it’s hard to think of what to say when
nothing’s happening,
and everything already happened.
I’m gonna add “New Attraction Experience” and make the custom dense as fuck, fuck it.
Epiphany moment, I need to add Wonders of Life in there too.
Alright, these 2 customs are gonna be dense af but this is the shit that happens when 1) you make a support ticket and SC’s AI gives you a banger suggestion and 2) a new Fire module pack comes out.
So the conclusion:
- I’ve gotta add Main Character Energy to my WDB custom, holy shit is that custom gonna go hard in 3 months or what.
- Emperor: Crown and Capital is gonna level the fuck up out of my career custom.
Gonna pull the trigger for the career custom first, as I can easily sub out Souveran for it.
I’ll wait for March 20 to pull the trigger on the WDB custom.
For now, I’ve gotta think of names…
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Gestalten
It took 24 hours for delivery, jeez what are yall on
Announcement for Summertime has given me a direction; regenerate until June, and then turn the fuck up lets fucking go
Also gotta blueprint the next custom.
GLM
WDB
Heartsong
ESSENCE: Magnetic Social Flow
New Attraction Experience
ZPU Anti-Recon
Adaptive Scripting
Synergy: APS Head/Face
Synergy: Perfection Manifestation
Synergy: Preordained Vitality
Synergy: Wonders of Life
Synergy: Tale of the Dragon
Synergy: Secrets of Seduction
Synergy: At The Top
Synergy: Glory Incarnate
APS: Torso
Dance Mastery
The Worthiness Recalibration
Panther
Pride Unbroken
Jeez, if this thing can deliver once I get through the recon phase it’s going to hit on another level. That + Summertime is going to be something else hahahaha
It’s got looking for love, it’s got attraction, it’s got physical shifting, aura, gift of gab and there’s even purposeful healing that’s gonna get filtered through the NSE scripting. Fuck me, I’m intimidated but excited.
It’s been 5 years since I’ve started running subliminals, and I still find myself focusing on the same things, running the same track but just at a faster speed.
To what fucking end?
Regeneration gave me an eye opening moment today.
If I had the ideal woman in front of me in my life right now, and I had to choose whether or not to commit I would find myself hesitating.
I would find myself hesitating.
I tell myself I want to find the girl, I want to find the one, I want to fall in love, and yet I can’t find myself to be ready to receive that love.
The errors I see in others are mirrors of my own scars that I haven’t healed.
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wooooooo manimonia
new word, I’m inventing it, it’s mine, you heard it here first.
i wanna buy my pretty boy lover boy fuck boy man boy custom ace fucking sap
I can already feel the presults kicking in, and im ready for so much more
2025 was one of the worst years of my life, 2026 will be one of the best.
i will continue to regenerate mentally, emotionally, psychologically, physically.
i will be built anew, the phoenix shall rise once more.
i have a life to look forward to, and for that I’m so grateful. That was a completely foreign concept to me 5 years ago.
Regeneration has been the only sub I’ve ran in the past 2 weeks, as I prepare to return to a dense 2 custom stack by end of March.
I continue to learn more and more about myself while I try to figure out how to move forward. I’ve decided to go to therapy, to truly ensure that I’m doing the necessary work alongside running Regeneration and my daily journaling. The app I use creates insights and identifies trends and thought patterns in what I say and write, and has been able to shed so much light on myself and the deep rooted traumas that impact how I move through life.
I feel like our traumas come to light the most in romance, where we get exposed the most once we are vulnerable. I can say for myself that the mask I present to the world (the many masks actually) all have to come off eventually, and that’s when the real me is revealed.
If I look back in the past, I can see that the way I received love from the women in my life drastically affected how I would treat them. I’ve been conditioned to conditional love from a lifetime of trauma, and my nervous system was unable to process unconditional love when it came into my life for the first time.
Fuck.
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The last custom I purchased with Heartsong was in 2023, called Eros.
This one will be called…Eros. Lol.
I love the name tbh, it fits so well.
