Day 22:
Couple of things of positive changes observed today. I got into an argument with a coworker. Now usually I would’ve taken it really personally and run through the argument over and over my head, just staying in anger. Today I was completely unfazed. Nothing the other guy said about me even bothered me. I just shrugged it off and moved on. No stress, no anxiety about the entire situation. Now I’m thinking about how useful this improvement would be in picking up girls. Definitely have to test it out, but I feel like ST1 would be really helpful in dealing with rejection anxiety.
Secondly I seem to be more easily moving my life in the direction I want it go. This one’s kind of tricky to describe, but you see some people who act in very self-destructive ways while others always seem to make the right choices to get what they want. With ST1 I find that my unconscious programming has gotten a upgrade. I feel like my inner voice has developed more ways of helping me to take actions that improve myself.
Of course, the dealing with negative thoughts that comes with ST1 is still there. I’m kind of getting used to it at this point. My mind has always had these self-sabotaging thoughts when things are going really well. It becomes crazy OCD and obsesses whenever anything slightly bad that it’ll ruin everything. Running ST1 has brought these thoughts to the forefront of my mind and I;m slowly processing them. Already they bother me a lot less than they used to. I imagine this is a pretty unique neurosis, but I know all you other Khan users out there are probably dealing with your own specific trauma too.