Subconscious Virtuoso - Stumbling into the Light 🔥

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Day 1 of DRG2 @ 7 min run time. Starting off with a little more initial exposure than DRG1, but I think I’ll be fine.

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I woke up to an annoying problem that I had to deal with instead of getting to work like I’d planned, but instead of dropping down into a “problem state” of being I thought about the worst case scenario for a few seconds and let it go. Then I shot out a couple of texts and within an hour the issue was resolved.

All that to say, my composure and inner peace wasn’t disturbed very much at all once I accepted the initial “impact” of the situation.

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Found myself considering “purpose” at various points throughout the day…no doubt a result of DRG2’s digging deeper into whatever internal limitations it finds.

Alongside that there’s been a noticeable uptick in my desire for various comforts, which I didn’t exactly overcome, lol.

Oh well, tomorrow’s a new day (if I get to wake up). And I plan on fasting so I’ll get to practice self-mastery again.

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Up to 9 minutes today with DRG2…

Yesterday was a little rough feeling hungry most of the day, and there was a sense of melancholy that came around, but only when I focused on the things that triggered it, lol.

It’s a signal to me that the thoughts I’m giving credence to are false, or whatever decision I made about myself in that context needs to be updated.

I’m looking forward to breakfast

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Only 2 listening days of Dragon Blood Gold and the things bubbling up into my awareness are cutting to the core and depth of who I think I am.

I had a vivid dream last night about existing peacefully within a societal cult which was fascinating...

Everybody around seemed excited and eager to join the cult, and the cult made everything that they were about seem awesome (because a lot of it was): parties, women, games, awards, recognition, serving a higher purpose, money, prestige, etc.

I liked some of the people there and had made some acquaintances, and as we were hanging out at what seemed like a large restaurant / club an important authority within the cult showed up.

A couple friends asked the important guy if they could get an invite to the exclusive “cool kids” party coming up, but the guy said “no…unless you’re ready to join right now.” They were super eager and leaned in to know more, but I wasn’t interested and didn’t vibe with joining so I walked away. I remember thinking that the guy seemed like a cool dude but something was off…

I left that part of town and found myself peacefully walking to go do some work with someone who was listing off all the reasons why he thought it would be good to join the cult. I said, “It sounds like you’re having some doubts.” He admitted it with a subtle look because it was taboo to be against joining, then he asked what I thought about it all…

I told him to “trust that voice inside that you think you can’t hear sometimes but is always there”. I asked him where he thought that calm inner voice came from? He didn’t have an answer. So I told him that I believe we have a Creator and aren’t just “randomly here.”

He listened intently and waited for me to say more, so I continued to tell him about experiences that led me to that belief…

…and I woke up mid sentence, speaking it quietly, with clear memory of my thoughts and feeling within the dream and what I was going to share next.

Interesting effect of diving deeper into spirituality and running DRG in tandem.

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Half way through this first cycle with Dragon Blood Gold and reality has been bending in ways that’ve surprised me in good ways and triggered some doubt about being prepared for things to radically change in my life…

And the answer to that doubt is: I’m prepared enough, and I’ll learn and adapt as I go.

The conditioning to have the “right answer” BEFORE the test has been a helluva weed to root out of my psyche. Doesn’t help that my natural inclination is to dive headfirst into rabbit holes to explore AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE about and around a topic of interest like it’s my job.

I mean, Sun Tzu said that if you know yourself AND your enemy, you CAN’T LOSE, right? Which means tons of hours of research, right?? Right??? lol

Anyway, what I’m trying to say is, I notice I’ve been making decisions faster and not deliberating over what direction to take or changes to make for too long, over the last week especially. I’m placing far more priority on staying GROUNDED IN REALITY as opposed to getting caught in a cycle of mental masturbation.

I’d guess that it’s a combo of the leadership and cognitive scripting in DRG2 that’s kicking my over-preparation tendency to the curb, and whatever other secret sauce in the regality, wisdom, and values department they added.

It’s so much easier to ACT when it comes from a place of authenticity, humility, and curiosity…and this sub is kicking those traits into high gear for me.

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Yesterday, I entertained the thought: what if money wasn’t necessary for survival and everything was available to me, what would I spend a lot of my time and energy on?

What would I want to do?

The answer is crystal clear. It’s been the same for a long time.

But now, I finally realized I’ve been trying to live a “double life” so to speak…I mean, I’ve felt the inner friction that’s manifested as procrastination and time-wasting for a long time now…because I had the misguided notion that “this is how it’s done.”

Today, for the first time in a long time I feel the certainty of ONE. One life. One purpose.

It’s not about being “this” OR “that”…

It’s about the truth that “this” is FOR “that”, then BEING REAL about it and absolutely ruthless about what that looks like in the day to day dealings with everything.

