Day 16 ~ rest
I learned about 7 points to pump in the body for lymph drainage and flow. I’ve been doing it for a couple days now. I also started jumping on my mini trampoline again.
I ordered a Gua Sha massage tool specifically for my face neck and chest area.
I’m enjoying my new skincare and hair products.
This stack is going fairly great for me.
Day 18 ~ rest
Just wanted to make note that I am following the schedule as stated in beginning of journal. I do full loops and haven’t been taking any days off from listening besides the normal every other day schedule.
Yesterday was my first crap recon time when I got home from participating in an oracle tarot card and book swap that turned into doing energy work on multiple people. “Energy share.” I refused to be worked on, but I participated in the healing of others.
I witnessed so much that bothered me with the way that these energy workers were speaking to the people on the table. The leader in me wanted to speak up and say lots. I sensed that it wasn’t the time or space for that though. It provided me with inspiration for future endeavours.
People project their limiting beliefs and own crap onto others. If the one receiving the healing isn’t careful, they may take that on as their own, which wasn’t theirs in the first place and wonder why they feel worse or not better off.
The final person got on the table and I felt that she had beautiful energy. The other healers started speaking of all sorts of junk. I noticed her going into a loop.
I’d love for people to become their own healers and be more conscious and mindful of other peoples projections. Keep your aura pure and clean. Protect yourself! Be your own advocate and reject anything other than love and truth. Your own truth!
Finding someone who is pure and of integrity seems to be few and far between.
I left the event feeling angry and frustrated. I told my daughter I was in a bad mood. She called me crazy. 
I ended up doing body work on myself in the evening and felt much better. I keep thinking how I may need to stop pelvic physio because I sense her crap too. I feel like it may be keeping me a bit stuck with my progress. I don’t want to say I am more advanced but honestly I find I am dumbing myself down to maybe people please in a sneaky way. The price went up and she didn’t inform me first. I wanted to say something about it but chose to let it go.
I took a look at my beliefs and assumptions last night. I took ownership for my experience. I am responsible for my life and my experiences.
Tomorrow is my first co led webinar. Feeling the inner critic trying to hijack but they won’t succeed this time!
Day 20 ~ rest day
Can’t believe there’s only 1 more day left of this stack.
I’m feeling some “annoyance” today. I went to a cafe to meet someone. They were late. The owner told me they have herb and garlic cream cheese, but my order came with plain. I sent the bagel back and they said they only have plain. I asked why the owner said that they have 2 kinds of cream cheese, so they checked and said they have an herb and garlic spread. Um ok then. 
whatever!!!
The person who met up didn’t even stay long. I should have just went to the place I originally wanted to go to.
The conversation felt disconnected.
I am back home grounding myself.
1 more listening day and then wash out begins.
Attending my 1st cacao ceremony circle tonight.
Thank you so much for this loving post, it resonated just right!
DO YOU LIKE YOU?
That is an excellent question.
Day 21 | full loops of Seductress & SB
Someone thought I was like 20 the other day. This is the second time I’ve been told I look fairly young. I’m gonna be 37 on June 27.
I will be 56 four days later
Back in 2019 some woman at a park my Wife and I were at said we looked like someone’s sweet grandparents.
And how did that make you feel?
I don’t feel like a grandpa
Couple days into my wash out. I feel like I’m in recon city right now. It’s not bad or anything. It just feels like a lot of processing.
My dream world was effed up.
My ex fiancé was getting killed in front of me.
I had baby triplets with my ex bf who appeared very gaunt like. I was focused mostly on one of the babies. Stuff kept happening to the babies. I was worried they would die. It seemed like a death and rebirth themed dream world. I tossed and turned a bit. At one point of my dream I think one of my guides spoke to me and assisted me with realigning my skeletal system. 
I woke up before my alarm. Enjoyed my coffee. Got the kids off to school.
Went to yoga class. Had a beautiful chat with the teacher just before class began. Shared my cacao experience with her.
I cried a bit while flowing on the mat. I was much more present. Less racing thoughts. Deeper breathing. More opening.
