Today was one of those days… lots of mood swings, I was all over the place… mostly angry though.
I feel better now, but I feel that a lot of unresolved stuff decided to come to the surface on the same day.
Im really tired and have no energy.
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Im tweaking things a little bit today…
1× Limitless
1× True Sell
1× Minds Eye (5 minutes)
I did True Sell fully and reduced Minds Eye exposure to give the stack a bit more of a extroverted push.
I dealt with all the issues that surfaced yesterday, it was long and hard work, but it paid off. Im feeling way more lighter now.
Limitless can be though if you have a lot of trauma and negative beliefs about your intellect and learning capabilities…
Growing up in a household where you were constantly demanded for perfection and punished for every little mistake can cause havoc inside your mind, specially if love was only shown to you when you got perfect results, anger and disappointment when not.
Frankly Im amazed at all Ive acomplished in spite of that and I can only wonder how amazing things are going to be from now on that Im healing the wounds and ending the cycle.
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Yesterday probably one of the most impressive results was that I was able to see my mom from what she really was like when I was a small kid.
I mean intellectually Ive know this for years, but I was unable to emotionally accept it as truth, yesterday I did.
I saw her as a very young girl, becoming a mother for the first time, scared as shit… feeling lonely for being hundreds of miles away from her family and having a husband that worked all day from monday to saturday.
Her world completely changed into this unknown, lonely and scary thing.
I could feel all her emotions yesterday and I was able to understand her, to realize that she loved me a lot (still does) but she was unable to show it in the way I needed.
Its amazing how things work out, I would have never expected this kind of changes from this stack, but here I am.
Somehow it makes perfect sense though.
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I woke up a lot better today, but I feel its superficial. I can sense how Im hyperaware of anything that I dont like and I can be easily triggered.
In fact Im aware of my mind picking up on the little things that bothers me and start snowballing them on the side.
Its strong enough for me to notice it, but not strong enough to be overwhelming… at least not yet.
I am shutting down emotionally though and thats the main issue, thats my default coping strategy. I shoud work on that, why am I so afraid of feeling.
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Man I didnt expect that much healing from this stack, but thinking about it the reasons I had for choosing it implied going through a lot of healing.
Anyways… I went deep diving in the issue I described in my previous post and it was amazing, mainly for 2 reasons. The first one is that Limitless + Minds Eye are giving me an amazing edge when it comes to visualize the cause of a problem and understand the patterns stablished by the original experience. Letting go after that is much more easy.
The second reason it was amazing is because the levels of inner peace and wellbeing I feel now after releasing a deep stored trauma are off the charts.
I have nothing but Gratitude and Love for myself right now.
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My idea for the next cycle is being shaped on the background, for now its like this:
Paragon
Paragon Sleep
Limitless
I want my body, specifically my brain and nervous system to work in the best way possible, so I have to make it be in the best shape possible… Also I want my body to be as free of tension and trauma as possible. Only then I want to focus on installing new ideas.
In other words the house needs to be thoroughly cleaned before I can decorate it as I please.
Finally, this aint an exclusive type of deal as in “choosing between this or that”, Its a matter of focus of attention, as in “primary focus and secondary focus”.
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Quantum Limitless… 
I think it has all the benefist of the custom I was thinking about.
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Indeed curious why this stack heals so much. You think it is limitless ?
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I think is a couple of different things… Limitless being one of them…
This is from Limitless sales page:
By listening to Limitless, you will destroy everything that is stopping you from tapping into your true learning potential.
Any possible trauma, any negative beliefs, any physical and hormonal imbalances that hinder your learning will gradually dissappear.
The other thing is that Im basically wired for healing after all these years doing it.
As I write this Im thinking maybe True Sell too? Its like the kind of title that would give me a push towards breaking new grounds…
Theres no straight answer I guess…
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Today I decided to run 1 loop of Tantric Lover for reasons I dont want to share just yet…
I will do Limitless and ME too. No True Sell.
Im gonna do this for this whole week.
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Yep true sell I run it too and it is more self expressive than RM imo. It truly brings out your nature.
Of course you need to heal.
I think limitless support this to some degree.
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I think ME is the one thats gonna be taken out this week, TS remains on…
I will buy some wired headphones… I dont like when the batteries run out and I have to charge them.
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Have you tried 3 minute loops?
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Im experimenting with lower listening times… 10 minutes, 5 and 3. The idea is to find what works best for me.
Thanks!
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This week was pretty weird… many unpleasant things happened, also I dropped my stack early this week because I had some special plans that got trashed.
Im very disappointed at things.
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Maybe the experimental titles are calling you from your future.
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Do you have a cristal ball🔮 or something bro?
Because I think you might be right.
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Haha!
Looking forward to your experiments.
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