Main Disc Thread - The NEW Eros (Free Upgrade Available in 3-5 Business Days!)
Had a massive realization where I was able to pinpoint the exact traumatic experience from childhood that has had the largest impact on the way I relate to people. It was surprising how repressed it was, because it was something that I knew and understood happened to me but I didn’t really realize it until it hit me this morning.
“The Alabaster Girl” is often recommended in this forum, and I’ve finally started reading it and it completely took me off guard in the nature of the prose. It really appeals to my artistic side, and I love the message and the purpose of the text.
This book is actually what gave me that realization; afterwards I went ahead and did an extremely beneficial roleplay exercise that lifted a large weight off of my shoulders. It feels like I took a big step today mentally, and I’m glad for that.
Regeneration has been extremely beneficial for me, and I’m happy I’ve been able to commit this long to healing and I’m happier that it’s been actually working. I’ve also decided to go to therapy to see if there could be additional benefit with speaking with a professional, on top of all of the work I’ve been doing with my regular journaling and journal analyses (thanks LLMs).
I just really want to get better, I want to heal so that I could take the next steps in my life that I’ve always wanted.
I’m on pace to reach my first 6 digit income year of my life, but it feels like I’m barely able to make ends meet.
My body dysmorphia refuses to see it but all my health stats and even pictures uploaded to Claude tell me that I have an impressive base of muscle.
I act like I’m an incel but I’m regularly attracting & dating pretty women in their mid 20s.
My mind is out to fucking get me. It feels like I’m never enough and this is a void directly caused by childhood trauma. I keep going back to “taking the next steps in my life”, I feel like I’m running around in circles doing the same thing, I even remarked as much in this post.
My big realization after 5 years of running subliminals?
No amount of money, power and pussy will let you forget your mental and emotional trauma. One way or another, it needs to be addressed if you want to live the life you’ve envisioned for yourself.
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S/o to @Tobyone for recommending alabaster girl to me, feels like I’m healing thru reading it
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I’m excited for v2 Eros
V1 Eros was this:
KBBC 4 Core
Heartsong Core
Inner Circle Core
NRE Core
Apollon
Charisma/Flirting Improver
Total Nonchalance
You Are Not Alone
Song of Joy
Story Teller
Eagle Eye
Enchanting Smile
Moment Immortalized
Stop Porn
Gratitude Embodiment
Hegemon
Extreme Exercise Motivation
Deep Sleep
Stonelike
Dance Mastery
I got most of these inside of Eros v2 in the form of Synergy modules. KBBC4 is a fucking quality module to have in there (especially cause I ran it for 7 months prior), so I’m excited to see how WDB fares in its stead. I’ve got the ESSENCE of Inner Circle too, I’ve got so many more modules related to healing and physical shifting as well because I’m aiming to get into the leanest shape I’ve ever been in my life. I’ve got modules directly related to staying strong, feeling worthy around the beautiful women that will appear with my manifestation modules.
Funny how I had stop porn in there and I have to say that’s a must when you run KBBC, because the horniness level on that subliminal is fucking ridiculous. Only stage 3 is worse, I’ve never experienced anything like it. Lowkey I miss it, I might be down to go through KBBC again, especially if it gets updated. That subliminal was fucking rough, so I’m very proud I was able to get through it (except stage 3, that was just too much).
But yeah, I ran Eros and a month later slept with the hottest girl I ever had in my life. She was 24, gorgeous, so fucking thick, her tits were like Valium.
A month later I slept with another girl who in retrospect was the best girl I’ve ever had in my life, and I just couldn’t do right by her. But that girl was my heart’s song, and thanks to her I know what I need in a partner to bring the best out of me.
Potent results in a 3 month time period, delivered exactly what it needed to.
I’m so fucking excited for New Eros now, I can’t wait to see who I will meet. It’s gonna be special.
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Every day is a challenge, every day is filled with constant waves of ups and downs and I need to stop letting external factors dictate my internal reality.
