The Darklighter

[Brandon]

Time for me to start journaling again.

Gonna keep this short and sweet. Pretty stuck in life at the moment. Feel like I’m at a crossroads and I don’t know what to do or where to go, and I’m pretty sure I’m writing this whilst going through recon.

I was using my Khan/Chosen/LoTS custom & Love Bomb For Humanity, however I’m dropping that for a little while to focus on Genesis.

I need something to make me money. I need something to do with my days that aren’t dance job related but that I enjoy and helps me. I want more than what I’m doing.

Using Genesis to help me find that.
I’ll probably use Genesis and R.I.C.H to help me out whilst I’m figuring out what it is exactly that I want to do and where I want to go.

On a side note, I’m comparing myself a lot currently. I have a lot of people in my life ‘making’ it and doing things whilst I feel like I’m losing. I feel like whilst my dance classes are going well somewhat, they’re not going as good as they used and won’t advance thanks to everything that went on…I still can’t get rid of this, and I need to.

Anyway, yeah. Genesis is gonna replace LBFH since it has the Love Bomb aura, and will help me find my plan/purpose/wants and needs.

Time to journal/rant about how I feel and what I’m doing. Not sure how long I’ll stick with it but hopefully it’ll give me some insight and then once I have found my way I’ll come back to Khan/Chosen/LotS and maybe LBFH.

[R.E.M.P.O]

Hey there, I totally get where you’re coming from. Feeling stuck in life is so frustrating and overwhelming. But hey, journaling like you are is a great way to gather your thoughts and gain some clarity. It’s like having a heart-to-heart with yourself.Genesis sounds like an awesome subliminal choice for exploring new possibilities and figuring out what you want to do with your days besides your dance job. I feel you on wanting more than what you’re currently doing - it’s all about finding that passion project that lights your fire.Don’t worry too much about comparing yourself to others who seem to be “making it.” Remember, everyone has their own path and journey.

Comparison can sometimes be the thief of joy. Focus on your own journey and let go of worrying about what others are doing. Embrace the uniqueness of your path and trust that you will find your way to success

Keep pushing forward!

[Brandon]

@R.E.M.P.O

Feeling stuck in life is so frustrating and overwhelming

Yeah man, this is exactly how I feel man. It’s wild to me. Part of it is recon but part of me know it’s a deeper struggle that I’m masking by pretending to be strong and badass. I am badass but that doesn’t mean I don’t struggle with these inner voices too.

@R.E.M.P.O

But hey, journaling like you are is a great way to gather your thoughts and gain some clarity. It’s like having a heart-to-heart with yourself.

Oh for sure, I debated even opening a journal but I gotta be honest with myself and even more so, possibly help other people in the mean time with my thought process.

@R.E.M.P.O

it’s all about finding that passion project that lights your fire.Don’t worry too much about comparing yourself to others who seem to be “making it.” Remember, everyone has their own path and journey.

Comparison can sometimes be the thief of joy. Focus on your own journey and let go of worrying about what others are doing. Embrace the uniqueness of your path and trust that you will find your way to success

This is it man. I know I’m passionate about dance but I also feel like it’s been ruined by others - however is that just a limiting belief I have because of stuff that happened and I haven’t healed over yet? It’s wild I’m still thinking that way after 2/3 years. It just doesn’t make me the money I want it to, and I know I’m talented in other things - I’m just not sure what. I know I don’t want a 9-5. I just have to find what I do want, and make sure it’s making me a lot of money.

The comparison quote is something I thought of earlier today too, you’re exactly right. Appreciate the reply and positive love my guy.

[R.E.M.P.O]

Hell yeah, man! It’s totally normal to feel frustrated and overwhelmed when you’re feeling stuck in life. But remember, being strong and badass doesn’t mean you don’t struggle with those inner voices too. Don’t let past experiences ruin your passion for dance.

Journaling is a great way to gather your thoughts and gain clarity. And hey, if it helps others along the way, that’s even better!

Just keep focusing on finding that passion project that lights your fire. Don’t worry about what others are doing or comparing yourself to them. Trust that your unique path will lead you to success. Trust your path and let go of the money pressure. Don’t even sweat it!

Everyone has their own timeline. You’re on your own unique path, and that’s something to be proud of. Keep pushing forward, embrace your uniqueness and go after what sets your soul on fire. You got this, my friend!

[Brandon]

@R.E.M.P.O

ell yeah, man! It’s totally normal to feel frustrated and overwhelmed when you’re feeling stuck in life. But remember, being strong and badass doesn’t mean you don’t struggle with those inner voices too. Don’t let past experiences ruin your passion for dance.

