I found SubliminalClub yesterday after searching for ultrasonic subliminals online. I’ve been with another producer for 2 years…no major issues really. I just felt a bit dependent on everyone else’s approval and validation of myself. It’s disempowering, to say the least. I’m mid-40’s, but I’ve returned to acting like a small child many, many times. I’ve stayed for the emotional healing subs, which have worked nicely for me. But still, I was looking for some deep masculine subliminal training. With or without subliminals, I’ve needed and wanted that. I knew they might be found together in subliminals, and I found SubliminalClub. Here I go.
Yesterday, I looked around, and purchased Emperor and Rebirth. I listened to them both for only 4 hours before taking Alexander’s advice and purchasing Ascension. Mind you, Emperor works deep and fast. Alexander said to go with Ascension, and I felt like saying “Who the f*** are you to tell me…?” (I credit Emperor for that. I was really wound up on it). After having Emperor off and replacing it with Ascension, I replied (calmly) that I’d taken his suggestion. I’m glad I have Emperor, but I’m not really ready for that level of push. I liked it…but one step at a time.
I ran it all night on ultrasonic. When I got into work, I was tired…but my coworker noticed I was in my own world. He asked if I was alright. I did a normal thing I do where I dismissed my own thinking and listened to him. But…I also had my guards up. He’s from NY, he’s a young veteran, and the first thing I asked him was "how’re you this morning? His response was “good until I saw you”. I know he picked up my distaste for his disrespect since it showed on my face, and I didn’t say anything else. He’d been an asshole, and I’d let him know. I normally lie to myself quickly. This was new for me to let it show, as I normally act like a toilet wipe seeking his approval. I’ve been real desperate to have someone know me and like me. I’ll share why some other time. Not now.
During lunch, I turned Ascension on on my phone, on ultrasonic. I wondered if I’d feel it like I have with other subliminals. I may have gotten a taste of it–but I was tired. Not much sleep last night, even though I got in bed on time. I’m unsure if it’s the subliminals, and I’ll drop early tonight.
I read the replies to my introductory post this morning and during lunch, and I’d asked about Ex Machina. I learned it is the Extreme version of Ascension, so I put it on once I got home, looping it on ultrasonic. I’ve wondered how it may be more powerful, remembering Emperor yesterday, so I chose it seeking a little more push. I’ll share what I experience later.
I did notice something in my thinking this morning before getting to work. I didn’t NEED everyone like I normally (fearfully) do. In fact, I realized I work for an asshole in the business world…and only I can change that.
I may share more later. Going to rest for a while