Day#17
Paragon-Elixir × 7 minutes
I skipped RoM, Im moving to lower exposure at the end of this cycle. The next one probably too.
Im thinking only RoM on day 19 and only Paragon-Elixir on day 21.
No Qigong yesterday, maybe I will do some this afternoon…
I keep doing all my excercises to relax my back, get a better posture and heal it overall.
What I noticed is that I can sit more comfortably and with less pain amd that I can stay sitted longer.
Day#19
Paragon-Elixir × 8 minutes
Yesterday I was talking to my girlfriend and told her Paragon-Elixir and RoM have me way too introverted and inwardly focused, which was what I needed for a while, but now is not. She agreed to that and I decided that I wont do RoM nor RoS with Paragon-Elixir.
So starting next cycle I will stack Paragon-Elixir with Tantric Lover X, that will balance things out.
Its been 3 or 4 days since Im not doing Qigong, only my Feldenkrais practice, honestly I feel much more advancement with Feldenkrais. Qigong made me feel good emotionally, but Feldenkrais makes me feel good physically, which of course translates into feeling good emotionally too.
Feldenkrais requieres only about 10 to 15 minutes per practice and I can repeat it 3 to 4 times a day.
I might do Qigong again in the future though, but for now Paragon-Elixir, Feldenkrais and Hypnosis satisfy all my healing needs.
Yesterday I spent most of the day sitting down and only had some minor back tension at the end of the day, which some Feldenkrais took care of. This is major results, since 1 1/2 months ago I could not sit down at all cause of the intense pain. 2 weeks ago if I sitted down for more than 10 minutes, I couldnt sit comfortably and had a lot of pain.
Thats awesome!!
Is Tantric Lover X some custom you created?
Edit: Found it.
I realized I didnt put it in this journal.
I. Cores:
Heartsong
Love Bomb for Humanity
Diamond
Sex Mastery
II. Energetics/Healing:
Energetic Development XI
Fusion Optimized
Emotions Unfettered
Aphrodite
III. Connection/Awareness:
Soul Connection
The Wonder
All Seeing
Eagle Eye
Manipulus
Mystery
IV. Attraction/Seduction:
Entranced
Ethereal Presence
Temptation
Sexiness Unbound
Charisma & Flirting Automatic Mentor
Physicality Shifter – Sexiness
I had an intense mystical experience yesterday while on a deep trance. For me its obvious that RoM was involved in this… as a catalyst for the experience.
Im reluctant to tell the details for now, at least until I see the effects this experience has on my life.
For now I can tell it changed the way I understand reality itself.
Day#21
Paragon-Elixir × 8 minutes
The dreams are getting extremely metaphorical and fully encoded with symbols of healing.
Last night I had one that cleansed me of sadness and another one that Im still trying to understand.
Last day of the cycle… Im feeling tired.
Washing out 
Washout day#3
I feel pretty good emotionally, the pain keeps going down, slowly, but surely.
Today my Sexual Energy went back online full power, actually it came back on wednesday , but today its on fire 
which again proves healing titles uses a lot of energy.
Next cycle starts tomorrow, I will do Tantric Lover X for a week and the second week I will add Paragon-Elixir.
2nd Cycle
Day#1
Tantric Lover X × 6 minutes.
I will add Paragon-Elixir on day#9, because with the lady we have very special plans for next saturday and I dont want my energy to be fully used for healing.
Yesterday I felt overloaded the whole day, but today I feel superb!!
Did my Feldenkrais in the morning and took a shower, later im going out for a while. The sun is shinning and I feel very light and happy.
Tomorrow Im gonna do a 5 minutes loop instead of 6, to fine tune the exposure and calibrate results.
For now its pretty obvious how Heartsong and LBfH are lifting up my mood and helping me feel deeper love for my girlfriend, myself and existence.
On friday I got my hypnosis session and it was profound… Mainly releasing repressed anger and giving resolution to a pattern of thought/behaviour that had to do with authority and relationship conflicts.
*Contains significant tranquility scripting, bringing a profound sense of peace and emotional prosperity to your day to day life.
*New revolutionary scripting allowing you to develop an inexhaustible reservoir of “love energy” that can be used to gently heal past emotional traumas.
*Transcend all negativity, doubt and fears.
Contains a “protection aura” to ward off negative individuals and situations.
Exactly how I feel now!!
Day#3
Tantric Lover X × 5 minutes, at about 6am.
Feeling very loving… I will stick to the plan and add Paragon-Elixir this sunday.
Floating in pleasure one more time again…
Today I woke up with some tension in the back, but it got released with some Feldenkrais. This got me thinking… Ive been waking up with no pain for a while and it only became obvious today, because I had some tension.
Ive been recovering pretty nicely!
Yesterday I did 3:33 minutes of Ascension Chamber v2.
Tomorrow I think I will do just 4 minutes of Tantric Lover X, to test and find the sweet spot.
Anger is something I still need to learn to express in a healthier way. Good thing is Im not repressing it anymore, Im expressing it and it dissolves afterwards.
Something happened… a shift in consciousness. Suddenly things that seemed important no longer appear that way, some things that I just kept saying I wanted, but never really did anything about are burning inside for expression and materialization.
I was poked by my grilfriend about it which made me feel discomfort and pain, but acted anyway and now my goals reoriented.
Im gonna give Emperor a go for like the 5th time, but this time feels congruent. Never did it in ZP v2 so thats a plus too.
Emperor has always been the toughest sub for me to run and Ive always rage quitted.
This time feels different somehow.
Day#5
Tantric Lover X × 3 minutes
Emperor v2 × 5 minutes.
Lets see how this new Emperor adventure goes, what I can say now its that Im not longer afraid of this sub, considering it has given me the worst recons imaginable, triggered deep seated fears and tons of anger.
Somehow now I feel ready to run it.
On day 9 I will resume Paragon-Elixir and I think TLX will vanish for a while.
Confidence
Quietness
Centeredness
Stature
Decisiveness
Im loving Emperor 
EVOLUTION is my Life Purpose and it comes in many forms.
EVOLUTION fills me up with Happines and Joy.
I was looking at the small picture, lost in the details.
Now I see the big picture, how it all fits together.
I was holding to small goals, comparing myself with small people and that brought me sadness and stagnation.
I understand now that I am UNCOMPARABLE and UNIQUE.
What I used to percieve as lack of commitment was only the natural moving on from things that did not resonate with my Purpose.
I am willing and able to freely MOVE and GROW. I allow myself to EVOLVE.
I. Purpose:
•Alignment
•Coherence.
II. Self Worth:
•Deserveness
•Capability.
III. Abundance:
•Manifestation
•Profitability.