The Alchemie of the Soul

[CurlyGirl]

I just watched a video where Ed Sheeran showed the beginning of his career. He played an audio file where his guitar playing and singing were honestly terrible .

But he worked his ass off because he really wanted to make music.

He practiced. Every single day!

He experienced failure—and still, today he’s one of the most sought-after musicians!

‼️**Trigger Warning**‼️

So, if you really want to achieve something in your life, you have to do something for it every single day! Really. Every day!

And yes, you’ll cry, you might want to quit sometimes, or come up with excuses about why things aren’t working out.

But if you truly want something from your heart, then it takes an extra portion of courage to stand up for what you really want in life!

And no, your kids, your partner, your boss, or anyone else are not responsible if you don’t make it!

People always say that!

You’ve got at least 1 to 5 minutes a day to start healing, to work on your dream, or whatever it is.

If you’re saying “No” right now, then you don’t really want it in your life. You’re just lying to yourself every single day. And that’s okay! That’s just human.

But don’t let that lie take over your life.

Get to the bottom of what you really want. And once you’ve found it, walk that path every damn day! Even if you only have a little free time.

So many therapists, coaches, and the like always say it’s never too late.

Wrong! At some point, it is too late!

Because one day you’ll be lying in a coffin, covered in dirt, eaten by worms and who-knows-what. And then what? You spent your whole life doing what your family, your friends, your soulmate—or whoever—wanted from you.

Where were you in your own life?

Tell me!

[CurlyGirl]

The last two days were very productive on the bureaucratic front.
Filled out forms, renewed documents, organized and filed everything.

It got on my nerves a little, since other people were involved and things weren’t moving fast enough for me at times 😵‍💫😁.

I still have to learn to stay calmer with these kinds of things.

But for now, everything is done.

Today I had a hypnosis session that reminded me in many ways of one that @Parsifal and I once learned ourselves.

Only this guy did it better and in a more pleasant way than the coach Parsifal and I had .

The tone of voice, melody, and calmness were really soothing, and I might use that style myself later when I work with people.

I already have a rough idea of what I’d like to inspire/accompany people with. But for now, I’m keeping it to myself. Otherwise, I’ll get a dopamine hit and end up doing nothing in the end.

Now I’m tired and ready for bed .

[CurlyGirl]

Me?
Obsessed with me?
Yes!
Yes i am!

I feel more and more comfortable in my own skin. Even though I’m two days away from my period, I find myself very good-looking!
That wasn’t the case before.

Mood swings are still present, though, especially when other people are involved.
Alone, I have them pretty well under control .

At least most of the time .

In the past few days, I’ve complained very little about myself. That’s quite a good progress.

I’m realizing more and more that I want to surround myself with people who think like me, and preferably not have other people who don’t fit into this category in my life anymore.

But sometimes that just can’t be avoided 😮‍💨.

I’ve noticed that I can get very direct, energetic, and even offensive if someone questions me or my abilities, or if it’s said that something can’t be done, or if someone said something and then claims they didn’t.

(There are some people who like to do that and then act annoyed when you call them out on it 😮‍💨)

I got interrupted while writing this post. Now I don’t remember what else I wanted to say .

By the way, I don’t like that either, and that’s why I’m starting to say more often that I don’t need interruptions.

Like now.

But it doesn’t help.

I still forgot…

[CurlyGirl]

Someone once asked me what love means to me.

I answered that love is different for everyone.

For one person, love is sitting on the couch together and enjoying a series marathon. For another, it’s exploring the world with their partner.

Love is a fine line between needing your partner and maintaining your own independence.

Love is laughing together, but also being able to talk about serious topics.

Some find love in their best friend, others in a stranger.

Love is being able to share your thoughts and feelings without the fear of being ridiculed by your partner.

In love, silence should be possible too, without the fear that your partner will pull away.

Love is a garden that keeps growing when you invest time in it.

Love is an old, crumbling house that you rebuild together.

Love is life.

[CurlyGirl]

There are people who do not want to heal.
Not because they don’t know how,
but because pain feels more familiar than the freedom beyond it.
Sometimes even the body begins to resist,
creating illness just to avoid the path of healing.

You cannot save them.
Not with love, not with patience, not with hope.
Healing is a decision that must rise from within.
And you must not lose yourself
just because someone else refuses to walk their own path.