The Empire of Resolute

[Resolute]

Much has happened over the past six months that led me back to subliminals and the path of emotional mastery, but the story is not as important as my commitment to change. That is the purpose of this journal - to avoid drifting and to maintain the commitment to change.

Objective

• emotional mastery

Weaknesses

• seeking approval / validation
• caring what other people think
• explaining and rationalising plans
• reacting emotionally to manipulation

Subliminal

• Dragon Reborn: Phoenix

Habits

1. Lifting
2. Meditation
3. Dieting

[Resolute]

Day 1

Subliminal

• Dragon Reborn: Phoenix (15 minutes)

Lifting

1. Bench Press: 60x5,5,10
2. Neutral Grip Pull Up: 0x5,5,8
3. Back Squat: 80x5,5,10

Meditation

• 10m, 10m

Dieting

• 2 meals, no snacks

Thoughts

I forgot the power of these subliminals! Wow, that loop pulled me back into a painful state of betrayal that drove me to stop caring what people think, and instead learn to live my life for myself. Painful, beautiful, and just what I need - my fuel for change. There’s nowhere to hide with this one, and that’s what I need.

Opening a journal had me reflecting on the potential to seek approval / validation online (look at me, aren’t I good?). I concluded that if I write for myself, primarily for the purpose to maintain consistency, then the positives gained by being consistent should outweigh the potential negatives. It’s something to be mindful of as I update at the end of each day.

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Day 2

Subliminal

• rest

Lifting

• rest

Meditation

• 15m, 10m

Dieting

• 2 meals, no snacks

Thoughts

Today was good, I held my shit together without flinching. Took some action that I feared doing and had terrific outcomes. Felt strong emotions at times and also a constant underlying emotional hum of uncomfortableness. This is exactly what I’m inviting in by running Phoenix, so I’m happy.

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Day 3

Subliminal

• Dragon Reborn: Phoenix (15 minutes)

Lifting

1. Overhead Press: 40x5,5,10
2. Bent Over Row: 60x5,5,10
3. Deadlift: 100x10

Meditation

• 15m, 20m

Dieting

• 2 meals, no snacks

Thoughts

Adding Emperor: The Will to Power will be the next logical step. It was my original plan to stack the two, but starting with one subliminal is a good idea.

I need to stop trying to be a nice person! I too easily give my power away. I will stay calm because I’m not angry, I’m experiencing anger. Who will benefit if I react based on the emotions I experience? Most likely not me.

I’m also outcome dependant. I noticed today how butthurt I felt after an interaction didn’t go as planned. This isn’t a new reaction but it felt new in that I noticed it and let it go. Sometimes I can hold onto this feeling and bring it with me to other situations and interactions.

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Day 4

Subliminal

• rest

Lifting

• rest

Meditation

• 20m, 10m

Dieting

• 2 meals, no snacks

Thoughts

Mixed bag day, nothing too bad, nothing too good. Might have slightly overdone it when hiking.

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Day 5

Subliminal

• Dragon Reborn: Phoenix (15 minutes)

Lifting

1. Bench Press: 62.5x5,5,10
2. Neutral Grip Pull Up: 1.25x5,5,7
3. Back Squat: 82.5x5,5,10

Meditation

• 20m

Dieting

• 3 meals, 2 snacks

Thoughts

Controlling my subtle emotional responses when interacting with people is showing interesting results. I notice many men who have fear and insecurity within themselves. I don’t know if it’s my changing presence drawing this out of them, or, as I detach from my own emotional responsiveness, I’m simply becoming a better observer.

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Day 6

Subliminal

• rest

Lifting

• rest

Meditation

• 20m, 20m

Dieting

• 3 meals, no snacks

Thoughts

A crazy good day, I had sex for the first time in about 9 months. Then I was at a half day social event and barely had social anxiety and everyone treated me very well. I see so much now, like a new world is being unveiled. It’s from practicing emotional mastery for several months, and the sub is accelerating the results.

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Day 7

Subliminal

• Dragon Reborn: Phoenix (15 minutes)

Lifting

• rest

Meditation

• 10m

Dieting

• 2 meals, no snacks

Thoughts

Attended the same half day event as yesterday. I’d had enough of being social by the end, glad it’s over. Still easily my best social performance in such a situation.

