The MALKUTH Catharsis (Malkuth Journal)

Back to 3 minutes each program today.

Have, for the last few weeks, been experiencing bi-modal or abbreviated sleep patterns. Resulted in sleep-debt. I believe that this recent sleep pattern actually preceded my engagement with my current subliminal stack. Either way though the two patterns are definitely interacting.

Last night I worked with it somewhat more deliberately, and this time things opened up a bit. I had a bimodal waking again. Think it was about 12:30 to 5:30 am or some such. Then I was able to get back to sleep about 45 minutes later and to get about 3+ more hours.

That’s an improvement over the previous days. I’ll keep attending to and working with it over the next days.

The other day I was thinking, ā€˜Discouragement is an unrecognized invitation’. It’s harder to recognize due to the low energy state, but discouragement is actually the act of noticing an area or reality that you want to work with.

Okay. so here we are for now.

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3 minutes seems to be okay.

Went to see a movie with my daughter last night, and, thirsty, forgot that I react strongly to even coke, as a caffeinated beverage. Ended up staying awake until 4:30 AM or so. whoops.

Try again tonight.

But with all of that I’m blessed and grateful. I’m being given some really good energy.

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Moved up to 7 minutes per track tonight. Will see how tomorrow goes.

Tonight, son asked if he could eat whatever I was making/eating for dinner. Usually tonight, he’d have eaten something outside.

So, I tried to double the portions.

The experiment was somewhat successful. But I’ve learned that the right water amount does not increase linearly with the brown rice amount. At least not the way I like it.

And because I was cooking for both of us, I forewent my gym session tonight. If I’d worked out tonight, I would have gotten back and finished everything an hour later. If I’m fortunate, I’ll get it in tomorrow morning.

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Yeah, so tonight’s times:

7:47 - INTERFACE custom

7:03 - Al-Kara Khan

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Planning to try 12 minutes today.

Playing it by ear (pun intended).

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Observe Activation of Perceptual Gestalts

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Felt very tired yesterday and realized today is another day with 5 or 6 back to back meetings. So, decided to hold off on subs until work is done today and then see how I feel.

Planning a gym session after work today.

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You don’t ā€˜have a body’; you convey a lineage.

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12 minutes each tonight. And now it’s time to sleep.

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12 minutes has been the first level where I’ve felt a definite push and movement occurring internally.

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Execution Override.

Clearing karma.

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One of the secrets of The Gods is that each one has the power to hurt you,

and probably will.

and the opposite is true as well

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I’m considering creating a hybrid name-embedded of Summertime and Paragon Sleep and introducing it as the third title in my stack.

The sleep material hits very close to home right now. I’ve shared above that I’m experiencing ā€˜learning’ around sleep over the past 5 weeks or so. And part of my journey of being an HSP, has involved life-long ā€˜issues’ around sleep and falling asleep.

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Lately, I’ve been contemplating emotions and perceptions as heuristics rather than direct information as we often frame them.

One big example:

Feeling Confused. This is a subjective state. Somatically and emotionally driven.

The average person equates the ā€˜Feeling of Confusion’ with the state of ā€˜Being Confused’. Reasonable enough (if you have little experience with life or consciousness).

So, we are motivated to remove our ā€˜feeling of being confused’, and once that feeling is gone we treat the situation as ā€˜Resolved’.

Except the thing is that the Feeling of Confusion corresponds only loosely to the actual state of being confused.

A bit like the ā€˜Feeling of Being Sick’. It corresponds only loosely to actual Illness. (And in fact it corresponds much more closely to the body’s (heroic and incomplete) responses to illness.)

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Just like you can visit and explore locations on planet Earth, you can also tour states of Mind.

And I believe that when you start doing so, it will change everything about how you experience the World.

PHENOMENAUT

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When you become the Nomad of your mind, you no mad. You sane lol.

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Each person in the world represents profound potential—largely untapped and unrecognized—that you and they barely understand.

Each and every single one.

LEARN. TO. PERCEIVE.

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I just typed out a bunch of thoughts/insights that I was processing. Was chatting to a friend and typed them out. I think she’s probably not that interested:

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5:13 PM Wednesday 15 April 2026

I noticed an interesting insight:

Many things that we think of as wealth first show up in the form of problems.

In fact, I would even say that wealth is essentially a set of problems. And wealthiness is basically the capacity to deal with those problems without too much damage.

So it seems that rather than just wishing for wealth, people should want the capacity to accommodate wealth.

For example, to make it clearer, back in the days, one version of wealth might have been 1000 cows.

That image makes it much more obvious.

1000 cows are a pain in the ass. But if you can handle them, now you’ve got an operation.

I think most of it is kind of like that.

People often say that money comes with problems, but I suspect that it kind of IS the problems; and the better a person is at handling them, the easier wealth seems to be.

I think it’s the same with relationships.

Pre-mating age teenagers are often running around talking about their ideal mates and such.

Biology and instinct wire us to put a lot of importance on that stuff particularly at those ages.

Lots and lots of people are miserable because they think that’s what they want.

But I think that for many people, getting that ā€˜wish answered’ brings problems that they’re not ready to handle. But for the people who can handle the problems, relationships seem ā€˜pretty nice’.

So for a young man or woman who ā€˜feels lonely’ and wishes they could ā€˜find a partner’, I feel like the smart thing to do would be to wish to get really good at dealing with the problems that relationships involve.

Instead of a six-pack or even a six-figure job, or physical beauty or what not (all of which are awesome), I think it would be to get good at relationship problems.

Otherwise, you’ll pull em, but you’ll end up hating ’em.

Anyway, those are my thoughts right now about sex and money.

The most practical and basic wealth question might be this:

With what problems am I optimally constituted and situated to deal?

and then

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5:17 PM Wednesday 15 April 2026
Exactly.

A roaring river is a problem when you have no boat, can’t swim, and are drowning in the middle of it.

But if you can swim, are skilled in boatcraft, and are standing on the banks next to the high-quality waterwheels that you’ve engineered and built into the river, it represents abundant wealth.

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5:19 PM Wednesday April 15 2026
I’d say [that WEALTH is] an emergent characteristic of the RELATIONALITY between you and the river.

And I think it’s not just about the preparatory work (though of course that’s ideal). It’s about the capacity, propensity, and ability to recognize and do that preparatory work.
I need to work these points out for myself.

I haven’t provided much context for those latter two thoughts, but anyway. Those were what arose.

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It occurred to me after expressing those thoughts, that they are my mind working on processing my core program, INTERFACE:

Ecstasy of Gold Stage II
RICH
Visionary
Living Truth
One Purpose
Execution Override
The Revelation of Product Creation
Product Lab
ESSENCE: The Alchemy of Money
Debt Annihilator
ESSENCE: The Wonder and the Mystery
ESSENCE: The Inner Spa
Experimental Adaptive Scripting
Experimental Anti-Recon

On 21 and 23 March, I played 15 and 30 second microloops of RICH.

Then by 26 March, my custom (INTERFACE) arrived and I started with progressive microloops of that.

Sunday 12 April and yesterday 14 April were my first full loops with INTERFACE. And it seems that we’re still in early days, but are actively processing. So, I’ll take that as tentative encouragement.

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