Authenticity and connection the the innerman, man…it’s a helluva drug.

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What information out there isn’t rehashed or repurposed?

There’s tons of value in derivative works. Sometimes the value is much greater than the original, too.

It doesn’t derive it’s value from you.

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Last day of the first cycle with Dragon Blood Gold…

I started “slow” with 5 minute loops and worked up to full loops fairly quickly due to how smooth things felt. There definitely were some “deeper” recon moments on DRG2 than DRG1, and there were a few days over the last few weeks where all I wanted to do was be distracted, sit on the couch, and do NOTHING. I managed to still get a couple things done on those days, but just noting that they happened and there were productivity dips.

Dragon Blood takes a slower approach that can often dissolve the more stubborn areas that Dragon Fire is unable to

To help facilitate this, a book showed up that’s having me look at what my “winning strategy” has been, how to dig in and determine what drives it specifically, and how to step outside of it to do the seemingly impossible.

To me, it seems like a cool tool to use to develop awareness about invisible processes that automatically pilot the ship, sometimes to undesired or the “same” locations you’d prefer not to travel to anymore. Automatic pilot has largely been responsible for my failure at levels that require a different view of things in order to navigate successfully.

So, the TIMING of this is perfect and fits right in with what Dragon Blood is working on, and for who I envision being in the not too distant future.

your natural state will have a degree of calmness that helps you handle anything life throws at you

I forgot this was part of DRG2, but my “zen” has definitely increased so to speak. Thinking back, I notice it most in those moments where I’ve “messed something up” and felt little to no emotional disturbance other than to acknowledge it and move on.

That plus whatever virtue sauce was added into the scripting has helped the progress I’ve made this month feel fluid and good at a depth that’s hard to explain.

Also, I’m enjoying the cognitive enhancements in DRG2… I’m structuring my days and data more efficiently. And my pattern recognition ability seems super charged.

Going to take some rest days then do another cycle with Dragon Blood to dissolve even more junk so the runway is clearer for Dragon Flight to really help me take off fast.

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Into Day 2 of the break between cycles and I’m experiencing some turbulence…

Feels like the crosswinds are fighting to take me off course in either direction, and there’s “so much to do” all at once.

This might be an influence of whatever productivity and cognitive enhancement scripting is in Dragon Blood Gold going into full execution mode…along with a stronger drive to LEAD myself in a certain direction.

It feels a lot like I’m simultaneously tapping into a part of me that loves to “crank things to 11” while my default program of “let’s navigate this successfully” fights to keep that wild man in check, lol.

There’s an intersection that happens in certain contexts where I’m totally able to crank up my intensity to my heart’s content WHILE successfully navigating things…and I still mess things up sometimes, but I don’t make it mean something “bad”.

So, I suspect that the “turbulence” lies in reconciling the part of me that perceives a “potential danger” with the part of me that sees a “fun opportunity”.

Reflecting intensely the past couple of days on my pattern of past behaviors while digging for the underlying strategy I use to “successfully navigate” life has produced some useful fruit.

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Didn’t notice that I wasn’t hungry most of the day today…

I found somewhat of a flow state in most things I did today which felt good, but most surprising to me thinking back on it is that it happened when writing up preselling material too.

That’s new.

And I like it.

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Decided to start the 2nd cycle with Dragon Blood Gold before bed tonight instead of first thing tomorrow. And probably going to keep listening times confined to the evenings for this cycle.

Added in Nouveau RICH to get a dose of the NWE scripting too.

This month is going to be good, I can already feel it.

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Dreams were a bit strange last night, but that’s no surprise after running subs before bed. Not feeling very well rested tho, so it might be an issue.

From now on I’ll add a buffer of a couple hours before it’s time for shut eye. Try to lessen the processing time during sleep.

While making some coffee and listening to a podcast, my mind started to wander into different angles I could try when posting. Even though I felt groggy af, my mind was serving up fresh ideas like it was saying “c’mon bro, let’s gooooo” lol

That short loop of NR last night seems to already be kicking in.

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The leadership and wisdom aspects of Dragon Blood Gold are really kicking in this cycle. It could be that running the sub in the evening to process more during sleep helps with being better able to execute the following day, but I’ll need more data before I decide to make this a permanent switch in my listening pattern.

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Taught a group yesterday, and with only a vague notion of what I wanted to cover we ended up having a session that everyone felt really good about afterwards. Everything just flowed. From the technical aspects to the psychological, I interweaved several concepts and addressed problems that came up without any issues. I mean, except the parts where I didn’t have the best ways to transmit what I was doing lol, but I figured out how fairly quickly.

Fun stuff.