Back to the basics - lifting, meditation, dieting to regroup after the weekend’s excitement.

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Day 8

Subliminal

• rest

Lifting

1. Overhead Press: 42.5x5,5,10
2. Bent Over Row: 62.5x5,5,10
3. Back Squat: 82.5x5,5,10

Meditation

• 30m

Dieting

• 2 meals, no snacks

Thoughts

Recalibrated and feel back in control after the weekend’s socialising. I’m doing fantastic with everything. Things feel smaller and less intimidating. A massive perspective shift.

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Day 9

Subliminal

• Dragon Reborn: Phoenix (15 minutes)

Lifting

• rest

Meditation

• 15m

Dieting

• 2 meals, no snacks

Thoughts

Some subs I’d like to try:

• GLM
• E: AoW
• E: TWTP

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Day 10

Subliminal

• rest

Lifting

1. Bench Press: 65x5,5,10
2. Neutral Grip Pull Up: 2.5x5,5,7
3. Deadlift: 105x10

Meditation

• 45m, 10m

Dieting

• 3 meals, 6 snacks

Thoughts

Ate a bunch of crap today. With luck the extra calories will help physical recovery for tomorrow.

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Day 11

Subliminal

• Dragon Reborn: Phoenix (15 minutes)

Lifting

• rest

Meditation

• 30m

Dieting

• no meals, no snacks

Thoughts

This was the first day I was not eager to listen to the Phoenix. I think the high sugar foods I ate from yesterday messed with me because I woke up feeling sick and was in a bad mood. It was difficult to contain my anger and there were some “energy spillages” to put it nicely.

I wondered how long I can go without eating, 24 hours so far. Feeling hungry but I don’t think I’ll eat until tomorrow.

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Day 12

Subliminal

• rest

Lifting

1. Overhead Press: 45x5,5,9
2. Bent Over Row: 65x5,5,10
3. Back Squat: 85x5,5,10

Meditation

• 15m

Dieting

• no meals, no snacks

Thoughts

Terrible day - max suffering. Not the subliminals fault, just my crumbling life… I’d elaborate, but what’s the point. Let’s just say, there’s no escaping the rebirth.

Still fasting, and I’m surprised I’ve gone this far with it. I enjoy growth through suffering perhaps a little too much. Suffering is not wasted on me, I’m constantly evolving.

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Day 13

Subliminal

• Dragon Reborn: Phoenix (15 minutes)

Lifting

• rest

Meditation

• 10m

Dieting

• 2 meals, 3 snacks

Thoughts

Ended fast at 65 hours and didn’t overeat, so a success. I’ll work back to the two meals a day but may experiment more with fasting, perhaps a 36 hour fast on occasion.

Crazy and stressful couple of days dealing with LTR issues. Had impeccable emotional control today, dealt with the situation like a man. I’m getting the hang of it, this woman provides so much practice, with her defiance of being controlled, coupled with her steady stream of shit tests, she takes me to new levels.

From a few days ago her wanting to seperate to today me giving her oral sex and planning a future together - I fucking love playing this game of life. But I am wrecked, hopefully decent sleep will come tonight with the stress now lifted.

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Day 14

Subliminal

• rest

Lifting

• rest

Meditation

• 20m

Dieting

• 3 meals, 3 snacks

Thoughts

Became hungry today, bounce back after fasting. I didn’t over eat though, at least not to any degree that would undo progress but it’s good to take note of.

I’ll start to lift more often because I want to. My strength is bouncing back after not lifting barbells in 5 years and I’ll enjoy doing it more often. I’ll split the exercises into a minimalist push, pull, legs, and see how it goes.

I’ve had a few flashbacks to past events and the feelings aren’t there anymore. It’s nice to be released from those shackles and I think Phoenix is helping by doing its part in the process. It’s not the easiest to run but it gets results.

Goals for next week:

• follow new lifting routine
• meditate minimum 30 minutes a day
• eat maximum of 2 meals a day

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Day 15

Subliminal

• Dragon Reborn: Phoenix (15 minutes)

Lifting

1. Bench Press: 80x5,5,10
2. Overhead Press: 45x5,5,10

Meditation

• 30m, 15m

Dieting

• 2 meals, no snacks

Thoughts

Subliminal Stack Idea:

Goals:

• emotional control
• physical strength
• mental focus
• social game
• financial abundance

Subliminal Stack:

• Godlike Masculinity
• Emperor
• Emperor: The Will to Power

Will I become too powerful?

