Yes, well said. Shame has been deeply ingrained into us as we grew up, and I agree, it is complstetly useless. TIme to make a stand and step out of this and in to our power.
Sending love from Sweden 
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Well I’ve been slapping myself for how dumb I was 
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Well in my opinion, it does have a use, because the negative emotions can become a fuel to push harder for more growth.
In fact, I just broke one of my records on a lift in the gym because of everything that has popped up in my dreams since yesterday.
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I agree, it has a purpose to propell you forward. But there comes a time when identifying with these lower on spectrum of emotions will poison you IMO.
And it is important to go through them, but they wont be sitting on my trophy cabinet and collect dust.
Loving your progress and to read about it, keep showing up! 
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Because while I do like the outward focus of Chosen, I still have a lot within myself that I need to heal, and only WANTED feels like it can heal those things, as they’re very much related to the things I went through because of how I look, like the discrimination I faced for most of my life because even though I’m Arab, I don’t look or dress like the rest of the people of my culture, which always lead to people treating me like an outcast.
Moreover, I don’t wanna use Chosen and end up being nice, forgiving and showing care towards the same people that made me feel shit in the first place, because I recently saw myself feeling forgiving towards one of the people I dropped in the past when I used Emperor (first 2 weeks of joking SC).
@ABC333 is also on point here;
I wanna express myself, and even if this sounds shallow, I do want to be selfish, and less selfless, and in my case, Chosen makes me a bit “soft”.
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Very well said, and I agree with you, that’s why I mentioned using those negative emotions in the gym, as for me, it’s the best way to let everything out, and “gain” something using those emotions as they leave.
Again, I wholeheartedly agree with this, and I think that facing them, as well as being able to actually turn them into more “positive” emotions is an essential skill for growth, and we should always try our best to embrace them instead of avoiding them.
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Yes, well said. What you resist persists. Many people lives in learned helplessness, victim mentality. Being a leader to me is awakening people to their own individual true potential. Chosen has made this even more clear to me.
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Consider this could be recon too. I’d refrain from making any decisions now and do a couple Invictus method sessions during your washout to really figure things out 
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I forgot about that part. Recon can be sneaky because it wants to avoid that change. So it’ll find a way to get you to switch a title, saying you’re too soft could be that exactly! The world programs us that being harder and walling up is the way but then to reach the highest of highs it might actually take a full surrender, but the recon might get you to go that’s weakness, that’s giving up.
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Well that’s completly understandable !
for an answer it’s a well rounded one, just like that : yes you’re right.
If you feel like you should take more care of yourself first and less forgiving that’s a valuable argument
You’re making the right call then.
Just remember that the other way around isn’t less right or even wrong (forgiving and whatever)
but if you feel that it’s definitly not time, it’s probably not the time.
Enjoy yourself a bit more for now ! 
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In the SargeMaximus journal, Saint said that heartsong is 70% healing. I, a friend I won’t name, and my girlfriend have all ran Heartsong and can all attest to how much it makes you reminisce on past relationships at first… bringing up forgotten scars that need to be healed and then healing them.
When me and the girlfriend ran heartsong, the first thing it did was stop our fighting and make us more peaceful. Healed some anxiety on her part which caused less fighting.
But eventually, we would always fight the day after listening to heartsong… however, the fights were never surface level, they were always deep conversations of feelings we had been surpressing for months, and we always felt closer after.
The interesting thing was we were listening to it less than once a week. Maybe 5 weeks total, and then 3 or 4 times a month later. It’s so strong that one loop a week felt more than enough.
Maybe a few loops of heartsong will help some of that healing go along for you. You can even listen to it with your girlfriend before you go to sleep. You could wait for heartsong ZP, or listen to Qv2.
Just a thought considering you want healing
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It took me years to forgave someone who caused a tremendous amount of pain in my life and that of some of my family members. That same day, I began to work on my art and I saw a beauty that I hadn’t seen in all those years that I unknowingly held on to that pain by not forgiving him. He will never, ever be allowed in my life again. Forgiveness is about letting go of the hurt and the negativity that the person caused you, while still holding on to wisdom by maintaining your distance from them.
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I think I could benefit from a Forgiveness title as well. That might be one of my big holdbacks. Holding on to hurts and treatment from others when I never did anything to them. So I hold on to that and those people probably don’t even remember it. Intellectually I know that but that doesn’t free me from holding on to resentment when intellectually I know it’s only holding me back and affecting me.
Also having boundaries is something I would like to improve upon. So for now Heartsong is looking really attractive for the healing and also HOM for that shrewdness and dealing with people.
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Those people who hurt you for no reason have their own demons to deal with. Success is always the best revenge.
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Yep. My first priority is healing up and then moving forward with that reinforced fortitude of a great offense, defense, creativity, and everything else.
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Okay so it’s been quite a day yesterday, and now on my 3rd washout day, a lot of things have calmed down inside.
Firstly, I want to address what @Ice and @ABC333 mentioned about the possibility of recon making me feel that way, well guys, after meditating and doing my Invictus Method, I am certain that what I want is as much “self-care” as possible.
I want to improve and solidify my inner reality with WANTED, and when I reach the level of inner peace and self acceptance that I want to reach, that’s when I’ll be able to express Chosen in a better way, as I can’t be a good leader without being 100% inside.
Secondly, @Billions and @lrw, what you guys mentioned about healing and forgiveness, it made sense to me at first, but when I started thinking about it, and talked about it with my girlfriend, we came to the conclusion that the problem isn’t that I need healing because of the people, but because of my own self image issues.
Trust me, there’s still A LOT inside that needs healing that revolves around my self image, with one of the basic issues being my body dysmorphia, which resulted from the influence of social media on me, on how should a lifter look like and stuff.
And lastly, I am feeling much better today, yes forgiveness is necessary to move on, and it’s not them that need the forgiveness, what you guys didn’t think of us that the issue here is that I’m the one who’s finding it hard to forgive myself, and even when I consciously say that I do forgive myself, it’s not that easy, which is why WANTED is what I’ll be using, and might throw in either Regeneration ZP or Rebirth U.
Why rebirth? Because sometimes, a hard reset is what we need, a transformation. Yes, healing is always a good thing, but sometimes we need something that makes us feel like we’re reborn.
So that’s it for now.
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Awesome insights @Invictus ! Glad you’ve gotten some clarity on your path. Rebirth is an AWESOME sub and an amazing compliment to any subliminal journey. It’ll really help with a lot of the things you’ve mentioned here.
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I just experienced the same thing. Did it only happen to you once?
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Not really, it was the 3rd time I think.
Once during the private test and twice during the preview 
if I’m not mistaken.
@Ice the biggest insight is probably that deep down, the forgiveness that I need to “give”, is not to the people who did me wrong in the past, but myself.
I need to forgive myself and let go of the resentment I have towards myself for being so naïve and stupid back then 
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