Oh for sure man, I totally agree with you. In regards to not letting past experiences ruin my passion, I think it already has which sucks because I love it so much. I wouldn’t be able to do it in my city/UK anymore really. I just don’t know.

@R.E.M.P.O

Just keep focusing on finding that passion project that lights your fire. Don’t worry about what others are doing or comparing yourself to them. Trust that your unique path will lead you to success. Trust your path and let go of the money pressure. Don’t even sweat it!

This is exactly what I’m trying to do for sure, also something I’m hoping Genesis will lead to with the ‘success’ scripting - in regards to knowing that everything will work out in the end. I’m tired of constantly coming to this place and feeling how I do after feeling so good for so long.

@R.E.M.P.O

Everyone has their own timeline. You’re on your own unique path, and that’s something to be proud of. Keep pushing forward, embrace your uniqueness and go after what sets your soul on fire. You got this, my friend!

See, that’s the thing I’m struggling with. It’s not just my passion I’m worried about. It’s things like having a partner, having sex, etc. I feel like I’m missing out because I’ve never had a partner, or sex, that I’ve connected with. I’m very much a relationship wanting kind of person and it’s a struggle. I don’t just go and have random sex with people. I want a relationship with that someone special. I had a boyfriend but I just knew we weren’t meant to be. He was the only person I did that with, and only a couple times even though we were together for a long time. I feel FOMO hard. It sucks.

Especially at my age too. I know it’s actually more of a common thing, but it comes across like it isn’t.

P.s. If that’s you in your profile picture, you’re very good looking & your aesthetic is top notch bro.

[R.E.M.P.O]

Hey, I get it, bro. It can be tough when you feel like you’re missing out on relationship experiences.

Keep doing your thing and focusing on self-growth.

Who knows, the right person could come into your life when you least expect it.

Maybe the Genesis subliminal will be your key to success; I’m going to run it too!

And thanks for the compliment, bro! Yep, that’s really me in the profile pic. I like being open and real. Thanks!

[Brandon]

@R.E.M.P.O

Hey, I get it, bro. It can be tough when you feel like you’re missing out on relationship experiences.

For sure. I just want my slice of the pie. It’s made me feel inadequate, unwanted, unloved and all that. Even though I know I’m good enough, loving and worth it. It’s just that one special person. Gah.

@R.E.M.P.O

Maybe the Genesis subliminal will be your key to success; I’m going to run it too!

What’s your stack gonna be like? Would love to talk more and keep each other accountable.

@R.E.M.P.O

And thanks for the compliment, bro! Yep, that’s really me in the profile pic. I like being open and real. Thanks!

For sure man, I was actually worried about writing it since I didn’t know how you’d take it since it’s just a compliment but fr man, looking good.

[R.E.M.P.O]

Absolutely get it. Gonna tap out for now… But I’ll keep you posted about my stack. Going to revamp it soon. Hey no worries. I’m comfortable with myself and appreciate the compliments.

[Fractal_Explorer]

I feel this post.

What is it about dance you enjoy the most? I find that a lot of the time the joy gets sucked out of passions due to money concerns. But I truly believe it is just limiting beliefs. We’re told over and over certain avenues are more realistic than others and it’s just a load of bs. So the passions get funneled through this awful collage of all the limiting ideas we’ve pulled from influences and the energy of it gets diluted.

[Brandon]

@Fractal_Explorer

I feel this post.

What is it about dance you enjoy the most? I find that a lot of the time the joy gets sucked out of passions due to money concerns. But I truly believe it is just limiting beliefs. We’re told over and over certain avenues are more realistic than others and it’s just a load of bs. So the passions get funneled through this awful collage of all the limiting ideas we’ve pulled from influences and the energy of it gets diluted.

For me it’s creating, teaching and moving to my own pieces. And I agree, money has been ruining it. It makes me compare myself - but to people I personally know aren’t as good or know as much. It’s wild to me. But those people started really had allegations about me and created stories which people have believed and aren’t true. They just have the wrong idea but because of that it’s affected my income.

[Fractal_Explorer]

That’s rough man, sorry that happened. I hope Genesis helps you figure things out.

[Skadoosh]

@Brandon

I’m very much a relationship wanting kind of person and it’s a struggle. I don’t just go and have random sex with people. I want a relationship with that someone special. I had a boyfriend but I just knew we weren’t meant to be. He was the only person I did that with, and only a couple times even though we were together for a long time. I feel FOMO hard. It sucks.

You ever run Heartsong?

