you in developing your spiritual senses.
It makes sense now that I read about it again, never thought to include the sense of smell there lol
Hey now that is amazing. Now I wish QL has that, that’s a pretty great ability to have!
Yes it is a pretty great ability to have… and totally unexpected!!
I love being invoked and answer thine summons
That’s easy …All-Seeing
it’s also obviously being synergistic with focused arousal, intuition enhancer, and eagle eye
because your not only just smelling something, your intuiting a reflective and conceptional meaning, and then noting it distinctly in another’s disposition and behavior
Wow I have this in a custom for next year, this was like a spoiler that gave me even more excitement for next year. It like a super power lol
Beautiful!! And I dont say it just for your explanation… wink wink
It makes so much sense… man Im loving my customs more and more.
Damn! It’s not surprising why people use expressions like “I smelt trouble” and “I smelt opportunity”. You showed examples of them both.
Yeah… I know for a fact that we uncosciously pick up on peoples smells and they trigger all kind of emotional responses, neurochemical releases, decisions and behaviours in us. But to be consciously aware of it… changes to game to a whole new level man. I love it!!
Yes. This.
I was thinking that another part of the synergy is also your increasing ability to relax into yourself and attune to others (particularly around seduction-related interaction and communication). I think you’ve had very many modules and practices (as well as natural talent) that developed you in that way.
Thanks for that… It makes me remember that I had a dream last week, well a nightmare really, about my girlfriend and when I woke up I knew something was wrong with her, turns out she was at the edge of a panik attack.
Ended up doing some hypnosis with her and helping her resolve some old trauma.
I overlooked the power of modules like Transcendental Connection and the power of The Alchemist.
Thanks for that too! Ive been reading your journal lately and I think its time for me to asign proper value to all the hard work Ive been doing in other areas to develop my Self, to value what I have, what I know, my talents, my nature, to value who I am much… much more.
Its been a hard couple of days… after all I went through with alcohol last week, this saturday I became totally drunk and Im still sick. Yesterday I vomited all day and felt really guilty.
I went through feeling guilty to hating myself and not believing in me anymore.
Now I feel weak physically and emotionally.
Ive been going to really dark parts of my mind and considered many different possibilities.
One going to a healing stack, other stopping all subs.
The thing is both feels like running away from something.
I think I just had an idea…
Ive realized that Ive been using alcohol, sugar and sex as a substitute for Love. The kind of l
Love I wasnt giving myself.
Also Im really afraid of people for some reason.
Who am I really afraid of? Maybe someone who I was supposed to feel loved by…
I decided to add Sage Immortal to my stack… its seems that It will help me reconect.
I did my first loop of Sage Immortal and it was quite trippy. First I saw a golden padlock getting opened, then lots of imagery of me going through a dark pipe system, I was afraid to get in at first, but did it anyway.
Later I had many images of boats navigating the ocean, different sizes and different kind of ships.
After a while I began to see many “bad” things from my life but with a feeling of kindness and detachment… I dont remember feeling that way before, specially thinking about those things, after that I saw myself infront of me holding two objects, one in each hand and that version of me said “Dont say you are lost, you always now exactly what you are doing, sometimes you do things that go against what you now you really want, you convince youself “its ok” and then you regret it. You are equally capable of creating light and darkness, so… which one its going to be?” I chose light and the other me gave me both objects, they where like golden metal feathers or something similar.
I feel very calmed now…