so I have been hella away from here and just in general from everything… took a break from subs except for an occasional LBFH. however I think I am not in a recon anymore, tho I haven’t hated life it left more than anything recently.
Can’t think about suicide because well that leaves my immediate family alone and I’m the only provider for now… but I think I’ve mentally checked out from living… been chewing a few gummies and that also could be causing it, I usually take thc only for a solid sleep but I think it’s time to cut that off or at least take long breaks and cut the dosage and start back on a Sub again…