I’m just letting the previously lived and potential pain of loneliness dictate my actions more than I want.
he can’t fuck you like i can
where do you think you’re going
he can’t fu-
found another girl. kinda meh about it. feels like i’m going through the motions and trying to make myself feel something that isn’t there. but i really want to feel something.
might gaslight myself into heartbreak, that feels like a new one.
idk what to say, part of me feels off about it because I know I should lock in on myself and what I need to accomplish for me. Other part of me wants to have a summer fling and this feels like it would line up quite nicely in terms of timing.
One part of me is fearful because I may be vulnerable at the moment due to my mental.
Another part of me hasn’t came in 36 days, which is the longest I’ve gone without in 2+ years. Do I unlock levitation after 90 days?
I’m hoping Eros’ arrival will bring clarity on what to do next. I’m looking forward to it.
I’m happy about my stack right now, and ready to commit to the long term.
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Eros is here.
I have an appointment with a therapist tonight.
I am lost now, but I won’t be in 6 months.
I just need to be patient.
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“Oliver!”
She yelled, chasing him from door-to-door.
The ever elusive Oliver, with that shit-eating grin, oscillating from entry to exit and back.
“No parade tomorrow!”
No bother, he thought.
What’s a fucking parade tomorrow, compared to this moment right here?
She’s chasing me! For once! I’m the victor! I’m the conqueror! I hold all the cards!
“NO!”
Yes, my dear. Yes.
Oliver ducks under the bench, weaving around its posts in a figure-eight motion. This is the greatest moment of my life; 4 years of eternal drag for this moment of greatness.
This is the peak of life, and Oliver wasn’t wrong.
When do we ever get the chance to experience such a beautiful moment of liberty, happiness, play, all at once? And before noon no less?!
Oliver truly did experience greatness, catharsis even. I wish I was little Oliver in that moment, experiencing the joy and amazement of something as simple as one way doors. I lived vicariously through Oliver that moment, wishing that I had someone to run after me, screaming as I run into the street with traffic right before me.
Who here has lived a life greater than Oliver?
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As she sat beside me I thought, I’ll be okay.
Summertime + Dragon Reborn: Regeneration
“The Open Sanctuary”
Healing & Transformation
These ratings are general guidelines based on typical experiences. Every subconscious mind is unique — your personal history, mindset, and inner landscape may shift these values considerably. Trust your own experience above any chart.
Regeneration does the deep healing work — processing, restoring, creating the internal sanctuary. Summertime is what becomes possible when that sanctuary is built: the door opens, warmth flows outward, and you discover that the version of you on the other side of healing is someone who genuinely enjoys being alive. Regeneration builds the foundation. Summertime is the house you actually want to live in. Together: heal deeply, then live warmly.
Combining the two may be ideal for me. I think I want to go at it solo with Regeneration until May-June, depending on what happens, but then I’m down to combine the two to transition into the summer. And it will be a great summer.
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Gimmick after gimmick after gimmick isn’t going to help me get to where I want. It just won’t ever happen.
It doesn’t matter how rich I become, how jacked I get, how good I talk, how smart I think, how competent I am, none of that matters.
Worth is determined internally and expressed externally, but it is and always has been a reflection of the internal state.
I will NEVER get anywhere without the change in my internal state, in my internal self-conception and self-image. Once that changes (and it must change RADICALLY), that is when everything else will be possible.
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Reading through my old handwritten journals, I’ve never done this before. Literally 11 years of writing before me, it’s wild to read now. I can even gauge my mental state based on the etchings themselves.
Some of the highlights…
September 27, 2016:
“What if I could write anything, and that “anything” would make sense? Because these thoughts are a mess, which I’m pretty sure is a line from a Biggie song or something. Oh look at me with my knowledge of “culture”. I’m “cultured” apparently. […] I wanted to refer to some ad or commercial but then I thought “that’s way too David Foster Wallace” of me, only for me to realize that 1) what does “too David Foster Wallace” even mean, and 2) how the fuck am I supposed to know? I’ve never read a thing from him in my life.
"He’s one of my biggest influences.” Yeah, thanks buddy."
