The Foundation (CFW + LE)

[Solomon]

Hey Y’all,

Here’s my new Journal after my “failed” journey with my custom. I concluded that I haven’t built enough foundation to understand what I need or want when it comes to archetypes. That’s why I decided to go back to CFW in combination with Limitless Executive. Will run this combination for 66 days.

My Intentions:

• To create and obtain spiritual discipline. To practice, my yoga and meditation practice with intention.
• Wake up the same and go to bed at the same time midweek. Have 1 solid morning and evening practice.
• I use 90min of my day to focus on the one thing that I truly want to create. Don’t know what it is yet, so I use this time for solitude and research to find it.
• Be more grateful for my work. It’s a source of income while I’m searching and creating my own path. I am responsible for my own destiny. People need me to be at my best to give lessons with value.

My Goals:

• Do the 1 potential/blessing of the energy/changing beliefs meditation a day for 66 days.
• Practise my 90min evening midweeks routine for 66 days straight.
• Practise my morning midweeks routine for 66 days straight.
• for 9 weeks straight, I practice 30 min of yoga for 3 times a week.
• When I complain at work, I become aware of it and change my state to a positive emotion.
• Every Monday morning, I plan my week ahead until Friday with week goals
• Midweek I write 5 mini goals that I want to achieve that day for 66 days.

[Solomon]

I am feeling much more grounded with this stack. Weird thing is that out of nowhere I like my teaching job very much. I’m motivated and focused and feel responsible for my students. That voice of “I need to have my business built right now and escape the matrix” voice disappeared. Stark was a terrible fit for me, I don’t believe in the “You decide how a sub will play out” anymore. These archetypes guide you to things you don’t want, only the ones that fit you well. For me, that’s Chosen.

When you cannot execute on what the sub tells you to do, insane recon happens. Wise lesson learned

[Solomon]

A small summary of the last 3 days

• I meditated every day for 30-45min, last time I had this streak was before moving to Utrecht
• Waking up around 5:00 - 5:30 am and going to bed between 9:00 and 9:30 pm. \
• Did 1 online yoga class for 25min. It was extremely painful, but proud I finished it.
• Stopped complaining and started doing more. This morning I woke up extremely tired, but instead of getting angry about it, I understood it was the exhaustion that’s been building up these last couple of days.

One last thing, I’ve been having these random thoughts about Battlefield Heroes, a game that I played when I was a teenager. This has something to do with CFW. Something about the old self that wants to go back to the “better” times.

[Solomon]

This leaky gut is killing me, but I’m doing my best to keep my vibes high!
Also, sitting at a desk for 8 hours a day, maaaaan… LET ME TEACH FFS

Still grateful tho, not complaining.

[Solomon]

Did one loop of CFW and Paragon this morning. It’s weird how fast CFW is working for me, I instantly want to be alone and meditate. Just focussing on myself and healing everything that needs to be healed.

This morning an insight occurred. I was walking down the streets at 5 am and was looking for fresh air. Because I’m living in the center, there ain’t none. You can literally smell the city. Instead of starting to complain I was thinking “How can I make sure that at least in my house the air is clean?” Then I remember the snake plants and how great they are for filtering the air. The other solution was finding a park to do my morning walks, at least there are some trees that give better air.

Instead of being pissed about the problem, I was looking for solutions. I felt more responsibility for my own actions. Nobody forced me to start living here, I did. I did not listen well to my own gut feeling to move back to the city. Because “I needed to make a career”, well I learned the hard way what happens when you don’t listen to that inner voice.

Create insights!

[Solomon]

CFW is amazing…

I’m sitting here with tears in my eyes. Many things are coming up at the moment.

• My abandonment issues. I’m so afraid to let people in, but I want to have people around me. It’s a very painful push and pulls. I would love to find a way to heal this
• Not being able to control my money stream. It seems that I just have to throw away my money. That I’m not worthy of it, I don’t know what it is.
• Just said about my unconscious behaviors, I would love to be in control of my life, not the other way around.

These programs are exactly what I need right now

[Solomon]

Did 2 times yoga Nidra. Instant high vibration. I was thinking about manifesting 10k, going on a holiday, and falling in love with my apartment. It is funny how fast things switch in our brains when we are grateful and in a high-vibe state. But it seems I have to work every day to keep my state high, especially at work.