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Day 16

Subliminal

• rest

Lifting

1. Neutral Grip Pull Up: 5x5,5,9
2. Bent Over Row: 80x5,5,10

Meditation

• 10m, 20m

Dieting

• 2 meals, no snacks

Thoughts

I had amazing sex this morning, things are going much better in my relationship. I’ve managed to recover after failing a major shit test last week.

I’m now seeing a lot of the same unattractive traits in other people that I’m ridding myself of. I was previously blind to this.

Workouts feel great, lifting heavier weights makes me feel good. I’m slowly becoming sexier in every way and I’m really starting to like myself, flaws and all.

Current physique, today after pull workout:

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Day 17

Subliminal

• Dragon Reborn: Phoenix (15 minutes)

Lifting

1. Back Squat: 100x5,5,7
2. Deadlift: 120x5,5,5

Meditation

• 50m

Dieting

• 2 meals, no snacks

Thoughts

Today’s workout sucked, I had only 4.5 hours sleep, so I was not at my best.

I reflected on my childhood and adulthood, wondering if I’m autistic. My rocky relationships, or lack thereof, are the result of an inability to connect with others. What most people innately have, I need to learn. At least I was born with an above average IQ (don’t worry, this doesn’t impress me nor anyone else), so I do have an ability to work my way through issues by learning and applying new strategies.

Course of action:

1. optimise energy levels / hormones
2. train myself with good habits to cultivate discipline
3. leverage my IQ by practicing cunning and persuasion
4. constantly learn

I’m interested in optimising dopamine through lifestyle. I don’t know how to do this as I haven’t researched, but it may be worth looking into because dopamine levels correlate to one’s levels of introversion / extroversion. Low testosterone might be linked to neuroticism. I doubt mine’s low because I’m muscular with a healthy sex drive, however attempting to increase testosterone couldn’t hurt. Lifting weights and a high protein diet is the starter, better sleep and body fat reduction is the finisher. Just random thoughts, I have not looked into this too deeply yet.

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Day 18

Subliminal

• rest

Lifting

• rest

Meditation

• 5m

Dieting

• 2 meals, 1 snack

Thoughts

I think Phoenix is helping me break through into new territory. I’m considering another Phoenix cycle as horrible as that sounds right now. I’m not sure if I can do it though. It’s a difficult and tiring sub because it feels like it leaves me with nowhere to run and nowhere to hide.

While out for a walk today, I came to realise how willing I am to martyr myself for the “truth” by going against social constructs and belief systems, saying what I think out loud. I understand that my own truth is also fictional, and by not going along with the herd makes people distrust and dislike me more. I need to create separation between my thoughts and my words - I need to practice social intelligence. I am not influential and behaving this way makes no difference, other than angering people who are having their cognitive biases challenged. It’s a shit way to be and I don’t need to be “correct” about everything, especially when, by being so - there is nothing to gain, and everything to lose.

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Day 19

Subliminal

• Dragon Reborn: Phoenix (15 minutes)

Lifting

• rest

Meditation

• 15m

Dieting

• 3 meals, no snacks

Thoughts

I’m resting from workouts until next week because I’ve been lifting a bit, also doing weighted walks, and I’m feeling tired. I had a small fight with LTR, so I’m using it as an opportunity to learn and get over my butthurt as fast as possible. I made several mistakes in dealing with her throughout the day (neediness / too affectionate / spoke too much). I feel like she’s not worth getting upset or stressed over, so I’ll return my attention away from her and back onto myself. If this all comes to an end, I’ll be done with women for good.

I’m putting thought into disciplining myself with new and old habits.

Ideas:

• meditation (improve focus)
• nofap (reduce prolactin)
• productivity checklists (increase dopamine)
• lifting (increase testosterone)
• intermittent fasting (reduce body fat / increase stress tolerance)
• early morning sun light (circadian rhythm / increase testosterone)
• cold showers (increase stress tolerance)
• reading (strategic learning)
• quality sleep (reduce body fat / hormone regulation)