Proud to see that I’m still a snarky cunt 10 years later.
February 22, 2021:
“We had our own little world and you left me alone inside it.”
That line hits, because it’s repeated again, with the girl I left a few weeks ago. Only she’s the one left alone in the world and here I am, trying to figure out what is fucking wrong with me that I would let go of something so beautiful.
March 12, 2021:
“I used to think being strong was not being affected. No. Being strong is letting it affect you but being able to move past it; seeing the pain, walking through it, letting it flow through you, and then letting it leave.
You can break and still be strong.”
Damn. You can break and still be strong.
October 29, 2023:
"What is Belgium? Belgium is sweet melancholy. A beautiful woman, but not too beautiful, outstaged by her sisters. A humble, conventional beauty, like the small town girl next door.
Beyond her eyes lies a pensive sadness, an ocean of emotion kept under wraps by the veil she wears when facing the world. Her insecurity cannot be shown, cannot be known, except by those who meet her embrace.
But that embrace is only temporary.
She will push you away, like she does everyone else. But it’s ok, that’s just who she is."
Fuck. Sounds like I gotta learn my lessons from Belgium all over again.
November 2, 2023:
"The beautiful woman in the window with her gorgeous features, alluring eyes & mischievous smile, the dark night sky and fluorescent red lights juxtaposed with the glow of her high-waist thong underneath her plaid skirt […] underneath her sillicone chest covered by leather straps barely hiding her erect nipples, she does her absolute best to hide her shivers from the cold (but the goosebumps on her legs cannot). She is the girl who can’t meet your gaze, her shame is clear and her pain is real. Her lit cigarette brings her temporary relief but her struggle is unavoidable.
As countless men pass her by, gawking at her highly sexualized exterior, she wonders why she cannot reveal her true self to others. She feels accursed by the lifestyle, but she’s chained to her daytime material pleasure. There is no way out, so she accepts her fate and makes the best of it.
And so, the smile returns. The mischievous pout returns as she waddles her behind for the onlookers, and then the door opens. The blinds close, only briefly, before they are opened again, as she ushers the boy out while she adjusts her thong, bouncing her hips from side-to-side. And then the cycle repeats.
Beautiful. Sweet. Kind. Mischievous. Empty. Material. Robotic. Transactional. Temporary. Fleeting.
There is no time to be pensive, because life must go on."
damn that was good. Being horny is good for my creative juices apparently, I can picture the scene perfectly and I don’t even remember it. AND I WROTE IT.
November 3, 2023:
“I need to remember that if things don’t work out, it’s not about my own deficiencies. It could be deficiency, but it could also be timing, context, ultimately it doesn’t matter. What matters is that there is no special someone, but many special people out there and it’s just a matter of being patient. TBC”
And today I find myself actively working on this problem finally, when this problem was already identified 2 and a half years ago. But instead of healing, I built and bought Eros and used it to ignore the problems underneath.
2 and a half years later, and I’m back to where I was then. Buying a new version of Eros, but WITH a focus on healing because I need to stop the cycle. This little fucker wrote TBC smh, well here’s part 2 motherfucker.
January 24, 2024
“She looked in your eyes, and said:
‘You aren’t your father.’
‘I see your qualities, and I believe in you.’”
No wonder I fell for that girl.
January 27, 2024.
Final excerpt I’m going to note down here, because it’s straight forward.
Plan to have family:
Step 1 - Become a man.
- Gain greater control over emotions
- Positive self-conception
- Commitment to discipline & values
- Achieve independence financially
Step 2 - Find wife.
- Baseline minimum prettiness
- Smart
- Inspirational
- Feminine
- Either willing to convert or practice religion
This is where it all truly comes full circle. I wrote the plan out 2 years ago, and today I’ve created a custom entirely built around the execution of this plan. I’m happy to see and know that this plan was at least ingrained within me subconsciously, so the direction is there.
I had a rough 2025 and 2026 has been extremely chaotic as I try to steer all this towards the right direction. We lose our grip at times, but I think I’m getting it back.
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