Another thing came up while riding my bike today. I was around 8 years old and my dad was driving really fast while being tipsy. I hold on to the back seat and was really scared.

[Solomon]

Be careful with the words that u use, it will manifest without your intention.

A couple of weeks/months ago I repeatedly said “I wish I was more motivated by money, it just doesn’t interest me”. Purely because I want more freedom in my life, but I don’t feel the need to have a big house or sportscar. This is because I have A LOT of hidden money beliefs. I see that because I spent all my money, I’m always in dept and just can’t save or handle it responsibly.

Well… The Universe did answer that question:joy: Right now I’m doing my 40-hour job that makes me long for freedom. Before this job, I never had that because I was working for myself and working 20-24 hours for a boss. Now I realize that I want to have unlimited health benefits, hire a business coach, travel the world, and decide my own hours. What do you need for all of that? Yeah, money. Here lies the problem. In my head, you have to work to get money. While I believe you can manifest money from all sorts of places. Funny how the Universe is like “Oh you want to be motivated by money? Sure I’ll put you in situations where you are desperately in need of money.” I have to be more careful with the words I speak.

Another thing that’s coming up is how difficult it is for me to work for a boss. I don’t know where this is coming from, but it’s hindering my spiritual progress. Because It makes me frustrated and angry at something I should be grateful for. I’m doing my best to overcome the old self and fall in love with the new self.

After some reflection, I heard these 2 beliefs:

"I do not want to work for a boss. I do not want to be told what to do, I want to express my own thoughts and ideas and decide my own hours"

On this belief, I build my coaching business 2 years ago. But here lies the conflicting belief

"I don’t want to do it all by myself. I want to create and build something beautiful together"

I do not like working alone or online. I love standing in front of groups like I’m doing right now. Working online doesn’t give me the energy of creating something together, I am a team player, and I love to create. It’s difficult to describe, but when I’m around people that inspire me and talk about things that interest me like spirituality, energy healing, and food. That makes me feel like my whole body lights up and I feel so much inspiration and clarity.

I thought I would find this in an organization while working with colleges, but what I am teaching doesn’t interest me. Nor do my colleagues that are just stuck in the matrix.

To build this I need money, but I have the belief that you need to work to obtain money. It doesn’t fall in your lap out of nowhere (I know many people manifested thousands of dollars without doing anything, but I just can’t get my mind over it).

I’m trying to figure out this puzzle, but it is difficult

[Solomon]

Something amazing happened today!

In my new apartment, it’s not possible to put a full bed into the room I’m sleeping. I decided to just put a mattress there and sleep on the “floor”. Bad mistake, terrible for my lower back. Unfortunately, I did not have the money to buy a bed frame. It’s a reoccurring thing that for some reason there always has to be something bad about my bedroom. Or my mattress sucks, or there is too much light, you name it, and it has happened. I knew the only solution was to buy a slatted base, but I don’t have the money to buy a good one. That’s at least 300-400 euro’s

This morning I woke up at 4am frustrated about my situation. Like, can you give me a break? Why can’t I have a nice night of sleep with a good, firm mattress with a bed? Then it hit me. Maybe the reason there is always something wrong with my bedroom because subconsciously I don’t deserve to have a good night of sleep? Or maybe my frustration about my sleeping manifest a bad sleep environment?

Instead of complaining, I tried to overcome myself with meditation. It was really, really hard to become positive. My mind was saying things like
“Screw this meditation, I am tired”
“Why me? Why can’t I sleep properly?”
“Why is there always something wrong with my bedroom?”

But I kept trying and focussing on how it would feel to have a wonderful night of sleep. After my meditation, I got these thoughts, “Maybe there is something to find for cheap online?”

Literary my first search, I found a high quality slatted base that’s normally around 350 euro for 80 euro. The only problem was, I don’t have transport to get the base and transport it to me home. So I said

“Hey, I don’t know you, but I would love to buy those slatted base from you. There is only one problem, I don’t have any transport. Would there be any change you can transport it to me?”

After saying that, I went back into meditation. I visualized him texting back “Yeah, no problem, I can do it today” over and over again. I was putting on the feeling of how happy I would be with this slatted base.

Guess what?

He texted back, I’ll bring it by today if you pay the gas price.

Just paid 100 euros for something that cost 300 easily with transport costs. That was awesome!

