Sage’s Rise: the Wanted Son of Lightning

Journals - Major Programs
#348

June 6th, 2016

Decided to change the date format to throw future me reading through this

Today is my third rest day. It was difficult to not rationalize and play just a loop yesterday, but I stuck to my goal and I’m glad I did.

My head is soo much more clear without the infamous pressure I find it difficult to explain being present, it’s nice. I feel light and smooth with just a bit of a hint of processing continuing.

Though recon sucks, I am glad I experienced it recently because now I can absolutely feel what is recon, what’s an energy draw from Wanted, recon differences between SoL and Wanted.

In other news, I’ve sort of strayed away from the idea of having two customs, unless one be an Ultima. My reasoning is, name embedded mains should become a thing at some point in the hopefully near future, which I’ve been eager for since before I decided to get a custom.

I find it difficult to focus at times when I am meditating or doing breath work and when I am attaining focus, my head will sometimes sporadically jerk or parts of my body will convulse. I generally sense it coming, which also throws my concentration. This has happened for a long time and the only answers I’ve found is that my body is attempting to release tension, but…I would tink dat ting might release fasta, boi. Thoughts @Hermit y @Malkuth?

Ever since my last post that my guy Malkuth mentioned last night, my desire to view porn is at a solid -1, which is great. I’m going to be going to the gym again, most likely starting tomorrow, but I’ll have to figure it out between my lady and I.

Things are looking up. I’m going to be able to work again soon, and I’ve already gotten positions lined up. I’m going to go with the more convenient company first while I get comfortable back in the saddle.

For anyone that doesn’t recall/know, I’m a truck driver and I’ve been off a ridiculously long amount of time healing from a work injury. The injury was auspicious in that it has helped me have a relationship with my son that I wouldn’t have otherwise, it probably saved my relationship with my girlfriend in the sense we’ve connected more than ever before, fought and grown and learned from these arguments, I got a much needed rest from going hard in the saddle for a year straight… All while getting workman’s comp checks.

I think it’s dope, too.

Like I mentioned a few posts ago, I will be working again and therefore the tone and frequency of my posting will be shifting hopefully in the right direction.

Oh! Shit! Imma have to remember to come back and post the story of the Pillow Princess’s Peril.

Issa doozy my guy

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#349

I’d take that as a good sign. You’re doing well. Just give your conscious mind the knowledge that these movements are a good thing and a sign that you’re moving deeper into a flow of relaxation and unity. Let it trust that your mind body system is doing exactly what it needs to do to conduct energy smoothly through your system and to dissolve and release energy blocks. Congratulate and prize your system moreover for having the ability to do this while you’re still awake. That’s a skill not a problem.

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#350

I’m wondering if what happened with your gf and you was a partial results of WANTED and perhaps Diamond.

Thanks for posting!

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#351

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I’m glad you mentioned this because this post is solely about whether or not my results from DIAMOND are continuing to show or if Wanted has taken over its momentum.

I couldn’t say either way, and I suppose it does matter but I haven’t played DIAMOND in over a week I believe. So I’m attributing it to Wanted.

My erections are definitely large and full. Again, ‘intimidating’ pops into my head and I while I doubt that’s in the script, I wouldn’t rule it out.

SelfPleasurebiz

There’s definitely some sexual scripting in here, my sexual responses are literally electric. Even self stimulating I feel like I’m being electrocuted with pleasure. It’s a bit overwhelming, to be honest lol. Perhaps it’s my own fault, but I do at times visualize lightning forks of pleasure coming from me to my partner, but I’ve never experienced this feeling alone.

P.S. no porn or outer stimuli used, just aggressive morning wood demanding homage

More later.

#352

Yesterday, I played only Rebirth Q and my custom one loop. I felt literally nothing from processing.

Today, I played Regeneration Qv2 and Wanted. I accidentally played RQv2 one and a half times, but Wanted only once. I got tired which I’m not sure is due to Wanted or me smoking weed, but regardless, I was almost knocked out cold.

My girlfriend and I have decided to go to the gym together starting tomorrow; whether that happens or not, we will see lol.

#353
#354

Yo, so I listened to SoL once, followed by Rebirth and another SoL loop. So it looked like:

Son of Lightning
RebirthQ
Son of Lightning.

No issues that I can pinpoint whatsoever. And this week, my head is more clear and I’ve dealt with little emotional recon. So for next week, I’ll be continuing to use a similar stack of alternating days between SoL and Wanted, with Rebirth or Regeneration in between

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#355

06/10/21

Today, I will be playing Wanted, then RebirthQ, then another Wanted loop. I’ll see how I feel after that :wink:

I want to know if two loops of Wanted is too much for me at this stage, cuz then I’ll drop it to one loop next week, preceded by Rebirth.

RebirthQ x1
Wanted x1

#356

If all goes well with these Wanted Masked loops then I will be resuming use of Solace next week.