[Brandon]

I have, just not for a long enough period of time. It’s making space for it that’s the issue.

[Skadoosh]

How isn’t there space?

Genesis (finding direction in career) + Heartsong.

2 subs and you’re leveling up your wealth life + romantic life. Easy.

Self-love is in Genesis, you don’t really need LBFH. Not sure what you’re running Chosen for.

I feel like your FOMO is unnecessary, lol.

[Brandon]

@Skadoosh

How isn’t there space?

I meant space prior to me starting this. I left the third space open for other things that I felt were more important than Heartsong at the time. You’re right though, I could run it now.

@Skadoosh

Self-love is in Genesis, you don’t really need LBFH. Not sure what you’re running Chosen for.

That’s why I dropped LBFH since I’m now running Genesis.

Chosen is part of my Khan custom, which I’m not running whilst I’m running Genesis.

[Brandon]

Feeling much better today so was definitely going through recon from LBFH/my custom.

It’s only been a day since I used Genesis so I’m just relaxing and knowing everything will be okay - I know this is one of the objectives so it’s kinda hit me already which is fun. Going to re-read the objectives again and see what else I have to look forward to.

Going to take @Skadoosh ’s advice and run Heartsong with Genesis. I did say I’d run R.I.C.H with Genesis, and I still might but we’ll just run the former two for now and maybe stack this in later. I’d like for money to come in whilst I do still do my classes - I enjoy them, and it’s time I got a partner who I love and is into me, whilst also figuring out my life.

All I know right now is that I enjoy creating - but on my terms. I hate being pressured into creating - I don’t feel that’s how I work best. I enjoy having sparks of creativity come and go and me gradually putting things together. It works for me. I enjoy dance, but not performing - unless I know the piece super well because I hate not getting stuff right. Rehearsals? Great, learning pieces on the day and doing it like that? Absolutely not.

I know my talents lie in my pieces and my dancing but performing not so much, however it is something I can and also want to work on.

[R.E.M.P.O]

Bro, that sounds like a great plan! Take your time with stacking everything. Focusing on Genesis Subliminal seems like a smart move. It’s awesome to hear that you’re already feeling better and experiencing some positive effects. Re-reading the objectives will surely give you more to look forward to.

Running Heartsong with Genesis sounds like an interesting combination that was recommended, and I hope it brings you even more positive changes.

Keep embracing those sparks of creativity, and remember, life’s a journey with its own rhythm. Best of luck with your pursuits, and I’m excited to see how things unfold for you.

[Brandon]

Thanks for the love again my dude.

I ran Genesis and Heartsong today. That’s my focus for now. I’ll run R.I.C.H into the next cycle however it may make an emergency pop up soon but at least a week or two before it comes in, probably the former.

And thank you dude, I’m taking my time for sure now and focusing on me and what I want to do. I’ve had some interesting insights already.

[Brandon]

So, I ran Genesis and Heartsong today.

I feel like Genesis has given me some insights and helped me set some boundaries. Just some simply things. My ex, who I live with, relies on me - a lot. Always asking me to make him something or do something for him. Two times today I told him no, because I simply didn’t want to. Before I feel like I had to. Today I stuck by me saying no and doing what I wanted, which wasn’t what he wanted.

Also I’ve been asking to choreograph to things and one of them I’m going to turn down. It’s for charity and just isn’t what I want to do. I have the courage to say that now too. I just know it’s going to be more trouble than I deserve and I’m not dealing with it.

The second one is paid, I believe, and is creating a piece for a showcase and I think I already have a piece I want to put in it but I set my boundaries on it working. I have high standards - if it isn’t up to those standards then I won’t be participating or putting my name to it because I care about my work and how it’s shown. A lot. I’m down to do it, I think, but only on my terms and if not then I won’t be there. I know compromise is a thing but I’m not willing to compromise my work and what I’m passionate about to simply just get a showcase out there. Especially in the short time frame I have.

Also, in regards to subliminal. I’ve never stuck with a sub consistently enough for it to become my being. I’ve done multi stages - get to stage 4, do a week or two and stop. Do a cycle or less of a new sub and stuff. Wanted Black? Did that for like a week and a half. I get that there’s a feeling to these things - a gut ranching ‘its not you’ kind of feeling but this is bull.

It’s time for consistency.

Genesis & Heartsong for now until it’s time to move on. The minimum is at LEAST two cycles. I feel like my third sub will be rotational to give some versatility but even that needs to stay in for a cycle. I’m realising that it’s about setting some ground rules for myself.

These insights are of interest to me and are good for me to reflect upon.

[R.E.M.P.O]

For sure