Hello everyone. My name is SpikeDaMai. Da Mai literally translate to “Big Wheat” in Chinese, but it’s an endearing nickname for me, essentially calling me “Big Mike.” This is the first time I’ve written a journal and I feel compelled to write a few things down from my limited experience so far with WANTED, Chosen and Regeneration (all ZP) so far. I’m not sure how often I’ll post but I’ll start with this.
My schedule:
Day 1: Chosen, Wanted
Day 2: Rest
Day 3: Regeneration
Day 4: Rest
And so on.
I first listened to Chosen and then Wanted around 11:00-11:30 AM Thailand time, Wednesday, December 1. As I mentioned in a post on that day, I started to feel tingling in my hands and feet while listening to Wanted. For some reason, spontaneous wood “popped” up during the session and quieted down afterwards 
I then walked outside, down the street, and noticed a feeling a greater confidence, a greater conscious awareness of my surroundings, and being able to confidently look random people in the eye. I had a different feeling than normal - a slight difference of perception and a more in-the-now presence. Now what is interesting, is that it wasn’t until last night, 38+ hours later, that I seemed to have some really strange dreams, what obviously seems like recon from Chosen and Wanted.
This to me proves Saint’s point that we must follow the recommended listening guidelines carefully. I’m a hard gainer, fitting this kind of personality profile to a T, so it’s perhaps not surprising that I’m getting recon so many hours after listening to these titles. Maybe this is also why I haven’t (or haven’t really noticed before that I) had as great of success with Q and Qv2 before - perhaps listening to too many titles at once and/or not allowing for enough rest time.
Today, at 11:25 AM, I listen to Regeneration ZP. During the listening period while I was lying down with my headphones on, I seemed to be running through my whole life reflecting on the past from early childhood until now, but especially focusing on the “traumatic” experiences during childhood. Things I haven’t thought about in years suddenly playing it’s movie in my mind’s eye! I relived them, and felt their presence, and asked for forgiveness to my parents and those who’ve hurt me (intentionally or not) in the past. Recognizing that it wasn’t their fault and that they did the best they could do at that time. I also could feel/imagine something “strange” - it was like I was peeling off a metaphysical emotional baggage “clothes” off my body - like purging my body and organs of emotional trauma that might explain why certain parts of my body are not “happy.” A really interesting first experience with Regeneration!
I also became a little emotional when talking to my GF on the phone, don’t know why, but it wasn’t normal for me. This I attribute to RegZP.
This is all for now.
The lessening of the fat around the stomach seems to be a result of more than just my normal amount of exercise as I’ve not done anything different from before starting listening to ZP per se. Could this be a part of WANTED?
The top of my head has been thinning out for years.
) some before the dream, feeling a little tired after listening to ZP and gradually getting shifts in perception, as I’ve mentioned previously. The dream was indeed strange, but I’ll do my best to describe a part of it to you now. In the dream, I focused one of my big toes (I think it was the left one). As I zoomed in, the toe and the surrounding foot became transparent, with objects seen inside. This objects were of random shapes and sizes, but I couldn’t really determine what they were. Some things were even moving - floating around. One of the objects was clearly some sort of a bug walking around 
! I remember thinking in my dream, when focusing on a smaller part of the toe (now zoomed in), that this location is where I had an injury before. (I don’t remember having an actual injury at any of my big toes except for stubbing one as a child). As I zoomed in on that area, what looked transparent, suddenly showed a thin film, perpendicular to the front of the toe, that looked like one of those swirling color patterns you see on those toy translucent rubber balls that boys (like me) loved to play with, when one viewed it from the top. This dream seemed to tell me that, although an injury looks OK from a distance, upon closer examination, there is latent damage. I’m wondering if this dream is a metaphor speaking of me healing from emotional wounds, and although I thought these (remembered or not wounds) were healed, in fact, I have some residual damage that still affects me. This seems to be directly related to RegZP although a small part of this could also be some blooming from the Paragon that I ran a lot before this ZP preview.
