The Emperor Within

Journals - Major Programs
#1

Stack: Emperor & Khan Black
Start: July, 29th

I’ve been using subliminals and SubClub since November 2023. I’ve been running Emperor ever since, added DR:Phoenix in December, and A Love Bomb For Humanity in January to my stack. I’ve made wonderful progress in my alpha behavior, self-love, and position in my relationship. However, even though I started a side business last year, I haven’t made much progress with it because I don’t focus much on it. I realize that I mostly focus on status, behavior, and self-image. This might be because Emperor has a big objectives list, and work is done first where it is most needed. How can I succeed in my own business if I don’t believe in myself and don’t respect myself?

Since the end of June, I’ve been on a long washout after running subs for the last 8 months (with only the regular 5-day washouts). I noticed some tiredness from DR:Phoenix, so it was almost too much in the last cycle.

The first week of my washout brought some rough edges to my marriage because I lost status with my wife and got passive-aggressive about some issues I need to solve head-on, but I blamed her instead. The last week and a half got better and brought some very interesting results in choosing my next sub. I had planned to go with Emperor, Quantum Limitless, and Chosen for the next 6 to 8 months, but after some time on washout, it became clear that I need to add Khan Black to Emperor, even I had not the slightest intend to run this sub. Some posts about it triggered my subconscious, and now it is absolutely clear that I have to do that. I have some regrets because I really wanted to run QL, but after a lot of thought, it became clear that I have to go through the sexual trauma healing route first to progress further in the future and release the energy within.

So, after two more weeks of washout I will begin my new stack end of July with Emperor and Khan Black.

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#2

To make the most out of my upcoming journey with Emperor & Khan Black, I spent some time today reflecting on the goals I want to achieve and the healing I need to address.

To help with this, I had an intensive “psychotherapeutic” session with ChatGPT, discussing some childhood trauma. The session was eye-opening and brought up realizations that made me cry. I also got some good insights and practical steps from ChatGPT on how to overcome some issues and false beliefs.

In the next few days, I’ll be fine-tuning my goals and figuring out the exact steps I want to take to achieve them and focus on healing the childhood traumas that affect me until today and how to overcome them.

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#3

As a child, I experienced sexual abuse by a neighbor. For years, I dismissed it as a life-altering event, believing it hadn’t significantly impacted me. But after seven months of working with DR:Phoenix, I’ve realized that this was just a protective belief. In reality, this unresolved trauma still deeply affects me to this day.

With Khan Black: Stage 1, I intend to delve deeper into this trauma and its consequences. I want to understand how it still affects me today and what I can do to heal the emotional, mental, and behavioral consequences. This will allow me to move forward without its burden. I believe the most significant issue is the subconscious baggage filled with negative coping mechanisms I’ve built as a safety net. It’s time to release this and create my own destiny. I also believe that this trauma binds a lot of energy that I want to free to use it for greater good.

Goals for Kahn Black: Stage 1

Start a dedicated healing process to address and heal traumas, insecurities and limiting beliefs around my sexuality and place in live.

Heal from childhood sexual abuse. Remove protective constraints and beliefs, uncovering my true self. Bring subconscious negative beliefs to light, reflect, and let them go.

Measurable: Utilize my daily 30-minute morning and evening bike rides to and from work as follows:

Morning ride:

  1. Use Socratic questioning technique to challenge my beliefs
  2. Use positive affirmations to reinforce my own perspective on life.
  3. Practice deep breathing, imagining each breath bringing balance and harmony into my life.

Evening ride:

  1. Reflect on my day. Use Socratic questioning to break free from self-imposed limitations
  2. Visualize positive outcomes, reinforcing my power to create my reality.
  3. Practice mindfulness with a body scan, focusing on the present moment and releasing guilt or negativity.

Regularly reflect on my progress, emotions, and internal boundaries.

Desired Outcome:

:dart: Experience increased freedom of self and self-expression, greater vitality, and joy in life. Release stuck energy and allow it to flow freely.

Accompanying Reading list:

  • Existential Kink by Carolyn Elliot
  • Risiko Kindheit (Risk: Childhood) by Nicole Strüber (German book)
  • Das Kind in dir muss Heimat finden (The child within you must find a home) by Stefanie Stahl (German book). Thanks to @Parsifal for the recommendation

Other goals I want to achieve with this stack I will post later on. They are related to status and wealth.

I want to emphasize that it takes a great deal of effort for me to post this extremely private and painful experience here. But I realize that it is necessary to go one step further. It is a way to stand by myself, embrace myself and love myself. Thank you.

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#4

Should you ever consider building a custom for this issue, make sure to include Aphrodite.
Attachment Destroyer, Final Showdown, New Beginning, Emotions Unfettered and Foundation could be worth considering as well.

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#5

Many thanks for the recommendations. Especially the description of “Foundation” struct a chord.

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#6

Foundation is also a constituent module of Synergy: Breath of the Storm, which I’ll include in my next custom because it has scripting to overcome bad habits.

