11.10.24: 15 min Khan Black Stage 3 (early morning)
11.10.24: 15 min Emperor (early morning)
That quote above is a very good summary of the two titles, adapted to my situation. But here the trouble starts. Of course I want to remove all troubles from my relationship and don’t want that my wife get’s angry. But given the framework I’m beliving in, that everything that happens to me is my responsibility or at least I play a role in the behavior of my wife, Sanguine seems to be a good choice, too.
Yesterday I started listening to Boundaries in Marriage and it revealed a lot of things I could have done different or better in the past, that facilitated the current situation. My current situation is, not to release my wife of any responsibility of her behaviour, also an outcome of my own behavior and lack of setting boundaries, etc. And here, I think Sanguine can be of great help.
During this week I discovered, that my wife really loves me, but that she has a hard time not falling in behavior that does not facilitate love but the opposite (childhood trauma thing).
My concern with Heartsong is the follwing: as I run Phoenix and Love Bomb For Humanity earlier this year I grew more empathetic and loving. But that had a backslash to it. Because I understand her better and could feel her pain more, etc. I weakened boundaries more, because I thought it would help her, overcome things. So I had accomplished the opposite effect of what I wanted. For Heartsong I have the concern that I also will lean more into her wantings instead of my own well-beeing.
