Day 12 ~ rest day
My horoscope for today said this:
I finally had some time to myself and let out a cry / release. Feels liberating.
I don’t have much to say at the moment.
I was people watching from a balcony noticing how sad I felt looking at an older couple who I assume have been together a long time. I want to grow old with someone special. My current situation is less than ideal. I’m not sure it could sustain long term. Hanging around my ex bf all the time who is in active recovery while also daydreaming about my ex fiancé from time to time.
I reopened my dating profile. I just really don’t desire to go into the dating scene the way I experienced it before. My standards seem pretty extreme. 
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“Don’t take the challenge of anyone in the world. It’s all within you. The challenge comes from within you. Do you believe it, or don’t you believe it? Don’t let anyone else challenge you. But they will, only when – within you – there is still that little question mark. But don’t accept it.”
Neville Goddard
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Since you posted a link about Bashar I am guessing you might appreciate these channels, funny coincidence they are all canadians like you and I have benefited greatly from all of them.
Ladyoftheforest444
Out of this world
Viviane Chauvet
The last one is a very unique lady that offers very awesome meditations.
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Thanks for sharing !! 
Day 13 ~ Seductress & SB full loops
Im really noticing big changes within relating to my inner dialogue. When negative icky self judgement creeps in my inner coach takes charge lovingly.
I found myself automatically “imagining lovingly” for various people this morning while sipping my mushroom coffee. It felt so natural. I am also noticing how I don’t hold back speaking my mind with my friends when I feel they need to hear something. It may seem “harsh” but I know I would much rather hear the harsh truth than have someone dance around something that may benefit my growth.
I boldly set a boundary with a “friend” yesterday who did a coaching session with me once before. She has been venting a lot with me.
Nice vs kind ~
I felt confident to walk in public wearing a sports bra with short shorts this morning. Never did this once in my life before!!!
I’m enjoying sensual goddess dancing randomly. It lifts my spirits. 
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Day 16 ~ rest
I learned about 7 points to pump in the body for lymph drainage and flow. I’ve been doing it for a couple days now. I also started jumping on my mini trampoline again.
I ordered a Gua Sha massage tool specifically for my face neck and chest area.
I’m enjoying my new skincare and hair products.
This stack is going fairly great for me.
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Day 18 ~ rest
Just wanted to make note that I am following the schedule as stated in beginning of journal. I do full loops and haven’t been taking any days off from listening besides the normal every other day schedule.
Yesterday was my first crap recon time when I got home from participating in an oracle tarot card and book swap that turned into doing energy work on multiple people. “Energy share.” I refused to be worked on, but I participated in the healing of others.
I witnessed so much that bothered me with the way that these energy workers were speaking to the people on the table. The leader in me wanted to speak up and say lots. I sensed that it wasn’t the time or space for that though. It provided me with inspiration for future endeavours.
People project their limiting beliefs and own crap onto others. If the one receiving the healing isn’t careful, they may take that on as their own, which wasn’t theirs in the first place and wonder why they feel worse or not better off.
The final person got on the table and I felt that she had beautiful energy. The other healers started speaking of all sorts of junk. I noticed her going into a loop.
I’d love for people to become their own healers and be more conscious and mindful of other peoples projections. Keep your aura pure and clean. Protect yourself! Be your own advocate and reject anything other than love and truth. Your own truth!
Finding someone who is pure and of integrity seems to be few and far between.
I left the event feeling angry and frustrated. I told my daughter I was in a bad mood. She called me crazy. 
I ended up doing body work on myself in the evening and felt much better. I keep thinking how I may need to stop pelvic physio because I sense her crap too. I feel like it may be keeping me a bit stuck with my progress. I don’t want to say I am more advanced but honestly I find I am dumbing myself down to maybe people please in a sneaky way. The price went up and she didn’t inform me first. I wanted to say something about it but chose to let it go.
I took a look at my beliefs and assumptions last night. I took ownership for my experience. I am responsible for my life and my experiences.
Tomorrow is my first co led webinar. Feeling the inner critic trying to hijack but they won’t succeed this time!
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Day 20 ~ rest day
Can’t believe there’s only 1 more day left of this stack.
I’m feeling some “annoyance” today. I went to a cafe to meet someone. They were late. The owner told me they have herb and garlic cream cheese, but my order came with plain. I sent the bagel back and they said they only have plain. I asked why the owner said that they have 2 kinds of cream cheese, so they checked and said they have an herb and garlic spread. Um ok then. 
whatever!!!
The person who met up didn’t even stay long. I should have just went to the place I originally wanted to go to.
The conversation felt disconnected.
I am back home grounding myself.
1 more listening day and then wash out begins.
Attending my 1st cacao ceremony circle tonight.
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Thank you so much for this loving post, it resonated just right!
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DO YOU LIKE YOU?
That is an excellent question.
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Day 21 | full loops of Seductress & SB
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Someone thought I was like 20 the other day. This is the second time I’ve been told I look fairly young. I’m gonna be 37 on June 27.
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I will be 56 four days later
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Back in 2019 some woman at a park my Wife and I were at said we looked like someone’s sweet grandparents.
And how did that make you feel?
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I don’t feel like a grandpa
Couple days into my wash out. I feel like I’m in recon city right now. It’s not bad or anything. It just feels like a lot of processing.
My dream world was effed up.
My ex fiancé was getting killed in front of me.
I had baby triplets with my ex bf who appeared very gaunt like. I was focused mostly on one of the babies. Stuff kept happening to the babies. I was worried they would die. It seemed like a death and rebirth themed dream world. I tossed and turned a bit. At one point of my dream I think one of my guides spoke to me and assisted me with realigning my skeletal system. 
I woke up before my alarm. Enjoyed my coffee. Got the kids off to school.
Went to yoga class. Had a beautiful chat with the teacher just before class began. Shared my cacao experience with her.
I cried a bit while flowing on the mat. I was much more present. Less racing thoughts. Deeper breathing. More opening.
I’ve been chatting with someone off Facebook dating. He seems wonderful in so many ways. My inner critic has been coming out around this. My beliefs stem fairly deeply about romantic relationships and marriage. My parents split twice. My mom never really moved on from that. I’m allowing myself to let these limiting beliefs and stories go. Time to let ‘em die!!!
It’s easier to let shit go. I’m not bypassing the healing though.
I’ve been rearranging my whole house. Getting rid of stuff. Moved the girls into one bedroom and my son back in his old bedroom. Playroom set up in basement. Big space for my music stuff. More room for activities to take place!
Woohoo 
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“Forgiveness is, in fact, experiencing in imagination the revised version of the day, experiencing in imagination what you wish you had experienced in the flesh. Every time one really forgives - that is, every time one relives the event as it should have been lived - one is born again.”
Neville Goddard, Awakened Imagination
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