Aight, so there are many questions that need to be answered, so I guess that’s how this journal is gonna start, so prepare to read quite a bit 
“Where did you disappear to for 30 days?”
Well, short answer: I was locked up in jail 
Now, I don’t wanna sound like a crazy mofo here, but honestly, as scary as being in jail sounds, it turned out to have its own flavor of fun, which resulted in me becoming the most popular guy there with everyone, including the cops, as I was doing magic on a daily basis, and even ended up coming up with new magic routines while inside, as my creativity levels were at an all time high (yes, we had playing cards there).
“Does this mean you won’t run WANTED Black anymore?”
No, it does not, as even though I, to some degree, blamed WB for the situation, it was actually my own stupidity that landed me in there, along with me being at the wrong place at the wrong time, and I can’t blame any sub for that.
What happened was a result of me not realizing the crowd I was attracting, along with me trusting every random person I meet as if they were my best friends, which is all on me 
“Where are you headed now?”
Well, there are 2 directions I wanna head in simultaneously, one has to do with my “mastery of the physical world”, as @SaintSovereign puts it, which I still believe needs a lot of work, as the clarity from sobriety also made me come to terms with the fact that I’m wasting so much of my potential, as well as money, I mean, I spent over 150k in the last 8 months on my bad smoking habits, which is very embarrassing if I’m being honest, so with that habit gone, I’m gonna focus more on getting my money up, but not with a new business or something, but instead by utilizing my social skills and popularity more (just last week I finished a training course with AlJazeera media institute, called “Distinguished Media Appearance Course”, a good warm up for the new journey up ahead 
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The other direction is my bodybuilding lifestyle, and as of today, I have started a “cycle” 
I won’t mention the compounds I’m on, but this is now going to be my new way of pushing myself to the limits, as I have come to the conclusion that due to me fucking up my hormones back when I was 18, I have ended up capping my natural limit due to my own negligence, and while I started using Testosterone a while before “disappearing”, it was cut off due to no access, so now I’m on it “properly”, so while I won’t be attributing all of my physical changes to subs alone, you gotta keep in mind that if I do post, it’s for my own research and “self-hype” (plus I’m curious as to how they interact together).
even though I don’t blame that custom, the idea of running it gives me PTSD/anxiety 
