Gratitude requires joy.
If you lack the capacity for joy, then you do not have gratitude; you only have obligation.
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Transcendence Requires Energy
Energy makes the difference between the Absolute Law of Gravity and the Negotiable Request of Gravity
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Consciousness is, ironically, so elusive.
Ubiquity is often perceptually slippery.
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Planning to buy Aeon today.
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First day back to my stack. Took 5 rest days.
Listened during meditation. 15 minutes silence ~ 15 minutes of INTERFACE ~ 15 minutes silence ~ 15 minutes Al-Kara Khan
Now, we make some breakfast and see how the process unfolds.
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Played 15 seconds of AEON in early afternoon.
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Andā¦
a new analysis of Ari Asterās was manifested on my feed.
Thatās an indication for me that material is probably being stirred up in my mind.
I listened to a few minutes of it and then turned it off and moved onā¦
Will I play another 15 second loop (of AEON) tomorrow? We shall see.
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Dared to add another 15 seconds of AEON stage 1 today on top of my normal stack.
The last day or two were challenging enough that Iām being wary of my capacity to add in even very small amounts of a third program. I felt challenged, stressed, emotional at different times. But it was, in the end, manageable, and even gave me some insights about āreconā. That sometimes itās the fight against the so-called recon that gives rise to creative developments and movement. But only if itās not so overwhelming that you canāt see how to fight at all.
So 15 seconds again. And weāll see.
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Enjoying the wonderful work of Nathan Lowell
"She turned to face the north and raised her arms in supplication. āI call upon the Guardian of the North, Bones of the Earth, to give us the strength we need to face the challenge that lies before us.ā A quarter turn to her right raised her seamed face to the east. āI call upon the Guardian of the East, Breath of the Earth, to fill our lungs with breath to sing the praises of the All-Mother and the All-Father in this, our time of adversity.ā Another quarter turn to face south. āI call upon the Guardian of the South, Spirit of the Earth, to give us the will and the passion to see our trials through to the end.ā Another turn faced her to the west. āI call upon the Guardian of the West, Blood of the Earth, to give us the flexibility of water, to flow where we can and to nourish as we flow.ā She turned once more to face the north and close her circle. āI beg the blessings and protections of the Guardians on this place and the people gathered in it. I ask in the name of the All-Father and the All-Mother. So mote it be.ā
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All Iām ātrying to doā when I meditate is to face and accommodate a little bit more reality.
Similar to someone who is aiming to explore, experience, and remember a bit more of planet Earth.
And hereās the thing: I could spend decades visiting, experiencing (and even somewhat remembering) locations on planet Earth; and that would in no way guarantee that I would have visited where you are, or, even if I did visit, that I would perceive and understand about it what you have perceived and understood.
This is a journey that results in greater humility, the more you master it.
Thatās just how it works.
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The problem is not your so-called āweaknessesā.
It is your shame-driven desire to pretend that you donāt have these characteristics.
By ignoring them or suppressing and avoiding your awareness of them, you rob yourself of the opportunity to strategize them.
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Damn. Thatās some Sun Tzu level thinking.
I got the gist of it but feel like there is more to uncover in that statement down the line.
Maybe I am not there yet.
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Nice to have you in the club.
heh.
Most of what I say is aspirational.
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Played 1:03 of AEON Stage 1 today. On top of my stack.
I should mention that 2 days ago when I played 40 seconds (also on top of my stack), I experienced an intense unpleasant dream of journeying into what was basically a massive penal colony or even planet. It was a place of great brutality.
It didnāt āfeelā subliminals related. But Iāll still pay attention to what happens tonight and tomorrow. As the AEON loop gets longer, I will probably allocate it to its own day.
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Hello! Iāve been going through this exact same thing for about 4 months now.
Am just starting a run of Paragon Sleep.
Iād also been wondering whether to run it in a custom with Summertime.
Just wondering if youāve continued to use it (Iāve read all your Journal posts since this one and it doesnāt seem to be mentioned)?
And if so, have there been any significant changes to the dysfunctional sleep patterns you described?
And for a bonus question, if you have been running this, how have you been finding Summertime? 
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Ironically, few things come across quite so ape-like as a group of human beings visiting a zoo.
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I ran it a whopping sum total of 1 time.
I did not want to dilute my two main titles. And I decided to just ride out the sleeping issues.
Interestingly, I have in the past week just begun playing microloops of AEON. And a similar thing happened. I found myself sleeping through the entire night again. Several nights in a row this time.
Then the other night the interrupted sleep came back one more time, but this time, I kept falling back asleep, and I ended up getting the highest total hours of sleep that Iāve had in months.
On the life circumstantial side of things, I finally met all of the intense deadlines that had been building over the past 2.5 months. And things are now more manageable at work. So that is also a helpful factor.
Anyway, long story short: my Summertime-Paragon Sleep program is sitting there waiting for me. (Iām usually working on some kind of mission, at any given time, and itās hard to find space for additional subliminals. But I kind of like it this way, soā¦)
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Many things that seem to be about Information and Clarity of Knowledge are actually about Attitude and Stability of Mental Set/Vision.
Or maybe it is more accurate to say that these two poles support and complete each other.
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Yesterday, I meditated with INTERFACE and Al-Kara Khan.
I experienced a shift/opening. Some specific things seemed a bit clearer, or to quote the previous post, they seemed stabler.
I wrote the following, whether itās bravado or not remains to be seen:
June 3, 2026 9:37 AM
For the rest of my career, I want to become an expert and master in:
Hypnosis
Trance Facilitation / Trancework
Phenomenological Imaginal Facilitation and Exploration (PhIFE)
Imaginal Technologies (IT professional)
Iām not a huge fan of the dramatic pronouncement. So pretty much 10 times out of 10 when I write something like the above, I donāt post it here. If itās true, itās true, I usually figure. Why the need for an announcement?
But this time I want to write it as a record of what happened in my mind at a particular point.
As to how I interpret, realize, enact, or make sense of it going forward, reality will tell.
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3:07 of AEON stage 1 today.
Nothing else.
Has its own day now.
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