Also, I dove into the deep end of some spiritual exploration yesterday. I’m wrestling with it, but there’s a sense of something profound waiting for me on the other side of it. I’ve already had glimpses, or I don’t know that I’d even be willing to engage with it. It’s tough to wrap my small mind around at this point.

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I keep having all kinds of coincidences and good things happening for me, lining up with the outcomes I prefer and the knowledge and wisdom I seek…

From having someone “randomly” change a scheduled meeting time, which allowed me to schedule in something I really wanted to do…to receiving deeper insight into specific concepts I’m pondering from people with direct experience of those things.

And there’s a HUGE pull towards even more organization and efficient usage of my time and energy in my day-to-day. Like there’s a greater urgency to take action on things.

There’s a momentum that’s building.

And it’s probably due to a dissolving of some of those unseen limitations and blockages I didn’t realize were there.

Two loops into the second cycle with DRG2. The rest of this month is going to be fun.

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Had another great experience and got more insight into refining my leadership style yesterday…

Even though I felt like it was a bit disjointed and not as fluid or seamless as the other day because I got too into the weeds on a couple things, I got feedback afterwards that the group was “really engaged with you and into it.”

The vibe of the group was good throughout – it helps that they’re a hard working bunch – and that’s what I realized that I’ve gotten better at noticing, managing, and directing: the vibe.

I switch in and out of being jovial and serious faster than superman can put his glasses on. And they respond accordingly, which is a decent sign that the level of respect is high…

And that Dragon Blood Gold is really coming through on that front.

The influence of the script is unnoticeable until I reflect and journal on experiences, and even then I sometimes don’t see. Like I didn’t really see how much respect I receive at all until now…because it feels normal to me.

It might be an effect of the virtue scripting taking my sense of responsibility and humility and injecting it with steroids? I don’t know, but I like it, lol.

And speaking of humility, I’ve received some strong doses of it this week. One was a spiritual dose that brought tears. It was beautiful.

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Heard a very successful person say that a billionaire told them that money is “cruel mistress” and if not given enough attention, she’ll leave.

There’s something about that that made something inside revolt – just to the idea of large sums of money and how to generate it – so I take it that the NWE is helping bring that to my attention.

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Productivity is kicking into high gear. Chunking time. New plan. New tactics. Shorter sentences.

Normally I don’t plan too far out because when plans meet reality the “how” usually changes, and I prefer to “surf the waves” as they come. BUT, my expectations have taken a serious leap towards accomplishing things that feel impossible right now.

So, I set a couple of ridiculous time constraints – reaching the finish line before the “deadline” probably won’t happen – and I’m going full speed. No balance.

Dragon Blood Gold productivity and cognitive enhancements + Nouveau RICH iteration and boldness scripting =

(I didn’t have this response to NR and the NWE the first run through, so I think the purification and inner refinement of DRG1+2 has opened up a new level for it to tap into.)

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Speaking of plans meeting reality, I had a packed schedule yesterday and nothing got done because reality had other plans for me…

I got railroaded by a high fever so I had to send out messages to cancel and reschedule, and not do anything else but survive.

Not a “big deal” in the grand scheme of things, but the timing of it still bothered me.

I’m still feeling a little off today, but there’s an underlying push to get back into the game.

As I lay in bed yesterday, I wondered how long I could take time away from business and stay afloat…I didn’t like the answer. So, the strategy is changing a little bit.

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Going through the last couple of days of recovery, it’s obvious that something within hasn’t been addressed completely. And it’s super tempting to swap out NR with Paragon for the back half of this cycle, but I really don’t like to swap mid-cycle…

Or maybe I’ll just run it for a couple loops over the next few days and see how I feel. Yea, that’s what I’ll do. No sense in being stubborn about something that will give me an advantage I could use right now. I’ll let the “data” inform my next decision.

“Thinking out loud” on a screen in a public forum is super useful sometimes, lol.

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One loop of Paragon seemed to have a positive effect. Sleep was better last night, and some other sensations seem to have subsided for now. Focus feels more focused today. Using Paragon was a good call.

On the Dragon Blood Gold leadership and wisdom front, I asked a seemingly simple question in a group that created some polarization I didn’t expect but probably should’ve…

I asked for recommendations on a specific topic. The first person offered a “warning” about the rabbit hole going deep. The second person actually gave me their recommendation. And a third responded to the second’s recommendation with a warning about their recommendation. Then it devolved from there.

I simply thanked each of them for sharing their input and the insights it sparked, then connected it back to giving recommendations.

Instead of jumping in there with them and arguing points, adding my own subjective take about their assertions, getting triggered by my own beliefs, I simply handled it professionally with kindness and respect, and moved things along.

All regal-like and shit…

That’s a clear sign to me that DRG2 is doing some deep massage on my brain.