The same has been happening with my sociality btw. Ive very much been overly social and talkative. Wich is very much opposed to how i normally am, wich is a bit more introverted.
I dont dislike this change at all, ive been enjoying the heck out of it. but at times i should definitely keep this in check. You dont have to be super social all the time.
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Today i went to college completely unprepared to a math subject. It was completely new to me, yet after a few questions i completely picked it up with ease. Me actually finding some part of math interesting enough to pick it up that easily, i bet stark has something to do with that lmfao.
Also feeling great in general, socially people are being incredibly kind at all times. It all feels very effortless, any remnant of social anxiety has completely dissappeared. I wasnt that impressed with Qv2, but stark ZP is extremely impressive with how fast and how potent it is. Loving it!
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i like how you asked me a question, and then experience it yourself later on 
but yes, its Stark.
it’s also i’ve started getting interested in so many new subjects and a new genre of magic (new as in: never performed anything like it).
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I just got rejected from the climbing frat sadly. It was based on random selection and i got unlucky, pretty dissappointed about that. Next year new chances though.
Aside from that ive been actively searching for a room. Right now i live an hour and a half a way from my college… wich is really annoying considering i now have seminars daily. Getting s room rn as a student is a pain in the ass though, i cant wait to use ascension chamber when that is released to possibly give myself a bit of an extra edge.
As far as the stack goes, its still shining. Everywhere i goes i seem to be beloved, people seem to very much be sticking to my words. I seem to be making friends basically everywhere i go. Stark really seems to be giving me far more of an edge than i expected too. Like i said previously it has made me pretty combative. In addition to that i have simply gotten more edgy in general too. Perhaos this is xoming from the fact that i just started giving less of a fuck what people really think of me and just love doing my own thing.
Chosen and stark have in general just been mixing so very smoothly. Ive been attributing a lot of results to stark, but, more likely than not, its the combination of the two thats doing a lot. The feel i get from these two subs seem to be incredibly similair in a lot of ways. Theyre like two halfs of a puzzle, fitting into each other seemlessly and creating a perfectly cohesive whole.
Im currently using the third spot in my stack as a booster spot. So far ive only been sticking to love bomb, but i might soon start alternating heartsong and LB. Heartsong is the way i see it one of the most important subs ive yet to run. I know i have quite a bit of healing to do in that dirextion, and without it id have to go through quite a few more bad relationships to really become aware of some of the issues i have. The manifestation is definitely also not something i wanna say no to. I do want to take it very slow as i dont wanna launch myself into a bunch of recon, but it is something i want to start with considering most of my personal issues seem to have already dissappeared.
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I tried another personality test. This time i got ESFP. It kinda makes sense that it switches around this much, even the first time i did it, the first 3 things are litterly only a difference of about 3%. The only thing that is clearcut is that im 100% a P. An interesting thing to note though that when i did it the first tome before my stack i got a very clear “turbulent”. Meanwhile this time i suddenly got assertive. This is quite a big difference as the first time it wasnt particulairly close. I guess this may be stark and chosen changing some inner stuff that i hadnt even noticed. (Or perhaps personality tests are just complete BS lmfao).
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went on a bit of a reflective journey after running a loop of heartsong. I properly realised just how big of a nuissance my relationship issues really are. When i tried to reflect on it and figure out what caused them, i got the simple image of me as a baby, feeling extremely vulnerable and… unsafe. There isnt particulairly anything weird about that, babys are extremely vulnerable with how small they are. That said i started to realise that this feeling has always been hiding under the surface. It often got covered with things like pride/depression/happyness etc etc. But this feeling has never really dissappeared. even in the moments where i had all the power in the world, deep down id still feel like a scared little child.
Im not really sure where to go from here. the way love bomb has taught me is to just accept it and move on. showing compassion towards myself and my issues. This wont neccessairly fix the issue, but this could very much open the doors to deal with it more naturally. I have a feeling that theres still a long journey ahead.
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Lmfao starks effect is so weird rn. I notice myself just doing things that i would normally never do. And than an hour after having made some smalltank with a random girl on the street, or whatever else, i suddenly realise “wait? Shouldnt i be too anxious to do something like that?”.
Ive been the most social ive ever been right now and it just all goes so completely naturally. I dont even think twice about it while doing it. Crazy how much subs can change you.
