The Psychonaut - Eudaemon

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#102

Day#17

LBfH × 5
Psychonaut × 5

I just had a very powerful realization during a dream, I woke up in tears. Even though is still night time, I cant stop thinking about it, I dont want to either.

I realized that in every relationship I have felt trapped, even in the current one to a degree and inside of me I always felt the need to be free (as in alone). Always felt woman restricted my freedom and that caused me to harbor resentment against them.

The dream feels to intimate and personal to share, but it took me from there :arrow_up: to here :arrow_down:

I dont need to be set free… I choose to share my life with the woman I love.

Writing that last phrase made me tear up again.

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#103

Powerful realizations are happening.

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#104

I had two more dreams after I fell asleep again… Both in the same theme, both made me cry again.
They are kind of blurry now, but I remember 1 being about my girlfriend and 1 about my mom.

Very powerful stuff indeed @Lion

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#105

Yesterday I was cranky the whole day long, didn’t realize it then, but it was obviously recon.
I guess it was the issue of my dreams getting worked on

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#106

I just ended a 24 hour fast to cleanse myself a bit after the small Christmas vacation we took with my girlfriend.
Im thinking about finishing this cycle tomorrow a bit short so I can start the new one beginning 2024.

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#107

I just bought myself Khan Black… So next cycle I’ll be doing The Psychonaut + Khan Black st1.
I got a feeling that KB and RoS are highly synergistic.

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#108

Day#19

Psychonaut × 7 minutes
LBfH × 3 minutes.

Im ending the cycle today and washing out for 3 days… maybe more.
This finishes the 2nd cycle of Psychonaut and I feel I haven’t even scratch the surface of what it has to offer yet.

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#109

The lady started Khan Black and Helen of Troy yesterday… Im pretty scared in a good way :sweat_smile:
Im also kind of jealous, I want to start KB soon, but Im only on day 1 of washing out.

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#111

Thing’s are so fucked up right now I cant even begin to describe them without sounding like Im depressed.
Well maybe I am…

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#113

New Cycle

Day#1

Khan Black st1 × 5 minutes
Phoenix × 5 minutes

Due to my actual life circumstances, I tweaked my stack to the most convenient form.
Im emotionally tired and broken, left home yesterday after breaking up with my girlfriend. Im not gonna share the details here, but what happened left me very sad and angry.

Still theres an inner force leading me forward thats comforting and calm, at the same time that all the anger, sadness and fear are being experienced in the foreground.

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#114

Stay strong brother.

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#115

Thanks brother!

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#116

First results from my stack…

• A bit of a headache, probably too much exposure.
• An inner sense of happiness and joy.
• Major relief from the burden and pain of what I am going through.

Althought this is painful, it must be done in order to grow and enjoy a much better life.

Thats the overall feeling of it and coming to think about it, I belive LBfH was a major catalyst for me to be able to make this decision, feeling so sure of myself.

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#117

I started the same stack yesterday. Only 15 minutes each. Headache is strong.

Got the warning from ouroboros that official recommendation for stack rotation is one title per cycle not more.

Tried a microloop of 7 seconds of each title to reduce recon. Let’s see how it works.

Stay strong. Good ones go, better ones will come.

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#118

Powerful stack! 15 minutes each, I wouldnt do that until at least 3 or 4 cycles in…
Anyway my headache is gone now, hope your goes away soon.

Yeah I know, but I never have problems changing stacks, a bit of headache is not something I worry about… How many minutes I listen in a loop has a much bigger effect.

Thanks!! Although for now alone time and healing is the only thing I care about. Honestly I have zero desire to stablish a new relationship or date.
When the time is right I might do it.

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#119

Im impressed about how fast Im processing my emotions with only 1 loop so far.
Today I had a burst of sadness, but it quickly went away. I didnt indulge in behaviors that would have made me more sad.
Now if I think about the same events, I feel relieved.

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#120

Im not gonna lie, I did have a lot of beautiful moments with my ex, but since I left the other day I have a strong feeling of relief.

Could it be that I was so unaware of my own dissatisfaction with my relationship?

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#121

Day#3

KB × 3:30 minutes
Phoenix × 5 minutes

I wasnt really unaware of how dissatisfied I was with my relationship… In fact I was unwilling to accept the truth, cause I was scared of dealing with the consequences and move on.
That was killing my self esteem and making me harbor lots of resentment.

Most likely thats why Im so relieved.

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