#357

I am mostly through my first loop of Wanted today. I did notice a bit of what I will from now on call the ‘Looming’.

The Looming is the physical sensation in my head bone that I haven’t been able to put into words (yet). It’s a sort pressure/overshadowing that I feel in my brain when I’m reaching my queue limit. It feels to me, and I sense it coming, like when you feel the sun is just about to set and it is getting darker outside.

It’s not nearly that dramatic, but that’s the best image I’ve got for now.

Though I felt this Looming for about 5 minutes halfway in, it melted away so I feel just about the same as I did when I started my loop, with just a bit of processing evident.

I’m going to complete this loop, take a two hour break to see how I feel and if I am still good, RebirthQ and another loop of Wanted is in store for me.

I have a road test at a new driving company tomorrow that I’m a bit nervous for. I haven’t drove in awhile and getting into an eighteen wheeler is a bit intimidating. I always feel this way when I haven’t drove even a normal car in awhile, but I always pick it up immediately.

Anyways, I’m going to go with this company as they have a decent route from here in Vegas to Fort Collins, Nebraska for an account of worked before when I was working for CR England (that was the name of the trucking company I worked from the beginning of this journal).

I will stay with them until the OTHER company that wants me has an opening on this Amazon account going out of Vegas. It’s convenient, the company is fantastic and comes recommended by my dad and a couple former co drivers. They have a great benefit package from what I hear and the pay is excellent.

My custom is showing with money Manifestation, or money opportunities.

Through a nice little fuck up, I payed too much on my credit cards and ended up negative on my accounts. Luckily, my girlfriend’s grandma lent me money to get me out of overdraft (which I’ve never had overdraft issues before smh). I intended in my head for money to find me and went about my business.

The very next morning, my cousin called me. I didn’t get the call cuz I was searching for my phone for thirty minutes. When I returned the call, he told me that he was looking for someone to substitute for him at work as he had injured his damn big toe getting out of bed and needed to call off for two days.

But get this, he was going to pay me out of POCKET that very day.

It was not a huge amount of money, but it would have helped. I thanked him for thinking of me.

He texted me last night asking if I could replace him in the morning (this morning) but as my girl and I only have one vehicle, it didn’t work out. She’s making twice what I would have doing his little job anyway so I wasn’t tripping.

But! All of this to say, my custom (Secret Source, perhaps) is showing out for meh.

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#358

06/11/21

I completed my road test today. My backing skills have faded, much to my chagrin, but I was expecting as much. I did surprisingly well with everything else and I go in on Monday for my physical and drug test, Tuesday for orientation.

So I’ll be making money again, and Ascended Mogul will have a chance to shine finally.

Once I get my Sennheiser’s repaired I’ll be stacking R.I.C.H with SoL and Wanted.

Speaking of which. As it stands now, I’m going to keep the Son of Lightning as is, and keep the main store title of Wanted in a stack. I want to get a bit from Primal before I change my custom. Wanted would fit great but it didn’t make sense to me to waste Primal’s influence so quickly after I created my custom.

Plus, I don’t want to get into the habit of editing my customs and end up with 5 versions of the same custom.

More later.

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#359

I have been growing out my hair for like the last year to twist it into dreads, and now that I’m at the stage where I can begin, something is telling me I’ll be more attractive with it cut.

So after much back and forth, I’ll be getting it cut. I hope I don’t regret it.

I didn’t play any titles yesterday, so it’ll be another impromptu 3 day rest.

#360

I didn’t experience recon this week nearly as bad as the previous week, so my ‘alternating titles day stack regimen’ will be my go to for more than likely two weeks.

#361

Posting to refresh my memory later.

My Custom:

Ascended Mogul
Primal
Inner Circle

Mastermind:
Careful planning, organization and management in a profoundly calculating manner was in ancient history considered one of the most effective ways of achieving success… seen in such individuals history remembers even now – like the great military genius Cao Cao who was honoured on the levels of emperors without being one officially. Mastermind will help you plan grand plans that will help you achieve your goals with utmost creativity and rapid efficiency.

Dynasty:
A module focused on your family, building up your relationships with each family member, creating family unity and helping other family members find themselves in life. Your connection to your family and them to you will become deeper and deeper, and each person will become more and more successful as well as happier. For the family man or woman, this is a must have.

Faith Unyielding:
Faith in one’s ideals, abilities, or a greater power has moved men to great feats that echo throughout history. Faith Unyielding will help you develop such profound faith and use it in many areas of your life – to help your connection to the deity of your religion, to help in your spiritual endeavors, to bring greater faith in your own abilities, to even inspire others with the power of your unyielding faith.

Jupiter:We manifest every moment, every second of our lives. Every moment we breathe, every moment that we are – we manifest. If we develop our ability to manifest more powerfully and more consciously, we will unlock heights we couldn’t even dream of. This is what control over your reality is truly about, and that is what the Jupiter module delivers.