I have also been experiencing a lot of recon though. Like the olden days of Qv2, i really feel such a desire to switch up my stack. There are a bunch of subs i feel like i “need” to run, and i feel so impatient about it. For today i decided to run my stark custom rather that stark ZP for the simple fact that there are a bunch of feel good modules in it to ease the recon, and because i feel i really need the productivity modules too.
It wasnt the smartest idea to suddenly switch out the sub thats causing the biggest, most beneficial changes of my stack for a custom in Qv2, but im hoping that with the boosting effect of ZP the custom can cause these changes to stick + add the additional modules. If it doesnt turn out that way ill immediatly switch back.
Anyway, the results have been hella good, but the past few days have also been incredibly reconfilled. Im hoping that will pass soon.
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Ive noticed something. Between my stark custom and CHOSEN. i really dont need anything elseas far as traits or external effects go. I really have become the man i want to be and im perceived the way i want to be perceived, i feel the way i want to feel. It really is just a perfect combination (shoutout to @Invictus for getting me to find this beautiful lil stack). This stack will definitely be a mainstay and i dont think ill be switching them up anytime soon.
This does leave a third spot open to be used as a booster too! my go to’s will be libertine and love bomb for when i go out. Lately ive been running a bit of heartsong too. These ones are far from essential and ill probably be switching them out quite a lot, but its nice to have this free spot to use on an as needed basis.
My main issue right now is still related to productivity adn waking up in the morning. There are a few modules in my custom that are helping with that, but ive also been using some out of the box tactics lol. Like today i planted my phone in the bathroom, with my clothes ready. This way i was forced to immediatly wake up, get out of bed and get in the shower. This isnt perfect since i dont have an alarm clock aside from my phone, but occasionally this seems to qork quite well.
As for productivity, i just started working with friends at their house. In such an environment wehre others are also working, i have so much easier time actually doing stuff and not getting distracted.
This still is far from perfect since naturally there isnt always a possibility to do this, but it definitely helps.
I dont wanna rely to much on subs for these issues though. These issues are fixable, i just need to find out wich approach best works for me.
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Something intesting. I always go for a walk in nature whenever i feel like ive been sitting for too long. This usually helps clear my head, think some stuff through and clear recon. Ever since i started subs, Whenever i go for a walk im extremely introspective, thinking about everything deeply. This helps a lot in figuring out what type of recon im experiencing and thinking of some solutions to some of the problems im facing. I usually also start noticing the effects of whatever subs ive been running after the walk far more potently compared to before.
Today was different though. When i went for a walk my head was instantly completely clear. Rather than being introspective i just decided “nah fuck that lets just enjoy the moment, enjoy nature”. I was completely in aww of all the green, the lake, all the birds. I was just completely zen and enjoying myself.
I really liked this, it still seems to give the effect of enhancing my subs too. I think this may be a sign that my recon has for the most part faded and im now just left enjoying the results. Really liking this!
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Very nice reading. I am starting a similar stack based on Saint’s personality recommendation.
Stark + Chosen.
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Youre gonna love it man! Hands down the most complete stack
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I honestly have a hard time really picking much i can put here. Stark seems almost entirely integrated in my personality and comes extremely naturally. Chosen helps humble me a bit while somehow still increasing my confidence. Heartsong had some cool manifestations.
For the most part all this is so naturally and integrated though, that its hard to pick something to really journal as a “result”. Thats the magic of ZP, with Qv2 it felt more like it was helping me build those traits that the sub builts, meanwhile with ZP you start at the endgoal, already having those skills and traits.
This is probably also why it seems so hard to stick to ZP for a long time. All the things you want from a sub get integrated so fast, and it immediatly all feels so natural, that you already feel like youve achieved your goal and want to move on.
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Finally someone said it 
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I hate those long ass commutes.
I noticed a really strange reaction out of myself. So adter my first loop of heartsong i met my workgroup for this semester. It was online though so i didnt see their face, but in a very weird way one of them just seemed to fit me perfectly and be so extremely similair to me, to a very strange degree. Afterwards i kinda alreadyd decided id def ask her out at some point, just to see what more strange stuff HS has in store.
Today while with this same workgroup, we decided to turn on our webcam. She was really freaking hot. In a weird way i got kinda dissappointed though, with how hot she was. I kinda felt like with how hot she was it put a lot of pressure on me and i wasnt as eager to go after her anymore. Really weird how i secretly wish a girl i was already flirting with was less hot.
