Thatās a great mantra - but exceptionally hard to follow
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Day 30
335.5 hrs
30 days since the start of this journey! Letās take a brief look at some changes and things that have happened.
- Logistics: As you can see, Iāve hit my 30-day minimum. I originally shot for 350 hours which is coming up soon. However, Iām currently goaling for 500 hours because I think I should really take the time to break down beliefs. Iām open to outside opinion if it can really be determined that I donāt need 500 hours. In addition, while I originally thought Iād be listening to 8.25 hours of the masked per day, Iāve consistently been above that minimumāmostly using the ultrasonic audio!
- One of my main concerns when it comes to listening to the ultrasonic audio is, am I actually listening to anything? Are my speakers actually transmitting audio with real information? FYI, I listen via my iPhone/Mac speakers and my AirPods Pro and I would like reassurance that listening with these actually does something. With masked itās clear that Iām hearing things, but the ultrasonic sometimes gives the illusion that nothing is happening!
- When it comes to breakthroughs and realizations, I find myself itching to start with, āLately, I havenāt observed too many major breakthroughsā before remembering that thereās a bunch of stuff I wrote above. There really is a benefit to journaling, it seems.
- Currently acting less social than I wouldāve expected to be acting 30 days ago. Iāve become a bit more apathetic about socializingāsurprisinglyāand drawn more inward towards myself. The recent virus pandemic leading to cancelled events only stacks on top of that. I see an opportunity here to do more conscious self-inquiry to go along with the breakdown of beliefs.
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Day 37
428.75 hours
When it comes to listening to more of ST1, āIām not really feeling it.ā Thatās my answer when I ask myself right now. āWhatās the point now?ā I may be getting that signal that itās time to switch stages. Looks like I may stop at 450 hours!
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Day 38
440.25 hours
Just as I thought. Iām going to reach 450 hours by the end of Friday (AKA tomorrow). Thatās perfect, since itāll coincide with the end of the work weekāIāll witness reconciliation from ST2 starting on a weekend so there wonāt be as many things thatāll get disrupted once I start ST2. I do think I got much of what I can from ST1 and now I need to do more programming.
For example, earlier today I was on the phone with my grandparents. My mom sprang this on me so it was a bit unexpected. I played out an old pattern where Iād essentially lock up and not say much to my grandparents. Iād essentially pause more and look at my mom to give me something to say. I overheard her later complaining to my dad about this 
. Sure, I may not know their language as much (itās a second language, not English). However, my sibling knows as much as I do yet he can talk more and freely when it comes to these surprise phone calls. Why is that? A little bit of thinking and I quickly deduce that the answer is a combination of a few things:
- I am afraid of saying the wrong thing or doing the wrong thing (e.g. waiting too long for the response or to respond), primarily in front of my mom whoās usually nearby after she hands me the phone.
- I got used to my mom giving me the things to say.
I have been perpetuating this cycle with each phone call, I know it. The behavior exhibited in this situation is not generalizable to other conversations with other people (phone/in-person/etc.) so it doesnāt reflect on general social anxiety or something of that nature. So I have to break the cycle. Iām going to remember this the next time such a call occurs. And of courseā¦
I am truly looking forward to Total Reprogramming changingāshiting, evenāmy entire belief system and personality in order to fit my ideal self.
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Day 39 (Khan ST1)
450 hours
Khan ST1 Is Done. Looking forward to ST2. Starting at noon tomorrow.
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Quite! A lot of stuff is gone, time to replace with something better.
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Day 1 (Khan ST2)
11.5 hours
Current listening plan:
- True Social x2
- Khan ST2 (hours listed are total # of hours for Khan ST2 so far).
Now, this is what Iām talking about! Iāve been looking for a subliminal that can truly reprogram my mind to be more social. Before SubClub I had been focusing on this, and I thought that I would need to spend a considerable amount of time to first do a social sub and then second a sexual attraction sub. Itās great to know that Iām killing two birds with one stone through Khan.
Of course, given the circumstances related to the current pandemic, Iām not going out as much right now which means that I have to do other things to help reprogram my mind. These are just a few of the things Iām planning to do along with the subliminal:
- Calling/video chatting with people more routinely. This is largely an act of initiative though Iāve gotten the friend mentioned earlier in this log to be more proactive about it himself! Those who do receive these calls appreciate them very much.
- Reading up material related to social success and stuff of that nature.
My dreams last night seems to reflect this first day of programming. I had all sorts of interesting social experiences, from being the center of attention in one dream to making people happily surprised to see me to hanging out and chatting with a ton of people from different parts of my life, it was quite an experience!
Reconciliation: None
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Day 2
22.5 hours
Spent a good chunk of time yesterday reading; surprised at how smooth ST2 has been so far with no reconciliation side effects.
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Thatās been my experience with ST2, smooth as chocolate. Didnāt get the crushing reconciliation that others had.
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Day 3
35.5 hours
Smooth sailing. I continue to learn more social stuff. Called a friend and we spent an hour on the phone. Dreams were once again pretty exciting, with me hanging out with and talking with a lot more people than is usual for my dreams (usually the focus of the dream doesnāt have to do with hangouts).
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Damn, I wish I could do a simultaneous listen of Khan ST2 & PCC. However, even if I could, it wouldnāt be particularly fruitful right now since Iām not reading The 48 Laws of Power nor am I interacting with many people in personā¦I suppose PCC will have to wait until Iām acclimated to ST4.
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bro,
how does St2 feel without taking action?
Two points @mecharc
- I have taken action thatās adapted to the current circumstances, including reading and watching various materials regarding social stuff as well as keeping in touch with people.
- It is a VERY smooth sub so far. Check out the past few entriesāno reconciliation so far! Iāve had some fun dreams. In fact, it may be smoother than any subliminal Iāve ever listened to, as even the ineffective ones created by other companies have led to some brain discomfort. This one? No pain or discomfort.
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Bro! This journal on my text to speech app sounds like a novel.
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Day 8
100 hours
Hey everyone, things are going just fine. Itās been a bit quiet recently, and admittedly Iāve been a bit lazy to work on Khan goals. Of course, itās a little hard to do so with current circumstances. However, earlier today I was on the phone with my grandparents and it went much better than last time. Going into the conversation, I was aware of past patterns and the talk went smoothly!
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Day 17
204.5 hours
Would you look at that! 9 days have gone by since the last entry and today, Iāve shot past 200 hours! The full extent of what that time spent reprogramming means, however, wonāt be fully realized yet as the coronavirus continues. I donāt have any signs of reconciliation to point me towards major breakthroughs or something of that nature. Due to the aforementioned reasons Iāve been somewhat dilatory in my efforts to document my road here. Nonetheless I shall note a few things for those interested!
- My dreams continue to put me in social scenes. Not only that, there has been a recent development where some of my dreams have people interested in me and reaching out to me to hang out and go on interesting adventures together!
- I noticed lately that my parents give me a bit more respect. Some friends who have talked with me over the phone have given me subtle signs of respect and appreciation. At work today, I felt more respected!
- Conversation with others has flown more smoothly as of late.
On another note, itās unfortunate that thereās a delay in Q. That said, I do wish that the SubClub team would update Khan sooner than later so that I can run a super-powerful version of Khan and be even more aggressive in my reprogramming efforts. I know my mind can take it 
I have set goals for both the number of days and number of hours. I will be blowing past 500 hours for Khan, and given current circumstances I envision that I will be listening to Khan ST2 for at least as many days as planned.
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Agreed Upon
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