I have been contemplating and exploring time in a new way over the past year or so. In the past few months, my thoughts have been developing and coming together further.
Now as I’m entering into work with AEON stage 1, these thoughts are feeling quite salient to AEON.
I may start to include some of these thoughts here in this journal. The following entries are from this morning’s offline journaling:
8:30 AM Saturday 6 JUne 2026
My body is feeling significantly stronger and more solid and capable than it did when I first returned to the gym on 20 February 2026. It took three months of moderate, properly calibrated work to get to this point. And I’m only just getting started.
Working smart has been many times better than simply working hard. Patience, moderation, temperance. These have been the most important aspects of this new journey.
I have passed a certain threshold and can now begin to see (and feel) the adaptation of my body. But this is still somewhat tenuous in the sense that the principles that are supporting my development are not unassailably integrated into my lifestyle and overall approach.
In fact, if I could develop the strongest configuration of my approach , it would be just about 100% data-driven, principles-driven and not emotion-driven, determination-driven. Not quite 100% but close to it.
One of the biggest factors here is the limitation of my subjective time frame and time perception.
My human imagination does not perceive ‘change x time’ accurately. That is why we get frustrated, discouraged, depressed, impatient, and hopeless. We cannot accurately conceptualize change and the potential of change.
Given our perceptual and intellectual limitations, patient accurate moderation and modulation (of effort and action) often depends on blind-faith and personal temperament rather than accurate understanding (which is, I believe, its more appropriate foundation).
It’s not that slow is necessarily better (though it often is); it’s that RIGHT is better. And the capacity and ability to determine RIGHT is often limited and compromised.
Given 10 years and ACCURATE change/time perception/planning, there are few goals that would be unreachable.
And we generally do have 10 years.
So it’s pretty clear where the deficit lies.
8:43 AM Saturday 6 June 2026
Accurate, effective perception of change-potential also frequently gets thrown off by social comparison. Which often loses control of emphasizing SHOULD over emphasizing IS. (i.e,. the balance gets skewed too far in the direction of emphasizing SHOULD.)
It frustrates me that I all too often don’t see accurately and don’t imagine accurately. The limitations of my species frustrate me.
I want to improve this aspect of myself.
It is rooted, for me, in Consciousness; and in the cultivation of Consciousness.
This line of development is so much farther-reaching than any of the typical superficial goals on which we usually lock (usually as a result of barely acknowledged evolutionary and historical momentum and pressures).
Consciousness subsumes and transcends all of them; and yet feels more elusive than fairy tales and wisps of fancy; particularly at the beginning.
I will pray for and work for greater discernment.