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#7

Since running Emperor, I got interest in making money in different ways, namely it has sparked a curiosity about investing. Why should I only earn money through employment? For a long time, that was the only way that seemed morally acceptable to me. While I had some interest in self-employment, I never got past a few small jobs. Something subconscious prevented me from pursuing it fully. I think my aversions to self-employment, investing, and even selling come from negative beliefs and mindsets I got from my childhood/parents and other sources. Money that came from sources other than employment was often dismissed as immoral, or people who pursued it were depicted as unscrupulous, greedy, or morally corrupt. Emperor has dissolved a lot of that. For my side business, which I started last year, I still have some blocks to resolve to go further. But first, I want to get my foot in the door in investing, mainly in shares and crypto.

Wealth Goal for the Next 3 Months
By November 1st, 2024, I will enhance my knowledge of investing by reading two books on investing in shares and crypto and search for a good online course. I will develop a detailed investment plan specifying the amount and frequency of investments. Following this plan, I will make a minimum of three investments in shares and crypto within the next three months. I will allocate 4 hours per week to learning, set up and execute a plan.

Specific: Research and understand the basics of investing in both shares (stocks) and cryptocurrency.

  • Identify at least 3 potential investment platforms for each (shares and crypto) and compare their features, fees, and user experience.
  • Develop a personalized investment plan that outlines:
    • The amount I will invest in each asset class (shares and crypto)
    • The frequency of investments (weekly, bi-weekly, monthly)
    • My risk tolerance and investment goals
    • Research and set up means to track my investments

Measurable:

  • Reading 2 books on investing in shares and crypto and find a good online course
  • Documenting my research on investment platforms in a spreadsheet or notebook.
  • Creating a written investment plan with specific targets and timelines.
  • Opening accounts on chosen investment platforms.
  • Making my first investments in both shares and crypto.

Relevant:
This goal aligns with my desire to diversify my income sources and build long-term wealth. Investing in shares and crypto has the potential to generate passive income and outpace inflation.

Accompanying Reading List:

*The Stoic Path to Wealth by Darius Foroux (investing)
*Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill (general wealth)
*Rich Dad Poor Dad by Robert T. Kiyosaki (general wealth)

Question:

Does anyone have a book or course recommendation for a beginner regarding long-term investing (not trading) in shares and/or crypto?

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#8

24.07.24: 1 min of Khan Black, Stage 1 (no recon so far).

#9

24.07.24: Did another 1 min loop of Khan Black, Stage 1 (no recon so far).

#10

After the second run, I felt manlier and more grounded. The anxiety I had for the last three days lifted.

#11

This morning only after two loops of Khan Black yesterday and a good night sleep, I had an extremely liberating and powerful insight regarding the sexual abuse I had experienced in childhood. I am not to blame! Although I have technically known this for a long time, have read it many times and would even have advised a friend to do so, deep down I still always felt dirty and guilty. Today I powerfully realized: no, you are not to blame at all, you are not stained and dirty. You are free of ALL guilt.
On the bike ride to the office, I had a vision of myself as a pure being of light, free from the burden of the past and guilt. I had to cry, tears streaming down my face. At the same time, I laughed with joy: I am innocent and free!

I can’t believe that this happens only after two minutes of Khan Black. Thank you @SaintSovereign and @Fire for that gift to free me from this strong and disturbing childhood trauma.

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#12

I would encourage you to look for the 1937 version. Later versions have things edited out.

Also “Law of Success” by Napoleon Hill. Again, the original from 1928. There is another version that is slightly different that was reproduced by Vieux Publishing, which is the 1925 version.

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#13

Thank you! Amazing, there is even a German translation of the 1937 version of the book. Will buy that.

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#14

26.07.24: 1 min of Khan Black, Stage 1 (morning)
26.07.24: 1 min of Khan Black, Stage 1 (afternoon)

#15

The Napoleon Hill Foundation might be selling such re-prints of the 1937 version in German. Did you check?

If your English might be a sixth grade level, I still recommend the English version.

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#16

There’s even a free pdf if you Google for it.
I got the audio book a few years back and it was like 5 hours or so. No I see it has about 500 pages. So I got a heavily abridged version.
And Law of Success is doubling that number.
Thats some serious reading material.

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#17

29.07.24: 3 min Khan Black, Stage 1
29.07.24: 15 min Emperor

Despite running Emperor since November 2023, 15 min was too long, after the month long washout. I had to moan a lot during the listen (sign of recon for me).

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31.07.24: 6 min Khan Black, Stage 1
31.07.24: 15 min Emperor

#19

31.07: Felt confused, unsure of myself and the path I want to walk in my life. Should I quit everything and walk the path of a hermit?
01.08: Backslash into old behavior. Hadn’t this for a loooong time. Felt not worthy to be in a group of people. Wanted to withdraw and be alone.
Some old sexual thoughts flared up in my mind (there are not mine anymore, there are some old subconscious backslashes in well-known waters).

02.08.24: 9 min Khan Black, Stage 1
02.08.24: 15 min Emperor

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#20

02.08.24: Had a good day yesterday after Emperor and Khan Black. The black cloud of the day before lifted.

03.08.24: No sub today.