What if you reframed it?
Then I’d be deluding myself. Sometimes power comes from accepting what is.
Day 9 ~ DD & SB full loops
Now being in my 2nd cycle of my current stack, I am noticing some things standing out for me and really coming to life:
With DD:
Increased Social Ease: A greater ability to interact comfortably with people, including strangers or in intimidating social settings. I can be both introverted and extroverted depending.
When I did the Myers-Briggs personality test, I got INFJ and have also gotten ENFJ before too. I’d say I’m more an ambivert and these titles have really helped me reduce my introverted ways.
Charismatic Presence: People are seeing me as more likeable, approachable, and charismatic.
Improved Communication: Better conversational skills, with natural wit and charm coming to the surface.
Fearlessness in Social Settings: Reduced social anxiety, allowing me to take risks in conversations and relationships.
With SB:
Enhanced Awareness: A more realistic understanding of people, situations, and my own goals, with reduced emotional bias.
Inner Discipline: Increased ability to stay grounded and stick to my plans and goals.
Sharpened Intuition: A clearer sense of reading between the lines and understanding underlying motives.
Laser-Focused Logic: A stronger ability to make decisions quickly and efficiently based on facts rather than emotion.
SB has helped me discern what strategies and content resonate most with my audience, which helps optimize my time and energy, and stay grounded in my purpose. I’ll notice a troll saying things to me and I turn it into content. I’ll have someone challenging one of my posts and I turn it into content.
With Seductress:
Enhanced Feminine Energy: I feel more connected to my natural allure and the power of my femininity.
Increased Attraction: People consistently notice me more, and I have experienced stronger, more positive reactions in social and romantic settings.
Confidence Boost: A deeper belief in my own beauty, charm, and value.
Playfulness and Flirtation: A natural ability to flirt or attract attention without trying too hard.
I’ve been able to much more easily consciously guide the scripting of Seductress since it has been one of my first and main core titles since the beginning of my journey here in 2022.
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Day 10 ~ rest day
I let myself sink into the luxurious reality of my desire, every inch of my being alive and humming with fulfillment. There’s no hesitation, no worry, no nagging thoughts of what if, just the certainty that I am exactly where I am meant to be.
The nights are ours, uninterrupted and endless, a rhythm only we create. He moves with purpose, filling me completely, knowing there are no limits to our passion, no interruptions, no consequences to hold us back. He’s all mine, every inch, every pulse, every thrust designed to bring me to the edge and beyond. There’s no need to hold back; the future doesn’t intrude and the past is irrelevant. There’s only the now and it stretches forever in the perfect union we’ve created.
The frustration that once knotted my body in restless, aching need is gone. My divine counterpart sees to that. Every touch, every kiss, every stroke erases the tension, melting me into pure bliss. With him, there’s nothing to fear or stop us, no hesitation, only the freedom to feel him fully, deeply, endlessly. He knows what I need before I even ask and he gives freely, passionately, as though my pleasure is his greatest joy.
With him, I am free, open, full, complete. There’s no holding back, no boundaries left unbroken, only the deepest satisfaction as I live every moment from the end of the wish fulfilled, knowing I am desired, adored, and utterly whole.
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Day 11 - Seductress full loop
I am feeling so many results in a short period of time that it’s overwhelming to even express through words here! 
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Day 12 ~ rest day
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Day 18 (Rest Day)
Who else cries over a song they had on their MySpace page back in the day? Apparently, me! What a wave of nostalgia. 
It feels like I’m experiencing some bloom effects from subliminals I’ve used previously, especially after doing a solo week of Phoenix. That definitely seemed to prep me emotionally for this cycle.
On November 9th, I decided to write an ideal partner script with the mindset of finding someone who’d make dating apps irrelevant. Just two days later, I matched with someone who’s been an incredible surprise. We’ve been talking non-stop ever since, despite living 4 hours apart. Our connection feels intense and natural, and he checks off so many points from my ideal partner list—even down to small details. Wow! 
We’ve planned to meet at the end of December and stay at an Airbnb log house by a lake, complete with a hot tub.
Daredevil has been transformative for me, helping me:
• Overcome social anxiety and step out of my shell.
• Cultivate a magnetic, confident presence.
• Foster smoother social interactions and genuine connections with others.
These shifts have even shown up online—I’m seeing great engagement on Facebook, and it’s boosting my confidence even more.
To top it all off, I’ve started channeling this newfound inspiration into creativity. I’m writing an erotica romance novel inspired by my match. Life feels expansive, and I’m excited to see where this journey leads!
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Wash out has begun!
I decided to finish this cycle with a loop of HS.
I think I’m gonna swap Seductress for HoT next cycle to finish off the year alongside DD & SB.
Looking forward to meeting “Him” in person on Dec. 21st. We’ve been talking like crazy!
After finishing my recent subliminal cycle, I ended with one loop of Heartsong. I’ve listened to it before, but this time, it unearthed memories and reflections about my past relationships, my fears of commitment, and my patterns in navigating love and connection.
I’ve noticed that I leaned into people-pleasing to avoid conflict or the discomfort of rejecting someone’s feelings. Often, I wasn’t aligned with their perspectives, but instead of expressing my truth, I would appease them to keep the peace. Internally, I would perceive their reactions as overly submissive, or what I would think of as “beta,” but I lacked the tools to handle those dynamics without guilt.
This pattern ties back to how I often switch between behaviours myself, including hot-and-cold responses, especially in anxious-avoidant dynamics. My personality—friendly, playful, charismatic, and inviting—has been misinterpreted as flirty, but my intentions have always been genuine. Even so, commitment has scared me, partly because of how men acted when deeply into me.