Yggdrasil:Yggdrasil is a module designed to speed and open up the pathways to manifestation. Similar to the roots of a mighty tree, the pathways will become numerous and wide. You will notice the most unlikely positive circumstances and opportunities manifesting to help you with your goals.

Potentiator: The Potentiator is about stopping you from repressing your power and potential, and instead allowing yourself to express and enjoy the endless possibilities that lie before you. You will not only become aware of all these possibilities you have, but also have ideas on how to best make use of them.

Gorgeous Manifestation: A manifestation module focusing specifically on beautiful women who would be interested in you. Will highly increase the ratio of beautiful and approachable women around you. It is up to you to pull the trigger.

Lifeblood Fable: Your reputation is the lifeblood of your success in many aspects of life such as business, romance and politics. Without nurturing it, you leave an incredibly important factor to potentially random elements and accidents. Lifeblood Fable will help you shape your reputation in any way you desire – a reputation of a profound spiritual teacher, of a powerful business magnate, of a seducer who makes all weak in the knees – with Lifeblood Fable, you have the choice. Not only that, but you will also effortlessly improve your reputation generally in the most beneficial way to you and find ways to evolve it even further.

Dragon Tongue: Improving your speech and wit is an inescapable part of becoming a powerful individual, and while all our majors contain modules for mastering wit, it is an excellent idea to focus further on your Dragon Tongue. You will become better and better at reframing situations into being advantageous for you, as well as improve more and more in debates and public speaking. Being witty and funny in your very own way will easily become natural.

Direct Influencing Aura: Directly influences any person, guided by conscious intent and subconscious desires, in order to fulfill any goals ranging from wealth, love, art, simple persuasion etc.

Carpe Diem Ascended:Extreme motivation and ambition is paramount to fulfilling your life’s goals and becoming the man you want to be. This module is created for the sole purpose of manifesting and developing incredible amounts of motivation, drive and ambition, that will cause you to go after your ambitions relentlessly. Some other powerful effects include immense satisfaction whenever you achieve something (even something as simple as cleaning or eating well) and the amazing love for life you will develop. Waking up happy, motivated and driven to conquer everyday is now reality.

Mystery:We are all filled with limitless potential, countless talents and unknown abilities. The Mystery helps bring out these hidden talents you never knew you had. You will experience new opportunities to learn things and you will see unexpected talent emerging whenever you try something new. You will see yourself with abilities you didn’t know you had. You might want to ask – what abilities or talents will I see? You’re going to have to find out. That is… the Mystery.

Eye of the Storm: Losing yourself in a negative habit (or several!) can feel like drifting into a storm. With Eye of the Storm, you will regain your control over your negative habits and become able to build positive habits with greater and greater ease. Whenever you feel yourself drifting, you will be able to safely end up in the Eye of the Storm and take back control over your life. You can also use Eye of the Storm whenever you want to build new positive habits.

New Beginnings

Financial Success: Reality Shifter: Shifting reality… A concept that sounds far fetched. At Subliminal Club… it isn’t. With FSRS, we will be shifting your reality and your perception of it into a reality where financial success is the only true reality. This will result in unbelievable coincidences, luck, chance meetings etc. Wealth is within your grasp.

Secret Source: You never know the opportunities that are waiting untapped just for you. Now you have the possibility to find out all the sources of money that you can create and that will bring you continuous, rising wealth. Look out for opportunities that seem unorthodox and do not be afraid to explore with an open mind – your Secret Sources will appear.

Virtue Series: Temperance: Scarcity mindset and the desire for instant gratification are powerfully ingrained beliefs that put a screeching halt to any dreams of long term success. Develop your virtue of Temperance – turn your scarcity mindset into a mindset of wise abundance, and develop true understanding of delayed gratification.

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#362

I have to remind myself from now on, this is different technology from Q, and the recommendations, while great, don’t apply so much (besides starting with one loop).

I’m on my third day of recon and I can still feel the Looming in my head. Now that I focus on it, I can’t even really pinpoint where in my head meat the sensation is originating, but it feels like the top of my head and my forehead. I didn’t feel this yesterday.

The only thing that has been helping is doing regular breathwork.

I have a feeling it’s not reconciliation as much as energetic, though.

If I’m Ascending, don’t worry, I’ll brb

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#363

I’m seeing with Wanted that when I’m talking to people, particularly women, I say what needs to be said. Nothing more.

I’m even noticing it on here in my replies to others, I have less of an inclination to respond to everything as much.

#364

I just did early morning meditation with PATHS Terminus and then two loops of Paragon Complete (while resting). I have a sensation now that sends like what you call the Looming. Feels like an energetic traffic jam on the top of my head down to my mid-forehead.

I’m about to go out with the fam shortly and will be walking for a bit; so I’ll see how the general aerobic activity and circulation of blood affect it.

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#365

I accidentally put third day of recon instead of my third rest day…

R E C O N C I L I A T I O N

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#366

If you can remember, let me know your findings

#367

By the way, this is it in a nutshell.