Aside from this i also started getting an exercise buddy. I really feel like i dont work out enough. I climb once every three days, wich is definitely very taxing on my muscles. But there are still a lot of other muscles that i barely train with climbing that i need to work on as well. I want to do just an at home training mostly for abs and chest right now. Not really any idea just yet how i wanna do this just yet, perhaps with one of those abs/chest HIIT apps? They aint perfect but i like having some sort of schedule to go off lol. If anyone has another idea though, def let me know. I have way to little knowledge about this kind of stuff.
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Just had possibly the most scuffed workout ever lol. I had at home an extremely small…. (Dumbbell you use for a bench press). I didnt really have a bench to work out though so i placed me back on a stool and my lower body on a bed, and than started benchpressing like that. It seemed to work though as i definitely feel my muscles afterwards. My workout was far from optimal as i have no idea what im doing, but hey, im a complete beginner, better a scuffed workout than no workout at all. Once i get this down i can start using the workout center in my bouldergym.
Aside from that feeling a bit of overexposure. Monday will be my last loops before a washout. Its hard to try and stick with my stack, theres so much else i also wanna run, like a dedicated seduction stack, or a proper fitness stack. But im committing myself to this stack for at least 3 full cycles. This stack helps with litterly everything i can think off at least to some degree, its a perfect foundation that fits me so incredibly much. And if i really need some extra focus in some direction, i can always use that third spot for a sub that can help with that.
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Starks charisma and social fluency is kinda insane sometimes. In my country we have this thing where you have a meeting with a house with 14 or so students, and you basically get interviewed to see if they want you as a roommate. Its extremely hard due to the fact theres such a shortage of available houses, so you often have 30+ people going for the same single spot. A few days ago was my very first time doing that, i had absolutely no idea what i was getting into. Stark carried me so much through it though, that i almost got the house first try. I barely missed out though sadly, wich i was kinda prepared for tbh so i didnt care to much.
The girl heartsong manifested also seems to be a weirdly perfect match. Already got a date with her and just actively flirting and all that. Im realy freaking bad at this though lmfao, but so far its going really good.
Im currently on day whatever of the washout. Definitely been feeling a bit of recon, but throughout the recon the effects of stark and chosen have always shined through. Theyre just part of who i am, i dont see them goinngaway anytime soon. The manifestation subs have been impressing me the most right now though. It seems almost surreal how quickly and aggressively these manifestation subs manifest… i really cant wait for ascension chamber lol.
Overall though my satisfaction with subs is sooo freaking high. It really feels like cheat codes to live life on easy mode. If i really get desperate for finding a fun house? I can just run a loop of inner circle, and wjthin a week ill probably find the perfrct house and roommates. If i wanna get more chicks? A seduction stack is really easy to make, and theyll just come to me without me having to do much. Hell, even later in life when i wanna focus on money. A bit of stark and RICH will most likely get me there very very quickly.
Life with and without ZP seems kind of a night and day difference. I freaking love that i found subclub.
For now though, im just kind of satisfied with how everything is right now. I know there are a few specific relationship issues i need to get throigh. And knowing how ZP works, the fact that i realise this probably means that ive almost gotten over them already.
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Honestly, at this point im not really sure what chosen really brings to the table. It was an amazing sub when i first ran it, and the effects have never really gone away. It feels like its pretty much completely integrated as much as it can be at the moment. Its an amazing sub but for now i dont feel like im gaining much by having it in my stack.
The sub that might actually work on some of my current weakpoints would be spartan. I often have a lot of good plans to do stuff like, work on something study related in the morning, meditate before sleeping, workout in the morning etc etc. But all these things more often than not only last a day or two before im already giving up and moving on to the next thing. I really want to have a sub that helps with that dedication. Im hoping spartan can help with this.
For now i have a lot of work to do as i will soon have some exams. Im lowkey expecting that the inly reason i still have a chance to pass is stark lmfao. Dont get me wrong im still very much behind and a lot to do in quite a short amount of time. But ive actually done something. While normally if there isnt a deadline i do absolutely mothing lmfao.
Another great help that both stark and chosen, as well as modules like sanguine, joie de vivre and carpe diem ascended ahs brought is, for the first time in my life it doesnt feel like my mood is something thats detrimental to me. In the past it always felt like while i was fighting to achieve things, i was at the same time fighting myself and my mood if that makes sense. At this point though, ive become quite happy and easygoing on myself, so that has far the most part just disappeared. Giving me a lot more joy in actually doing things, rather than having to force myself.
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I didn’t see your stack above, was this heartstrong ZP? Or how long did you run heartstrongfor?