[Solomon]

It will never end

It doesn’t matter how much we all try, the struggle of life will never end. We always long for more, to achieve and get more.

I am living in the best apartment that I ever lived in. I have a view of the city skyline in the middle of the center. I have a solid income that I didn’t have before. I have an amazing girlfriend I always wanted. But I always want to make more money and do something better. To achieve more and getting close to my purpose.

that will never end

And I’m slowly starting to realize and accept that’s life. It will never be finished and that’s beautiful

[Solomon]

Oef been a while. Been working and journalling like crazy.

Quick recap:

• I want everything right now. Not tomorrow, not the day after tomorrow, no, right now. Instant gratification is strong in this one
• Living in the city is a no no… Will move back to nature
• My Financials are shit. Need to lvl up a bit

[Solomon]

This has to be my favorite combination of all the subs that I have tried. The go so well together

LE and CFW together:

• Action and confidence, but in a nice calm way.
• Rasing more good habits and slowing down on the bad habits at the same time.
• Getting so many insights, but acting on those insights.

One of the biggest blessings I had this week, is one big revelation with my mental coach. We came to the conclusion that all my vices, negative thoughts, and behaviors are coming from one source. I have to forgive my parents for leaving and dying. That’s why I get so angry about life, it feels unfair. But that’s such a big burden to carry. He gave me one assignment that’s working like a charm

Every time when I want to escape, I get angry at the world or use vices. I say to myself in the mirror “Jim, your mother is dead”. Like the scene in Good will hunting where Robin keeps repeating “It’s not your fault” to Matt Damon. When I do that, it breaks me.

Tearing up is a huge accomplishment for me because I have not cried since I was 13-14 because I needed to be a big boy. Yesterday I teared up for the longest part since my childhood. CFW is helping so much with letting this trauma come out and for that I am grateful. My heart is starting to feel lighter and my throat is clearing up. It’s like I finally can let this energy go out of me and forgive myself, my past, and my parents.

I’m not there yet but made huge steps in such a short time.

God I love this combination

[Solomon]

There are many things that I have learned about myself while working as a teacher. What you think you want, is not actually what you need. Let me explain.

In life, there are 2 types of growth. One is by pain, the other by discipline/exploring. Last year 2 years it was growing in pain for me. Because I needed that suffering to come to the answers that I did not see before. I believe life should be a blissful and peaceful experience. But sometimes there needs to be pain and suffering involved to achieve that state.

I thought that working in an organization with a steady income would make me happy. Because one thing that I did not like about entrepreneurship, was doing everything alone. Especially in the beginning, it’s a lonely road to success with loads of risks and fears. At that time, I was not ready/healed enough to truly build what I need to build. I was making 2000-3000 dollars a month at that time without trying hard.

What I learned from this job:

• People really influence my behaviors and thought processes. When I’m with my Muslim friends, I feel grounded, masculine, and focused. When I’m at work with only women and they fully emerged in the matrix, I change my personality as well. this is a blessing and a curse. I’m extremely adaptable, but sometimes lose myself of who I am and want to become. Therefore it’s very important that I choose my community wisely. CFW is helping me with that
• I will never be happy working for somebody else. I had the best boss you could possibly imagine 1 year ago and even that irritates me. I have my own visions/ideas and want to work them out without asking permission. It’s also because freedom is a major value to me.
• I love teaching, I love working with groups. That’s where I thrive the most as a person. But I like to teach about subjects that truly interest me and I have tons of experience in like spirituality, masculinity/femininty, personal development, and mental abilities.
• I love working in person instead of working online. But I slowly start to understand that working online creates a platform where you can work in person. First, you have to build your brand before you get invited to businesses/organizations/schools, etc. I also would rather teach in English than in Dutch because this language is more in-depth than others.
• I am a team player, I love to work with people and build projects together. That’s the reason I was going back into the 9 to 5 life. To have colleges. Now I understand that’s better to build something on your own and then attract people that believe in the same vision that I have.

If I find a way to go through the “Lonely” beginning of being an entrepreneur, learn to build my brand online, and just go through the motions. That will create a life that I truly desire and want.

I want to teach about the things that make me feel alive, I want to create with people that inspire me, I want to work for myself and answer to no one, I want to work with people in real life but understand the basis is built with your online portfolio.

