Element Earth, HERMES
Days elapsed: 33
Days on sub(s): 10
Processing days: 23
Loops:
HERMES: 5
TEMPERANCE: 2
Alchemist ST1: 3
ALCHEMIST
Alright I was a bit quiet on this I know, mostly because I am having a tough time putting in human words what I am experiencing after just 3 loops of Alchemist.
I already mentioned it brings back my primal nature. Who I truly am deep down. But astrologically, I also have a huge tendency for the divine and spirituality, which is why Alchemist was so soothing in the first place.
I am not exaggerating when it COMPLETELY reshaped my mind. As in, it is way CLEANER. CALM. RELAXED. Yes, the mind itself. Overthinking is gone, I operate much more out of intuition, I.e. the subconscious.
I am non-reactive to external things. Or more so than before I should say. Sometimes, I still get triggered, but it’s working!
The purification part is also working. Negativity got removed out of my life on a great note. Granted, I also did an Uncrossing Ritual for 7 days while I started, but still. I see positivity everywhere and I am MUCH more disapproving of negative people. Firstly, I observe it better, secondly, I need it removed out of my life.
Focusing on the good is much better for my every day life so Alchemist already changed my life for the better.
It also improved my magical operations on a grand scale. Visualization of rituals is smoother, doing them themselves works much better, etc. For example the Uncrossing Ritual did have direct effects in real life while doing it. That was definitely Alchemist amplifying this. And this is just the first Stage? Crazy!
And yes it “forces” me to work on my spirituality, but I truly enjoy it. I seem to be finding exactly what I should be doing, which is the Qabbalah. This works best for me.
The weird stuff
I don't even know how to describe this with words. But my view on the world is upside down. I see everything differently. EVERYTHING.
All my goals changed. All my outlooks on relationships I have moved.
My standards for people changed completely.
And this is just my internal workings.
When I am out in the world, I notice hints of my subconscious everywhere. I just see that the world is only an extension of my mind. I haven’t quite reconciled how this truly works, but I am liking this newfound observation.
Out of this, the manifestations also massively improved, which, is crazy.
So, honestly, massively underrated sub. This one goes DEEP.
Recon
What's interesting is is the fact that on Alchemist I don't have much recon on the days where I run it. I actually feel fantastic. Even a day after. But then I get irritated and angry. On all other subs, this was exactly vice versa?
Maybe that is recon itself that it tries to keep me running it before having it processed? Hmm