Day 18 ~ Rest Day
This week, I’ve listened to G:HJ twice, and its objectives are deeply resonating with me today. I began my morning intentionally, starting with conscious deep breathing in bed, creating space to tune in to myself and my energy.
Dream Reflection
I woke from a strange dream where I was at a place where a man tried to hit on me and gave me his number. I consciously (lucidly?) felt bad because I’m talking to someone in my waking life. I left the place in a Jeep full of people but jumped out while it was still in drive. The Jeep crashed, killing two people, and I woke up.
The dream lingered in my mind, stirring curiosity about what my subconscious might be processing. Jumping from the Jeep, the destruction that followed—what was I running from, and at what cost? I trust these symbols will continue to unfold meaningfully as I reflect further.
Morning Ritual
Despite the dream, I began my day grounded in my ritual. I lit a candle, sipped mushroom coffee, and let music set the tone for my morning. I pulled oracle and tarot cards, staying present and noticing moments where I wanted to check my phone. I consciously chose not to, instead valuing the beauty of being fully immersed in this sacred practice.
Staying present allowed me to deepen my connection with myself. The cards reflected my energy perfectly and reminded me how grateful I am for my spiritual gifts. They’ve become a guiding force in my journey, bringing clarity and alignment when I need it most.
Reflection on Childhood Beliefs
While journaling, I uncovered a childhood “memory” that has shaped much of my life. I used to believe I wasn’t seen or heard by my dad, that my artistic passions didn’t matter to him. This belief led me to seek attention in ways that weren’t healthy, such as acting out or being reckless, believing it was the only way to be noticed.
But today, I realised much of this wasn’t truly my belief. It was something I likely absorbed from my mum, who may have learned the same from her own father. As I reflected more deeply, I recalled moments where my dad did see and hear me—times filled with joy, laughter, and connection. These moments are proof that the story I carried wasn’t the full truth.
Revising these memories felt natural, like a part of me was ready to heal. Staying present during my ritual allowed me to reframe this narrative with gratitude instead of pain.
Insights
Not everything is as it seemed. Many beliefs I carried were survival mechanisms that no longer serve me.
My people-pleasing and fawning tendencies, while also being extremely empathetic, were adaptations to navigate relationships and avoid conflict. I can now choose healthier ways to connect and express myself.
By resisting distractions and remaining present, I created space for profound clarity and healing.
Emotional Release
As I reflected, emotions began to rise, and I welcomed them with an open heart. Crying has felt cathartic, like I’m releasing the weight of self-limiting beliefs and creating room for joy and transformation. I’ve grown to trust these moments of emotional release as sacred acts of letting go.
Lessons from G:HJ
Release emotional burdens to invite joy and lightness into your life.
Create intentional routines, like my morning ritual, as anchors for happiness and balance.
Learn to see the “dots” of life, small, profound moments of joy, and weave them into a greater story of gratitude and fulfilment.
Final Reflection
Today reminded me of the power of presence. By choosing to stay engaged in the moment rather than escaping into distractions, I honoured my growth and allowed healing to unfold naturally. As I continue to embrace my spiritual gifts and trust my journey, I feel a deep sense of gratitude for how far I’ve come.