[Solomon]

Had a wonderful conversation about my future with my parents yesterday. They gave me some great insights when I was talking about my vision above. first of all:

• My dad said, “When a person is in front of you, you can really see and feel them. That’s what the world needs right now. That’s where you’re good at”.
• We came to the conclusion that I would love to be hired and give workshops. With that, I’ll keep my freedom and be able to teach in person in front of groups.
• Working with the youth is my strength, and always has been. Should focus on that. I’m looking for becoming a youth worker again and build my network from there.
• Don’t forget to heal while working on my dreams

[Solomon]

“Life has created me, but now I get to create my life”

Powerful quote to remember when you’re on the healing journey.

[Solomon]

Just did a 24 hour fast to heal my gut more. I feel so amazing when I’m fasting.
I think I could even push it towards 36 hour, but I’ll do that somewhere else next week.

Feeling better and better!

[Solomon]

Feeling grief almost every morning. It feels like a blessing. I feel my mother coming closer and closer, getting back into my heart. Accepting that she’s gone in the physical world, but remains in my heart.

Feeling extremely tired, just want to sleep all day long. Sleeping extremely deeply and waking up between 4 and 6 still tired. What makes sense if I look at the Chinese organ clock:

3-5: Lungs → Has to do with undealt sadness/grief.
5-7: Gut → dealing with leaky gut and healing it. While also this stands for letting go of that what you don’t need anymore.

But I don’t feel angry anymore when I wake up tired or feel tired. It’s part of the process and its okay to feel this way. I will give myself all the time in the world to heal myself. I deserve that.

[Solomon]

Something really powerful happened yesterday.

I was trying to get a loan from the bank to pay off my student debt. This is because my student dept is in Dollars instead of euros. As we all know, the euro is crashing heavily because of gas prices. Right now I’m paying way more then I did before and I do not want to take the risk of rising.

But honestly, that’s a lie. What I don’t want is to focus on my money until April (that’s when my student debt will be paid off). That means not doing fun stuff that much, can’t go out drinking with friends, and have to manage my money mindfully. All things that my old personality doesn’t like. It needs to be fixed right now. Don’t matter what the consequences are.

Since I’ve been grieving this week, slowly but surely my gut feeling was saying “I don’t want to loan money, I want to make it myself”. This involves working with my inner child and becoming my adult self. It was such a decisive moment for me when I started to realize that I am responsible for my life and my future, it’s all in my hands.

I told the bank I don’t need the loan anymore. I will manage my money properly and focus on the future. Will still focus on the healing first, but the idea’s to expand my life is are starting to come.

[Solomon]

Resistance is a weird thing isn’t it?

Yesterday I was teaching and one of my students was talking about passive income. What do you want to create? What are your ideas? I said. He became a bit uncomfortable and said with a smile “Let’s move on with the class”. I told him that this feeling that he has right now, that’s resistance.

We always think about resistance as something that prevents us from doing the things we want to do. This is true, but it comes in many ways, even positive ways. Like giving us so many different ideas that we want to pursue, that we never even start one. Or we are starting to build an idea up, right before it becomes something. At that moment we quit because “We found something better”. And there is your monkey brain, always looking at the horizon for something better.

My students are mostly Muslim, for around 80% of my class is Muslim, Because I was born and raised in Amsterdam, I know the culture well and have been around this culture for many years. That’s why they share so much about their religion with me and I have to say, it starts to interest me.

One quote I like to share that they shared with me is:

Book 29, Number 5618:

Abu Qatada reported Allah’s Messenger (may peace be upon him) as saying: The good vision are from Allah and the evil dreams are from the satan. If one sees a dream which one does not like, one should spit on one’s left side and seek the refuge of Allah from the satan; it will not do one any harm, and one should not disclose it to anyone and if one sees a good vision one should feel pleased but should not disclose it to anyone but whom one loves.

[Solomon]

Today was my first 30 sec loop and I have to say. I really enjoy them. I think it’s still smart to have 1 or 2 rest days in the week, just to give your mind a break. But wow… it feels like a very small caffeïne boost.

Right now I’m in my second cycle of LE and CFW. golden combination for inner growth and using that to build my life around that grow. This is the first time I feel that my Ying and Yang are balanced. I’m getting more and more ideas for my business, my visions are more clear and I am feeling like I’m becoming my most authentic self.

Really grateful for my life right now.