I’ve been chatting with someone off Facebook dating. He seems wonderful in so many ways. My inner critic has been coming out around this. My beliefs stem fairly deeply about romantic relationships and marriage. My parents split twice. My mom never really moved on from that. I’m allowing myself to let these limiting beliefs and stories go. Time to let ‘em die!!!
It’s easier to let shit go. I’m not bypassing the healing though.
I’ve been rearranging my whole house. Getting rid of stuff. Moved the girls into one bedroom and my son back in his old bedroom. Playroom set up in basement. Big space for my music stuff. More room for activities to take place!
Woohoo 
“Forgiveness is, in fact, experiencing in imagination the revised version of the day, experiencing in imagination what you wish you had experienced in the flesh. Every time one really forgives - that is, every time one relives the event as it should have been lived - one is born again.”
Neville Goddard, Awakened Imagination
NEW STACK CYCLE HAS BEGUN AS FOLLOWS:
LOVE BOMB
EMPEROR: THE WILL TO POWER
SEDUCTRESSI am going to pair LB & TWTP together and alternate listening days with Seductress.
DAY 1 ~ LB + TWTP FULL LOOPS
I read the sales page for TWTP before downloading the upgrade. I listened to PCC previously while reading a law each day as suggested by @Trader … I am not sure if it counts as presults if I previously listened to the original title, but I found myself remembering when manipulation was being used on me or those I care about. I spoke boldly to a friend regarding a leader I used to follow in a large community, but left a year ago.
I sensed a bit of fear about attempting this title again, but after reviewing the updated sales page, I felt a sense of ease and confidence.
I am letting SB bloom. I listened to it 4 cycles with lots of progress. I find recon city commences when I am not being as productive as I would like on that title. I also became a bit obsessed with how may views I was getting or not.
I have ‘The Power of Love’ by Celine Dion playing on repeat right now. Shedding a few tears, imagining myself dancing and holding myself lovingly. I am picturing me singing to me. Giving me all the good feels. <3
Got my carpets cleaned yesterday by a family friend, which turned into a deeply profound chat about addiction and recovery.
I went to Art in The Park this weekend and really felt the love and connection with small business owners. I was observing how I began to feel while observing people walking around with beers in their hand. I remembered when that was my lifestyle and began to feel this acceptance and forgiveness for the “mistakes” I made from my addicted self state. I did the best I could and didn’t know any better, until I did. Once I became conscious of my addiction to suffering and self-destruction, I began to come undone and heal. Beautiful transformative journey.
EDIT: I just did what I had imagined. Dancing around while listening to Celine Dion, holding myself and loving myself. Letting the tears flow.
Day 2 ~ rest
I had a fairly active dream world. Seemed to be some sort of adventure and figuring things out.
I took my time getting up. Laid in bed enjoying my peace and quiet.
I started a 90 day somatic “healing” course yesterday. Was eying it out for a while. Looking forward to seeing any shifts at the end of this experience.
I pulled an oracle card from my Time Traveler’s Oracle Deck:
Day 3 ~ Seductress
Feeling a bit antsy so far with this stack. Grounding myself though.
Noticing where I’ve experienced a misuse of power and allowed others to do the same with me.
Anger/irritability has been trying to creep in making me wanna “react” while love bomb helps me be more gentle and respond more calmly. Lashing out from base emotions is weak in a sense.
I take full responsibility for the way things show up in my world. This sometimes pisses of a part of me that wants to blame others for the way I feel or how I express myself.
No one to change but Self.
Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
Day 4 ~ rest
Not even sure I dreamed at all and if I did I don’t remember anything!
Today is my youngest daughter’s end of year school picnic. I’ll be there with ex and his mama. Glad I have yoga class just prior to going.
I’ll get myself nice and centred for the event.
From my card reading this morning some things stood out:
I have wisdom to impart to others.
Richness comes from meditation.
Work cooperatively with others and try to see their point of view.
Compassion and kindness are keys to successfully manifest your dreams.
Forgiveness is healing and leads to new beginnings.
I’ve been highly productive with rearranging my house from top to bottom, while also getting rid of stuff.
Dat’s da powa of love! I didn’t notice until now that you’re from Canada!