One memory resurfaced of a partner I dated when I was 19. He was in my band, and while we had fun together, his jealousy and control issues escalated. He broke my DVD player to stop me from spending time with a male friend, punched holes in my wall, and even tried to harm himself in my kitchen. At the time, I wasn’t ready to settle down, but that experience left a lasting imprint on how I approach relationships and safety.
I also reflected on my last relationship, where I attracted someone narcissistic and manipulative. He studied and participated in courses with me, but he would ask questions in a way that felt intentionally designed to get a rise out of me and make me doubt myself. His approach often left me second-guessing my beliefs, including the law of assumption.
More recently, a simple question from someone else about how the law of assumption works with global tragedies triggered memories of the narcissist’s tactics. Even though the intent behind the question seemed different, it stirred up unresolved feelings and made me realize how much this past relationship still affects me.
Now, I find myself sitting with a deeper question: What is appropriate in a relationship for someone who is naturally friendly and playful? I don’t want to feel policed or controlled for expressing who I am, but I also want to respect my partner’s feelings. It’s a delicate balance I’m still trying to understand.
Reflection and Intentions:
Listening to Heartsong has opened the door to deeper healing.
• Acknowledgment: I see how my people-pleasing tendencies and hot-and-cold behaviours stem from past experiences and fears of judgment or rejection.
• Healing Focus: I want to explore how I can stay authentic to my personality while maintaining respectful boundaries in relationships.
• Empowerment: I am committed to cultivating relationships where I feel free to be myself, but also where my partner feels heard, valued, and secure.
Closing Thoughts:
These reflections feel heavy, but I’m grateful for the clarity they bring. I trust that by addressing these patterns and finding a balance, I will align with the kind of relationship where both partners can thrive as their true selves.
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So the ick of HS is worth running eh?
It brings me ick most times. Except the last time or two.
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Yeah it’s worth it, but definitely not easy!
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We may find a strange pleasure (often unconscious) in the suffering we witness, as it mirrors the pain we’ve carried within ourselves. There’s a dark comfort in it, a familiar echo of struggles we’ve known all too well. To be without that pain feels unfamiliar, as though we’re missing a part of ourselves that we’ve been conditioned to carry. Without it, we might feel lost, disconnected, or unsure of who we are. But in truth, it opens the door to healing, allowing us to reclaim the peace we’ve always deserved.
Being a hero or a caretaker often stems from identifying with suffering—whether our own or others’. We feel drawn to rescue, fix, or protect because it resonates with the pain we’ve experienced or witnessed. There’s a certain power in this role, a sense of purpose, but it can also trap us in a cycle where the struggle feels necessary, defining who we are.
To step away from the pain or the need to save others can feel disorienting, as though we’ve lost part of our identity. Without the suffering to propel us, we might question who we are or what our purpose is. However, by releasing the hero’s role, we create space for healing and self-discovery. True peace arises when we no longer need to carry others’ burdens to feel valuable, and instead, we embrace the quiet, restorative power of simply being.
We don’t need to carry others’ burdens to feel important, needed, or fulfilled. By assuming that others can and will handle their own challenges, we free ourselves from the weight of their struggles. Through the law of assumption, we can shift our belief to trust that they will find their own path, just as we are finding ours. This shift not only lightens our load but also empowers others to grow and take responsibility for their own journey. 
My thoughts:
I am a confident, purposeful, and driven woman, committed to my path of success and building a lasting legacy. I understand the truth, the law, and the ways of the universe. I expect the same level of openness and growth from my partner to evolve together on this journey. I refuse to settle for mediocrity or anything that isn’t in alignment with my vision.
I’m committed to striving for greatness, living with purpose, and continuously growing through ongoing learning and studying that fits the highest version of myself. I believe in reaching for the highest version of myself, and I expect the same from those around me, especially my partner.
Mediocrity has no place in my life or my relationships. I will not lower my standards or compromise my worth for anyone.
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Final stack of the year has begun today:
Genesis Mogul
Stark Black
HoT
Listening to GM & SB and alternating listening days with HoT.
Looking forward to seeing what’s coming with the upgrades to Seductress and EoG.
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Day 3 ~ HoT full loop
In intimate romantic relationships, I often find that conflicts can arise when my partner isn’t at a similar level of understanding or self-awareness. I value resolving issues through self-reflection and personal accountability, and I believe that conversations should help clarify and create understanding rather than place the burden of resolution on one person.
However, I’ve noticed that when I take the lead in conversations—especially if I feel more confident doing so—my partner may feel that it’s not balanced or fair. They might assume there’s a double standard or even resentment, which isn’t the case at all. For me, leading the conversation comes from a place of wanting to guide things productively, not from wanting control or dominance. It can be challenging when they misinterpret this dynamic and assume there’s an imbalance, when in reality, I feel it’s simply about playing to our strengths to work through challenges together. My intention is always to create a healthy, open dialogue, not to take over or diminish their role in the relationship.
One loop of HS really took me for a deep dive!
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Day 4 ~ rest
My YouTube channel is booming! Got 100s of views overnight and like 25 new subscribers! Lots of comments and engagement.
Just scripted my next video to film after coaching clients session.
I was stirred up in therapy last night. I feel like the therapist was projecting on me a bit.
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I’ve posted this elsewhere in the forum, so you might have already seen this. It is a good article that ties in with Julia’s quote posted above. It explains a lot of things.
